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When I was first diagnosed about 14 years ago, I was told I had manic depression. My first response was "I don't know what that is." Frankly, I didn't know what the term bipolar disorder was either. The psychiatrist said he was taking me off Lexapro and wanted me to start Lamictal. I basically said I wasn't interested. He gave me a pamphlet about bipolar disorder on my way out, which I soon threw away. I didn't tell my husband about that. I immediately quit seeing that psychiatrist and going to his group therapy. I only returned to him about one year later after a major event. He hospitalized me the next day. I pretty much accepted the diagnosis at that time.
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#42
Everything. It justifies every wrong I do. "Bipolar made me do it".
Before, I was on my own. Do you gamble?. __________________ ]Roses are red. Violets are blue.[ Look for the positive in the negative. PIRILON. If lemons fall from the sky, make lemonade. Unknown. Nothing stronger than habit. Victor Hugo. You are the slave of what you say, and the master of what you keep. Unknown. |
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ocasionally. I do enjoy betting on the horse racing best.
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no not at all. I think my life is a big waste
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I can be humorous, but am not really a joke teller. My humor is more along the lines of a humorous statement Carrie Fisher once made:
"My moods don't just swing - They bounce, pivot, recoil, rebound, oscillate, fluctuate, and occasionally pirouette." Describe a fun day or moment when hypomanic or manic. |
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I was diagnosied in 2002 severly depressed hospitalized didnt eat for a week cried and couldnt talk to anyone was put on litium and wellbutrin after i was stable on lithium. Then after my kids i was on just a maintenance dose of lamictol then went off that wen i was having fatigue and my vision got blurry without asking a doctor because we moved around quite a bit in that time period. I just spent 10 waisted years off meds thinking it was something else- convinced! I have been to 3 different general practitioners looking for the cause of my episodes of fatigue and depression refused to go on a mood stabalizer. tested for autoimmune, MS, Cancer, Sleep disorders, connective tissue, allergies.Tried every diet protocol under the sun grain free, paleo, scd, juicing, then back on grain vegan, cbd oil and THC oil (legal in WA state where i used to live) in my tea at night, kava, herbal supplements, st johns wort. Must have blown at least 2K on supplements alone trying each one methodologically journal ling how it effected me. Then this major episode of severe depression hit - and I feel l ike i felt back in 2002 and I cant believe I forgot how this felt and how i am and its actually so horrible its helping me see clearly- I think in hindsight I was having hypomanic and mild depression states and I was addicted to the hypomania and kept trying to get back there but now that I feel like this again i realize I ahvent been normal since I was on a mood stabalizer and I remember normal but not what it felt like. However I was sos much more functional I'll take normal over hypomanic any day. None of the homeopathy and nature hikes and pot none of that helped. Nicotine helps my fatigue but its so temporary i get maybe a 30 min boost of focus for 2mg lozenge. I was so convinced it was Bipolar but now I look back on it an i was only able to hold a job and go to school the times i was on a mood stabalizer. Now im at square 1 with a new therapist and unless i want to be hospitalized she can only see me 1x a month and its taken 2 months already now and I'm still not on the lithium she says shes putting me back on- she wants an eeg first. =( I feel like a complete medical crazy pot with how many natural cures and money i've tried and waisted. Pot helped me wake up a little perkier in the morning for a little while but did nothing one this more severe depression his- now Im in Germany and can't get on meds fast enough =(. |
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dressing up as a pirate, getting a teddybear on my shoulder to act like a parrot, (even though it didn't stay on), and insisting I had my own pirate ship.
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I had gotten my son a weighted blanket when he was little it was neat- he loves weight on him and deep pressure, rolling up as a burrito in a blanket and rolling back out. I never used it but it wasnt that hot or heavy - maybe 5 lbs all spread out. it used beans or something inside.
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#49
i don't like the idea of getting older. my gran died slowly from dementia and cancer - i think i'd like the option of euthanasia if i got dementia, although that would be difficult to implement given that one's state of mind would decline.
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#50
Today’s weather. Beautiful warm and sunny! Probably our last bit of summer before the cold sets in.
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Hmm? That's a hard one. I am lucky that I have had several pretty darned good moments in my life. Maybe not so many in these last 15 or so years, but before. I guess my wedding day has to rank up as the best. But also a vacation my husband and I took to central and southern Portugal. I remember the day we spent in Loule, Portugal. It was beautiful there, and so romantic. It was so wonderful, that when we got home my husband wrote a letter to the mayor of Loule telling him how great their town was. I was just about at my very best during that trip.
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I’ve tried to answer this one multiple times, but it’s harder than it seems. I guess if I had to pick one moment it would be when I finished my language proficiency tests in the army. I went to a special language school that was really rigorous and I had a constant headache for over a year. But I kept my head down and worked steadily and did amazing on my final tests. The recognition was nice, but I’m mostly proud bc there were many moments when I really thought I couldn’t do it, but I got up every day and kept working. Sometimes just putting one foot in front of the other is enough!
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#53
the fact I'm funny and don't go round all serious (despite all my issues)
okay, question i reverse.. what is one thing about your personality that you wish you could change? |
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#54
I'm shy and it limits me even further than the bipolar already does socially.
What is one goal you have for the next year? __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1700 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 1.5 mg clonazepam., 50 mg Seroquel |
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To meet more (positive) people, learn to accept myself, and to eventually get out more.
Are you an introvert or extrovert? __________________ Bipolar 1 Disorder, Unspecified Anxiety Disorder |
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Introvert.
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Picking at the skin around my fingernail and biting my nails
What is the most surprising side effect you've ever had from a med? __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1700 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 1.5 mg clonazepam., 50 mg Seroquel |
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#58
Latuda muscle spasms those first few were very shocking.
How many meds in total have you been on? __________________ Generalized Anxiety Disorder Depression Symptoms of PTSD Trintellix 10mg once daily Buspar 10mg three times daily |
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#59
I lost track around 40, with about 70 combinations. Good thing is there is no reason to think these meds won't continue to keep me doing ok.
Have you tapered off a benzo before? __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1700 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 1.5 mg clonazepam., 50 mg Seroquel |
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Yes.
Early on I had a severe manic episode that was non responsive to some meds so I was taking 20mg+ of Valium a day. Once my brain started responding to Lithium etc I was weaned off Valium. I found the withdrawal pretty easy - maybe because my mood was still up. Q: how do you prevent the fatigue that comes with trying to stay on an even keel? __________________ Pookyl ———————————————————————————— BP1, GAD, Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, Claustrophobia Psych meds: Saphris, Seroquel XR, regular Seroquel. PRN Diazepam and Zopiclone |
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