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Member Since May 2015
Location: Temple City, CA
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I've never lived anywhere but Southern California. In fact, I have lived on the same street for almost 50 years!
I have BPD and my ex-FP (favorite person) dumped me in May. I have been devastated ever since. It's too tempting for me to even live in the same state as he does. I want to drive by his house and stalk him, but I don't want to be that kind of person. So I made a drastic decision to move, solo, 1600 miles away to Nebraska. I don't know anyone there and I'm really scared. I had to pack and prepare all by myself. Nobody helped me. I thought I had friends but they didn't come to assist me. No one has said goodbye or that they will miss me. I can't believe I haven't had a mental breakdown yet. Today is moving day and I still feel like there's so much to do. I haven't slept in 2 days and I don't have a route planned out or anything. It doesn't seem real yet. I thought my ex-FP would contact me by now and I would cancel my plans to move but that hasn't happened. Do you think I should try to postpone the move until I feel more stable? Am I too fragile for this big of a change? Or should I just say hell with it and take off? I'm trying to see this as an adventure but it just feels like a punishment. My anxiety is through the roof. The doctor took me off my meds last year and it has been traumatic trying to adjust to life without them. |
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Member Since Apr 2016
Location: North America
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If it feels like a punishment, maybe you should postpone if you can. I don't know. I think there will always be some anxiety around moving, but I would want some feeling of adventure and excitement too.
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