[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Today I had my son’s kids birthday party. We had it at a trampoline park. He had a great time! Eleven kids showed up which is great. That’s more than half the class.

I am very proud of myself because I pulled it off all by myself. I did the planning, the invitations, and hosted the party by myself. All of his other parties I’ve had my mom help because I couldn’t handle it. But this year I rocked it all alone! I feel like I’m finally getting this single mom thing down.

Tomorrow is his family birthday party. I’m going to take him to get his hair cut then run over to the grocery store to get chips and stuff for the party. Somewhere in there I have to do laundry. Very busy weekend for me! Then I have work on Monday and then I have to pack for Tennessee. We are leaving at 7am on Tuesday. Not looking forward to twelve hours of driving but hey what can you do. I just hope my son can handle it. I have to pack a snack bag so that we don’t have to stop a million times for food. I have to remember to pack my meds. I almost forgot about that. I have them in pill organizers so I just have to grab those. We will only be gone for four days.

So much to do! I don’t think I’ll be able to relax until Saturday. Then Christmas will be here before you know it!

Nice job!
I believe in you.

WC

[Miss Laura]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

So sorry you're hurting. I've missed some of this thread. Are you sick or just hurting or do you have a chronic pain problem? Pain always makes everything so much worse.

I hurt when I'm depressed I do have back pain constantly but it's just that heavy achy feeling I have all over.... thanks though :-)

[Miss Laura]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

Heya, Miss Laura. It's good to see you back. Though I'm in California now, my family came from Scotland so I feel a connexion to you.

Awww I really like where I come from like everywhere we have our problems politics wise etc. I do have a relative in California she's in love with Scotland too

Yesterday was a mix of major travel stress and pleasant moments. I'm glad our itinerary is significantly lower key from here.

[Innerzone]

Originally Posted by VerMOZZica

Spent the day in and out of bed and on the couch. Finally got up cleaned the kitchen and helped clean the guinea pigs cages. Just doing those things made me feel totally exhausted. I just wish I had more energy and I wish I felt like I did last Saturday. I saw Morrissey in concert and it was fantastic and I had such a wonderful time. Right now I feel sad , lonely and exhausted. I just wish I felt happy.

But I bet it made the piggies very happy. Do you have pictures of them up? I love piggies. Have you ever seen the video about pumpkin spice? It is so cute. YouTube I hope it gives you a bit of cheer.
I'm glad you had a great time seeing Morrissey. How many times have you seen him? (I'm guessing more than once.... )

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

I've always wondered if it has to be clear liquid and the drink is so awful why couldn't put a few drops of like all natural flavoring to make it at least tolerable as long as they are clear. Good luck with the prep.

Mine is cherry flavored. I hope that helps

[Innerzone]

Feeling a little under the weather, physically. Kind of stuffed up nose and swollen neck glands. Yuck. Took a nice hot shower. Taking it a bit easy today. Will go out for only one errand -- mini grocery shop just down the street. No expeditions. Mentally, I'm compartmentalizing. Whether that be a good thing or not. Pdoc appt. Wednesday.

[Blueberrybook]

I slept 13 hours last night. No running today. Rain.

[xRavenx]

Went to my pdoc yesterday. She said if I don't feel better, than she wants to add Lithium. I really get nervous about medication changes with all the side effects, so I told her I'll see if anything changes and we'll discuss this more in a few weeks.

I think I'm just going to rest on Thanksgiving. I'm just so incredibly tired lately. I'm trying to feel okay about the holidays coming up, but it hardly works. Last year, I was in a bad episode, and lately I feel lonely, yet I want to isolate. I cannot concentrate on what people are saying around me and cannot be present with groups of people and hide. I'm just so stuck in my own head and have nothing to contribute. Therefore, I am isolating and think it's best for me right now due to these factors and a lack of motivation.
Just trying to remain hopeful and hanging on.

[scatterbrained04]

Having a decent enough day. Slept through the night, only woke up once. Purchased my son's big Christmas gift this morning, and I'm excited to give it to him. Concert tickets he really wanted. I guess I'm going to have to suck up my massive downtown driving anxieties for one night. He'll be excited. So it's worth it.

Got my grocery shopping done today. Still have some chores but can't seem to get motivated to do them. It's a never ending story when you have messy kids.

[Faltering]

I got my lithium level tested on Saturday, so I'm guessing I will find out if it's good this week. I've been able to sleep through the night without akathisia lately. Not sure why I get it sometimes. My mood has been okay with bouts of anger. I'm working on controlling it. I think anxiety is becoming a bigger issue now that my mood is improving. I see a psychologist for the first time on Wednesday. I'm not sure what to expect, but I hope it goes well.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

Yesterday was a mix of major travel stress and pleasant moments. I'm glad our itinerary is significantly lower key from here.

It's a treat to have you posting even though you have been traveling.
I enjoy your posts.


WC

[Moose72]

Still prepping. One hour till the nasty drink.

[Wild Coyote]

I am exhausted today. Cannot get out of my own way. I need to be working on Thanksgiving planning, cooking, shopping. Am simply too tired.

I have not slept well for months. I am tapering some meds, while increasing others. I am constantly trying to fight depression.

I am in a flare of fibromyalgia, a flare of neuropathy and a flare of Psoriatic Arthritis. In pain and very fatigued, even flu-like. Adds to depression.

I must struggle with dinner soon. I have some items which need to be cooked soon.

My apologies for being such a drag today.

I hope everyone else is having a better day!


WC

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I am exhausted today. Cannot get out of my own way. I need to be working on Thanksgiving planning, cooking, shopping. Am simply too tired.

I have not slept well for months. I am tapering some meds, while increasing others. I am constantly trying to fight depression.

I am in a flare of fibromyalgia, a flare of neuropathy and a flare of Psoriatic Arthritis. In pain and very fatigued, even flu-like. Adds to depression.

I must struggle with dinner soon. I have some items which need to be cooked soon.

My apologies for being such a drag today.

I hope everyone else is having a better day!


WC

My goodness! That’s a lot to have to deal with for anyone. You aren’t being a drag. You are a case study in dealing with things with dignity and grace. I would be curled up in the fetal position and here you are helping people and trying to keep moving. Kudos to you.

I sincerely hope this eases up for you. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

[TheSeaCat]

My anxiety is flaring up something fierce, I cannot think straight because of it. I know it's stupid but I am deathly terrified for tomorrow. I know it's just a doctor and I'll be fine but I keep thinking what if what's wrong is surgical and then the thoughts turn to me losing my job again falling back into that depression spiral. I know it's stupid but I just want to hide today and avoid everyone.

My sheets are in the wash, finally now they will smell like fabric softener and scent beads instead of the ex. It was long overdue but I just couldn't find the time this week.

We are having my Grandfather over for dinner, hopefully he can serve as a distraction to this anxiety.

I need to do so much today and I just feel like doing none of it. I need to shower, shave the stubble off the legs, lay out clothes for work in the morning, make sure I have everything in my purse.

Hugs to everyone

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

My anxiety is flaring up something fierce, I cannot think straight because of it. I know it's stupid but I am deathly terrified for tomorrow. I know it's just a doctor and I'll be fine but I keep thinking what if what's wrong is surgical and then the thoughts turn to me losing my job again falling back into that depression spiral. I know it's stupid but I just want to hide today and avoid everyone.

My sheets are in the wash, finally now they will smell like fabric softener and scent beads instead of the ex. It was long overdue but I just couldn't find the time this week.

We are having my Grandfather over for dinner, hopefully he can serve as a distraction to this anxiety.

I need to do so much today and I just feel like doing none of it. I need to shower, shave the stubble off the legs, lay out clothes for work in the morning, make sure I have everything in my purse.

Hugs to everyone

I don’t think it’s stupid. It’s an unknown and you are understandably nervous. It’s good your grandfather is coming for dinner. I hope that helps a little. Take it easy and be gentle with yourself.

Thinking of you and hoping you have a smooth appointment tomorrow.

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I don’t think it’s stupid. It’s an unknown and you are understandably nervous. It’s good your grandfather is coming for dinner. I hope that helps a little. Take it easy and be gentle with yourself.

Thinking of you and hoping you have a smooth appointment tomorrow.

Thank you Jenn, I'm trying to be gentle with myself, the sheets finally made it back onto the bed granted I had to fight with a fuzzyball who was laying in the middle of the bed.

I hope it goes smoothly too

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

My goodness! That’s a lot to have to deal with for anyone. You aren’t being a drag. You are a case study in dealing with things with dignity and grace. I would be curled up in the fetal position and here you are helping people and trying to keep moving. Kudos to you.

I sincerely hope this eases up for you. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Thank you, Jennifer!

I've made it through getting dinner. Lol! One step at a time. Yes, I also hope it all eases up! Not only having guests on Thursday, but am having people stay overnight a couple of nights, too.

I appreciate your feedback and your being such an understanding friend.

Thanks, too, for the thoughts and prayers.


WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

My anxiety is flaring up something fierce, I cannot think straight because of it. I know it's stupid but I am deathly terrified for tomorrow. I know it's just a doctor and I'll be fine but I keep thinking what if what's wrong is surgical and then the thoughts turn to me losing my job again falling back into that depression spiral. I know it's stupid but I just want to hide today and avoid everyone.

My sheets are in the wash, finally now they will smell like fabric softener and scent beads instead of the ex. It was long overdue but I just couldn't find the time this week.

We are having my Grandfather over for dinner, hopefully he can serve as a distraction to this anxiety.

I need to do so much today and I just feel like doing none of it. I need to shower, shave the stubble off the legs, lay out clothes for work in the morning, make sure I have everything in my purse.

Hugs to everyone

I hope tomorrow goes well and things are simple. Thinking of you.
Looking forward to your post tomorrow!

WC