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Default Jan 13, 2019 at 03:04 PM
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Hello all;

So I saw a psychiatrist and after a decade of misunderstanding, he told me that my previous diagnosis didn't fit and he had to "re-do" my diagnosis. Fortunately, it wasnt him who made the previous ones hehe..

Anyway, I gotta say it was a shock at first, I didnt quite get it cause I'm a very very socially comfortable.. Or I thought I was. He had told me that it could manifest in other ways than social phobia, but life went on and I started remembering how I used to feel and realizing all the things I feel I can't do and receiving that diagnosis is quite the relief! But now what, I started reading a book about it written by Alice Miller, dunno what the english title is tho. I'm a really slow reader but its very helpful so far!

I just felt like I could write about it..
There is also a panic disorder that is more... "Active" if I'm not on medication.

So here's the thing.. I just can't work.. Like, I love working, like .. I could work anytime but the thought of the social pressure is kinda paralizing me.. When I was sixteen everything was made worst cause I was being pushed to geta job and when I'd try to I'd have panic attacks and then I'd be accused of being lazy and just didn't want to work. Woah, its kind of relieving to "say" it out loud after so long..

I'm very conscious of what happens and always been very proactive about it. I used to be unable to get out of my room and now I'm very good compared to before, so much work done and I gotta admit I'm so tired. I've been doing that for years and now.. Still can't have a simple job.

I'm going back to school in a week, I feel good about it, it's very good that I've gone so far Considering I quit cause of the way I felt 8 years ago.

Anyway, I've never been on finantial support either, I had a job for three years and it ended so badly, I hurt myself cause I'd so stressed and tired.. Since then I've been doing photography jobs, which is so much work but feels so much easier.. It's ridiculous how short I am on money.. Not my main concern however.

Thanks for reading so far! Feel free to share your thoughts if you wish 🙌
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Thanks for sharing your circumstances. And good luck with going back to school! You didn't mention what type of school you'll be attending. However here are links to some articles, from PC's archives, that offer suggestions for succeeding in college when you have a mental illness (including links to various additional articles):

College Survival Guide for Mental Health - Psych Central

Mental Health & Coping Skills Guide for College Students

Coping with Being a Student & College Life

Perfectionism: A Growing Challenge for College Students

The 'Stressed Out' College Student


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Default Jan 14, 2019 at 01:17 AM
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Oh wow thank you so much for all the links! that's actually a great help ^^

As for school, Im going back to college to study Human Science (not sure if its the right translation for it tho) to get used to being back in an academic environment while I'll be getting my portfolio ready so I can apply for a Private Digital Art school where I'll study Animation 3D & Visual Effects
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Hi Matt-

It sounds like you have trouble when you feel as though you're supposed to do something. Even if you want to, when it comes from another person, telling you to do this or that, it triggers resentment. Is this correct? Or am I way off base?

I ask because it's a very common behavior in us avoidants - the moment something feels like an imposition, we shut down.
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