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#362
My day was sh**. I emailed my T last night(while I was drunk so the email had so many errors) to tell her I was going off the meds and how I have been drinking a lot.
This morning she emailed me saying good luck and that therapy doesnt seem to be helping me and asked if there was any point in meeting next week Then I couldnt focus on anything properly and kept screwing everything up at work which felt even worse when all I wanted was to go home and cry. My husband took my alcohol to work with him for the night so I dont have anything to drink which is good but feels so bad. When he is on nights I cant leave the house though so its the one time when no matter how bad I want it I cant get any. I know alcohol is so horrible so I do want to stop I just cant seem to sometimes. |
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Grand Member
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#363
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__________________ Generalized Anxiety Disorder Depression Symptoms of PTSD Trintellix 10mg once daily Buspar 10mg three times daily |
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#364
I believe my meds are making me much worse. I have never had issues like I have now before I started meds 2 years ago and Im so tired of it.
I dont plan to tell my pdoc anything at this point, I see no use in that. I have told him before and it doesnt help. I definitely know how depressed alcohol can make me, I have had more than enough issues because of my drinking to know exactly what it does. I just dont care very much most of the time. Or I see something in my life is not the way I want it to be and start self destructing because I dont want to even be close if I cant have it all. |
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#365
I slept all day except to eat lunch. Now its bedtime.
__________________ Wellbutrin XL 300 mg Loxapine 50mg Ingrezza 80 mg Ativan .5 mg 2x/day Propranolol 20 mg 2x/day Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) Mania (April/May 2019) |
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#366
Yesterday, went to see sleep doc. Followed that by going to see "Bohemian Rhapsody." It's an outstanding movie! I am quite sure it will be nominated for awards.
The same guy who had played Mr. Robot also plays Freddie Mercury. His name is: Rami Malek! We then went to a local pub to listen to live music. Trying to have more fun! WC __________________ May we each fully claim the courage to live from our hearts, to allow Love, Faith and Hope to enLighten our paths. |
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#367
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__________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, , propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, omeperazole I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: two roads diverged in a wood, and I - I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference. --Robert Frost |
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#368
This morning she emailed me saying good luck and that therapy doesn't seem to be helping me and asked if there was any point in meeting next week. I have a simalar issue, no therapist will work with me if I'm not on medication. I had a T that decided I wasn't making progress and I never went back to her. Now I'm wth out a T. which is dangerous.
My old T told me as long as I showed up then I want help. so please keep that in mind. __________________ Dx: Me- SzA Husband- Bipolar 1 Daughter- mood disorder+ Comfortable broken and happy "So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk My blog |
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#369
Had a meltdown making tacos for dinner. Not sure why. Thoughts racing and too many things to keep track of cooking at once: taco shells, the meat, the rice, try to chop the veggies in between all this, daughter asking how to solve a confusing math problem. Just too much at once.
I guess at least the tacos turned out OK, but the rice was a loss. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, , propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, omeperazole I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: two roads diverged in a wood, and I - I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference. --Robert Frost |
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#370
Thanks EVERYONE for the kind words they really make a difference!
I have cervical and a shoulder problem(s)and went for first Physical Therapy appt. My right side is fine. My left is the problem .... excruciating pain in all kinds of motions. There’s a huge difference Can’t even get some clothes on without my husband helping. I’m not use to needing help like this. Anyway they want 2 visits a week but problem is I can’t afford to go. So yeah. I see Orthopedic Dr for consult tomorrow altho I don’t know what good it will do if I can’t afford to get any help. This is just another painful problem on top of all my other pain problems just has me losing my shyt today. __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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#371
My left is the problem .... excruciating pain in all kinds of motions. There’s a huge difference I'm so sorry you're in so much pain. Is there anything they can do?
__________________ Dx: Me- SzA Husband- Bipolar 1 Daughter- mood disorder+ Comfortable broken and happy "So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk My blog |
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#372
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__________________ Generalized Anxiety Disorder Depression Symptoms of PTSD Trintellix 10mg once daily Buspar 10mg three times daily |
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I am thinking I will still go. I feel ****** but I want to get better and I dont want to give up. Im worried she has given up though. I do want help but I need to help myself more too, I feel like not drinking tonight was really positive but its only one night so I dont know if I should give myself too much credit and start thinking I will actually do better. I dont think it would be good for me to quit therapy at all. |
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#374
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Sent you info on PM. I hope it's a viable option for you. Thinking of you, friend! WC __________________ May we each fully claim the courage to live from our hearts, to allow Love, Faith and Hope to enLighten our paths. |
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#375
Victory at sea today. Institutional client. My 75-year-old boss doesn't get excited, drink or do drugs, so I had to do it all for her. It's in my job description. I'm not quite done with the drugs.
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#376
I slept 11 hrs in total. I meant to take a nap around 5pm and wake up around 6-6:30, but the alarm never went off. So alas, here I am at just past 4:30am.
I kept hearing whispers yesterday. "Shhhhh!" I don't know where they came from, but they were telepathically put in my head. Or maybe they were ghosts entering my brain. |
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On top of fibro pain, I am sure it doesn't help your mood. I really hope you can find something that helps __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, , propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, omeperazole I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: two roads diverged in a wood, and I - I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference. --Robert Frost |
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I sent an email to my father's girlfriend yesterday. I was very careful about the wording so that it clearly expressed concern for Dad and even her. No negativity at all. Her response certainly reflected comfort and appreciation for my email, but some things she wrote sugar coated some issues and were flat out lies. Ones that reflect enabling behavior. Nevertheless, I hope she feels comfortable in the future contacting me with any concerns. Maybe my email was also useful in pushing the fact that there are serious issues with Dad and that my siblings and I are not satisfied with what's happening and want changes to be made.
We had to take our macaw to the avian vet yesterday. He has an ulcer on his eye. He hates the vet, and hates us giving him medicine almost as much. I don't struggle that much giving him oral medication, but it's tough putting eye drops in his eye without hubby's help. Hubby can help in the morning and evening, but I have to do it twice during the day by myself. |
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#379
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__________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, , propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, omeperazole I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: two roads diverged in a wood, and I - I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference. --Robert Frost |
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#380
I'm new here n I am diagnosed as bipolar. I'm still learning what is bipolar n how to handle it. Mostly I feel depressed...n I am very clingy. I try so hard not to be clingy but I failed myself most of the time.
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