[cowboy87]

So i really have no one to talk to about my bipolar when it begins to change on me. My wife has told me she is sick of hearing about it. My pastor does not really understand it. It causes my parents to freak out. My friends just tell me to cheer up.

Lately I have been going from hypomania to mania. I hate mania because it always ends with devastating consequences.

Symptoms I am having now:
-Delusions of Graduer
-Pathological Lying
-Excessive Spending
-Sleeping way too much or way too little
-Compulsive Binge Eating
-Doing unethnical things at work.

I am really frustrated as I just got over an episode a few months ago. THe lamotrigine and abilify seemed to be working great. But it seems whenever my doctor and I find a good combination of meds. My moods will come back and haunt me with something more fierce.

If anyone knows how I am feeling please feel free to leave some advice or kind words as I get through this. I am calling the doctor in the A.M. and asking to be put on Seroquel for a couple weeks so I do not have another mental train wreck.

[valerie1206]

I had experienced certain things you listed here but might not in an intense way like you described. I think you must be very lonely at this stage of life, and these consequenses as well as negative thoughts make things seem worse.
Meditating and praying would help a lot when you feel weak and lonely. Also your doctor is still there so don't worry much. Many people have to live with bipolar disorder most of their life, I also experienced stage like this, and I'm surprised that I'm still alive now. So I'm sure you will overcome it.

[lacerta]

It seems that you lack support and understanding from persons around you. Are you involved in theraphy, it could help you to understand you illness better, to find a support you need to talk about this. Are you taking sleeping pills? For me they help to settle down the sleeping problem and to get out of episode sooner. Remember that episodes come and go, so you can try to calm yourself down saying to yourself that it's going to pass. Sports might help to settle down frustration. Hugs

Hey you ain't alone cowboy, everybody thinks I'm crazier then a loon to begin with, what with the mood and personality changes. Heck, I've also been accused of faking. The only place to vent is on here, and I don't rightly feel like I can or should because none of it makes any kind of sense, so I keep quiet. Shoot, even my pdoc doesn't want to hear about it. She just wants to scratch out a rx and send you out all proud of herself. I much rather get me a bird or something in a cage to talk to because all the other critters go looking for someone else. I guess I need to go find a meeting some where's but I really don't like talking about myself.

[Pastel Kitten]

I may not be able to relate to the intensity of your manias, since I only get hypomanic, but I definitely can relate with having no one to really discuss this with. I can't stand that generic "just cheer up!" if only it was that simple. This constant changing creates quite the headache! (what an understatement! )