Allow anxiety

Yes that's right, I said allow anxiety.

It's not a typo.

My body tells me I am in danger. I notice sweaty hands, GI problems, extra energy, and a whirlwind of thoughts on the past and future.

A long time ago, anxiety served a purpose and ever since I have resisted anxiety. Resisted life. I changed my behavior to avoid anxiety. As a child I did not know anything about anxiety and I was scared after walking into a building that had a small fire the previous day. Ever since I have resisted every loud noise that reminds me of the fire alarm going off and seeing the fire trucks pull up. No one explained to me to allow what I felt.

Now I have watched a video and the presenter is asking me to allow anxiety. Which leads to more sweat. I see the point in allowing instead of fighting.

At the same time I attach meaning to.... But this keeps me from my goals.

Leads to more frustration.

I have control of my life. I don't believe that I have control, but I do. I can get through my anxiety. On the other side I am stronger and ready for my future. That's what I want.

Here I sit, feeling the sweat, and letting my thoughts to release control. What will I find?

I have found a less anxious me. One who is free to let my body learn what situations need protection, and which to allow anxiety.

I hope those who read this will find who each one of you can be. And stop resisting every step. I know we all want control. The last week, I had a wildfire within 20 miles from my home. Smoke came in, and it took time but I did allow the anxiety to bring me to this point. And for that I am grateful. How can I say this, you may ask. Because I have developed strength.

But anxiety just hurts so bad!!!

I try to sit with the anxiety and let it dissipate on its own. I may use relaxation techniques or CBT and I'm looking to add DBT to my skill set as well.

Only when those fail do I take meds.