[bizi]

Thursday night we went to an opera at the university.

It was opening night fun, a comedy.

For lunch friday, I ate a stuffed flounder and had a bowl of brocolli and cheese soup it was delicious, I came late and they had saved me a serving!!!! I had mentioned it in a face book post that I was coming late. They spoil me because I am a good customer.

Last night we went to the out door concert at Down town alive.
WE listened to some great music and vocals by evette landry and rodney romero and even danced a bit. Think honky tonk, folks/cajun music.

Hard to describe.

We are awful dancers but had fun which is all that matters.
Friday night: I ate too much. Shrimp ettoffee and fried catfish. There was alot of sauce and rice which I did not eat it all as it was so much food, jeff helped me a bit and threw away the rest. So that was good. I ate with in my 8 hour window of time so am still Intermittant fasting.


180.9 this morning and steady. I have been hovering around 180 for a week now. Would like to see 179 soon.

Will really watch the carbs this weekend....

This morning had my car looked at as my air conditioner is broken. Firestone could not diagnose the problem so they did my requested oil change and tire rotation and I will have to take it to the dealership.

I will have to rent a car.
sigh

Just what I don't need to do, and sounds like it could be very expensive to fix. We had already been talking about me trading in the car for a new one. They won't take it if the a/c does not work! I already miss it as we have been having sunny days which heat up the car so I roll down the windows to get the air flowing. It has worked great so far. Unless I get a hot flash then I am just sweating.

Have not heard from the lawyer, but remain busy getting doctor orders on my clients. Am trying to work on them about 10 days in advance to obtain orders. So far it is working. It is a pain but necessary. I have received 130 Orders from doctors so far and that makes me feel good. I am having difficulty in obtaining orders from this one nurse practitioner. I guess I will have to fax to her the 3 page document laying out the need for orders.

She doesn't think I need them.
sigh
Slept in late today, felt good.
Need to get ready for the day.
WE are going to the symphony tonight, we were given a voucher for reduced price tickets so we shall see if we can get a good seat.
Jeffs banquet is in a month. I really don't have anything to wear that fits me.

sigh
Which makes me think I need to go shopping which I hate doing.

sigh
I have some kolhs gift cards from christmas that I can use.
I do have a flashy leopard/ gold and copper shirt....I don't have any pants dressy enough. I hate buying clothes when I know that I will lose this weight. Let me try on some clothes way back in my closet, maybe I do have a larger pair of black pants that I can wear. If I do then I have an outfit and don't have to shop!!!!!

Sunday there is a jazz violinist concert to go to in the afternoon.

So this is a musical weekend!

I have some paperwork that I need to do, Filing and charting.
Things will settle down when I finally see every one of my clients and have obtained their MD's orders.

Make it a great weekend!
Bizi

[bizi]

I have remained alcohol free since march 6th ash wednesday.
My weight then was 190.8 and today I weigh 179.3, so am eating right and not obsessing over carbs or calories and also doing intermittent fasting eating in an 8 hour window is really working well for me. (No breakfast nor snacking after dinner)
My first client canceled they are out of town. Will reschedule when they return.
I have finally caught up for the most part with Dr. orders. (I have over 130 written providers orders so that feels good).

Even so, I am very upset....a nurse practitioner will not give me orders. She refuses even though the patients families want me to continue my services. She can provide foot care for them but doesn't do pedicures.(wash feet etc.) I faxed over a 3 page document from the state board of nurses requiring me to obtain orders from a provider. I will have to call the clients family members to ask their assistance. I have my own liability insurance....maybe the clients family members can call her????
sigh
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[bizi]

I found out the condensor was damaged and cause of the freon leak.
It is going to cost $1000 to fix, it goes on our line of credit.
cheaper than a new car of course!
I forgot to tell you.
Our neighbors cat got locked up in my car over night by accident.
The next morning I open up the car door and there is a faint smell of cat pee.
oh no!!!!!!
I smelled around the entire car and could not smell the area she peed.
Sigh
maybe a new car is in my future.
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[bizi]

I have been drinking these diet zevia drinks. sugar free and sweetened with stevia instead. They are very sweet and satisfying. I think I drank 4 of them last night. the carbonation makes me feel like I am having a beer if that makes any sense.
They only cost $3.99 for a six pack....cheaper than one beer out.
I chew a lot of gum....I mean a lot!
I have a big wad of it, I chewed that last night doing some paper work and listened to Jerry Garcia and the grateful dead, 1970's music: funky.

Feel that I am getting somewhat caught up.
Slept past my 7:30am alarm, did not feel ready to get up just yet. So slept about 20 minutes more then got up. I have arthritis in my feet too. So my feet are really stiff when I first get up. I hobble to the bathroom then they are fine. So I am thankful for that.

Have to leave the house at 9am so that leaves me roughly an hour to get ready and drink another cup of coffee.
My rosacea is acting up....my nose is red and bumpy, pimpley. I put concealer on it during the day to hide it but I think that is irritating it.
I use vit c serum in the morning, supposed to help with that issue. Last night I put benzol peroxide on the tip...I think it is less red...I don't know.
Am hoping to get my car back today. Hate this rental, It smells like old food, and is stained badly. Who ever rented this car before me really did not care about it at all.
The check out worker said she would give me a 10% discount because it was so stained. I am going to have to figure out who will help me get my car back. Both the dealership and the car rental place close at 6pm. They are about a half hour drive between each other.
Just spoke with hubby. He will be able to help me!
Great!
I will need to reschedule my last client of the day though but that should not be a problem. I am hoping my car will be ready.
Have good day yall!
179.1 this morning.
20 days AF.

[bizi]

I looked at my yo yo weight gain and loss over the past 3 1/2 months...
My highs have always been surrounding drinking periods.

12-16-18= 170.8 Before christmas break
1-7-19= 187.8 After christmas break
2-23-19= 179.6 before mardi gras...2 weeks of partying
3-6-19= 190.8 after fat tuesday(mardi gras)
3-28-19= 178.5 3 weeks alcohol free for lent.
that is 12.3 ponds lost in 3 weeks.( I had gained 20 pounds in 3 months!)
Even with the weight lost, I am still up 8 pounds since before christmas break.

A year ago I weighed 175.
Even though that is only a 3.5 weight gain for the year...
I look so much heavier. I have a beer gut when I did not have one before.
And I know this will be the hardest area to lose weight!

Even so, being that heavy, I know that some of that was the bloat
from drinking so heavily so I really was not 190.8
but it was a real eye opener to see that number.
I had not been that heavy in 18 years!
The bottom line is that I lose weight by not drinking.
I make better food choices and am able to do an
Intermittant fasting diet by not eating nor drinking past dinner.
Not drinking is the answer to weight loss for me.
on an unrelated note:
Heard that my insurance company were not going to reimburse any of my claim from the rock taking out my sensor/air conditioning. They charged me $1080...they said it was a $500 job so the dealer ship way over charged me. They might cover my rental car for $100. We will see.
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[bizi]

hey said the appraisal was less than the

$500 deductible but they more than likely do
not use honda parts for their estimate is what
the manager at honda told me.

I will try to at least get my rental car $returned.

Ate quite a bit of cheese at whole foods ate a

big salad with ceasar dressing added some

parmesan cheese. It had greens, cucumbers,
rainbow carrots, red onions which I cut into

small pieces and cherry tomatoes.
Then my new friend Erin, let me have some of

her cheese tray. It had 2 different types of

cheeses, sweetie drops little tiny bright red

peppers and chocolate drops and very thin

crackers. I ate too many crackers.

It was delicious but fattening.


I stuck to my 8 hour window so that was good.
I drank 42 ounces of water while I was there.

Just now had 2 glasses of water with my night meds.

Getting ready to hit the hay. Going to work in the yard

tomorrow if the weather cooperates.

The trees have dropped a lt of leaves that need
to be raked up and the pollen is in full bloom

so that needs to be raked up as well.

night all
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[bizi]

I met erin a couple of years ago at a christmas party.
About a month ago I gave her my business card with my cell phone number on it and she gave me hers, and asked if she wanted to get together some time.
So monday she texted to see if I was going to trivia on friday, and I said yes.
She is a teacher at an elementary school, teaches math(I think).
Jeff had a gig so he was not at trivia.
Erin stated that she wanted to go to the big bang percussion concert tonight and could not find anyone to go and I said that I had wanted to go too. So we are meeting up tonight at 7 or so, it starts at 7:30.
(Jeff has another gig and he will be gone from 6:15 to home around 10;30)
long gig for little money. It is the big band 20 piece band, think 40's music. they all wear tuxes and people dance waltz and ball room, elderly crowd and some youngsters who dance swing. I have been 3-4 times before and they play pretty much the same music and I don't like going alone.
So I am glad Erin mentioned it to me. She is in her late 30's. no children, her husband is a pastry chef at a wonderful bakery in town.
They live not too far from us.
No one asked me why I was just drinking water. Maybe they knew that I gave up alcohol for lent????
Trivia was fun. There were 5 of us on the team....My fellow team members are quite competitive. You are only allowed 4 members per team and I always say that I am not playing because I am so terrible at trivia.
Occasionally I will verbalize an answer but usually it is wrong like last night. I thought it was a typhoon that did all of the damage to africa this past week. IT was a cyclone.
sigh
any way I need to get dressed, finished my 3rd cup of coffee.

My poor nose is a disaster area. My rosacea is really creating havoc, so many pimples and sores...I can't keep from messing with them...need to leave them alone. The concealer that I use is from 10 years ago and I think is contributing to the problem. So I ordered from amazon some new concealer the same brand so that was lucky. Golden honey.It should be here next week.

need to get going.
Want to rake today.
I looks nice outside.
Have a great day , hugs to those who need them thanks for reading.
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(((((HUGS)))))

[bizi]

I was wrong....Erin is a music teacher at a charter school on the north side of town.
35years old and very talkative...which is good since I don't have much to talk about.
I wanted to stop by fat pats for a beer but resisted because I am not drinking right now.
It is getting easier resisting that impulse.

My nose is swollen and full of pimples/little scabs... it is awful....wonder if I should just go see a dermatologist? What I have been doing is not working....can't wait for my new make up to come in, should be wednesday I think/hope. It is embarrassing,
I look like rudolf the red nose reindeer.
So I have to cover it up...I am ashamed that I keep picking at the pimples...
sigh

The concert was good a little long. I liked the marimba players not the steel drums players the big jazz band played with them which was good.
Because her husband dropped her off at the auditorium so she would not have to deal with parking. Which I had to park in another parking garage far away and paid to park like $6 for 3 hours. We walked back to my car, thankfully the rain held off until I ended up taking her home.
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[BeyondtheRainbow]

Sounds like a good day...You should be SO PROUD of yourself for remaining alcohol free!

[bizi]

Thank you for your support!
(((((HUGS))))
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[bizi]

Yesterday, I did some yard work. Raked up pollen and leaves off of the side walks and street. We have a good size oak tree in the front yard that put out these pollen blossoms, My shoes were completely green after raking them up. Thank goodness I don't have allergies I would have had to wear a mask to do this.(although I do have a scratchy throat this morning) I filled up 4 barrels of leaves and pollen.I called the yard man, Paul and asked if he could do our yard/mulch the leaves in the front yard. He said either monday or tuesday. We have used his services since 2004, he does a good job.

Also did a bit of cleaning. Threw out a bath mat and bought a new one a pretty lilac color. There was a border of dirty hairspray coating on the floor. Scrubbing bubbles to the rescue! My floor is so nice now. Hate getting on my knees to do that but that is the only way.
I feel it this morning.

Woke up early for me for a sunday wanted to go pee and get on the scale 178. I had a large piece of chantilly cake at the dealership when I test drove the new honda fit. It has less storage space in the front of the vehicle, more in the back.(which we don't need).
It has one less glove box, mine has 2 and one less cup holder on the passenger side which is a no go. I really like my car. It was all nice and shining as I just had it washed.
So I will keep it now that it is paid off. Cheaper to fix a car than to buy a new one it should last me another 5 years or more. I put on 80K miles in 5 years, so in 5 more years it will have 160,000 miles on it. That is if I keep working as much as I have been.

Speaking of work my business is down. Don't know why I was so busy around the holidays....now have had days with out any clients. Like I said before, am glad that it has been slower because it has given me time to get my paperwork in order.
So that is good. Now I need more clients. I gave $20 to one of the assisted living facilities that I frequent for 2 $10 bingo prizes. I will do this more often. The residents love to play bingo and get so excited when there is a cash prize. I have done this for 2 places.

I remain alcohol free.

Going to make me some more coffee as 2 cups is not enough this morning.
It is a chilly 47 degrees today with a high of 56. There was snow in Indiana and temps in the 30's burr. So glad that we live in the south!.

My brother in law is coming into town for Jeffs awards banquet, the end of april. He has never been here before. I rescheduled my clients so I can be a tour guide of sorts. It is also Festival International, a free music fest so he will get to experience that on saturday. He leaves on sunday. I hope the weather is nice. We have that to look forward to. I will take him to lake martin so he can see a swamp/maybe do a swamp tour. 2 weekends ago the alligators were out in full view sunning them selves. My friends went kayaking and took great photos. They looked very close to this huge one. She said they were 25 feet away. Looked closer than that! too close for my comfort!
I am going to take a shower today.

Going to have my usual bacon, lettuce, tomato, mayo, and egg on untoasted rye bread sandwich that I love!

Enjoy your sunday!
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[Innerzone]

I give a big cheer over here every time I read you're alcohol free! Good for you! It really is the way to go, and really helps with the weight goals -- I'm so glad you really connected the dots on that. Way to go, bizi!!!!

With the raking and the floor, we're going to have to call you bizi-bee!

[bizi]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

I give a big cheer over here every time I read you're alcohol free! Good for you! It really is the way to go, and really helps with the weight goals -- I'm so glad you really connected the dots on that. Way to go, bizi!!!!

With the raking and the floor, we're going to have to call you bizi-bee!

Thank you my dear!, you are my biggest supporter and I appreciate you taking the time to read my posts. I know they are long.
I hope you are doing well!!!
Tomorrow is April first! Time is flying by!
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[bizi]

Our cats cancer came back, on her back and now on her side.

Sigh....
I am going to request a copy of her chart including the pathology report so we can go to another vet for a second opinion.
Will go and ask for that copy, hubby doesn't want to do that himself though he knows we need it for the next vet. He doesn't want to hurt Dr. Drews feelings.

The tumor just keeps growing. Going out of town and more extensive surgery seems a bit much and expensive. Dr. Drew said it would involve taking ribs etc. Sounds painful...right now she is in no pain at all and acts like her self. She did really well after the first surgery.
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12 pounds down one month AF.

[bizi]

It is interesting and helpful to look back over my weight
report over the past year.
I was at my lowest weight for the year right before our
christmas vacation= 170.6...
2 weeks of eating and drinking freely put on about 17 pounds...
how can that be?
After I came home I started dieting again and I lost some weight...
then we had 2 weeks of mardi gras partying and
I gained all of the weight back and then some=190.8.
Had not been that heavy in 15 years!!!!
I am either on a diet or gaining weight.
At 177.6 this morning I am still 7 pounds heavier
than before christmas.
No wonder I don't feel any lighter. Numbers don't lie!
It is obvious that when I drink I eat freely and gain weight.
When I don't drink alcohol then I am more aware of my
eating and able to diet.
The end result is that I lose weight.

Last night, I decided to have a smoothie right
when I get home before dinner.
It is a concoction of superfoods, supplements and protein.
I mix it with half cup of almond milk and half cup of organic milk.
This one cup has 23 grams of protein and 210 calories.
I am accustomed to coming home and having a piece of cheese
and nuts before dinner. Now I will have this smoothie instead.
It is much healthier. and the taste is ok.

My goal of 169.9 is doable before 5-1-19.
(That is 8 pounds in one month)
Between Intermittant fasting and following a lower carb diet
I think I can do this!
wish me luck.

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[Nammu]

Best of luck with that. 169 sounds very doable.

[Sunflower123]

Good luck bizi! I think it’s doable as well.

[Innerzone]

Sounds like a good and very reasonable goal. Best of luck! Always!

And can I say again just how excellent it is that you've truly come to understand the drinking/weight connection! I think it is by far the single biggest difference-maker. It is your key to success!

[bizi]

Thank you ladies for your support, it really means a lot to me.
((((HUGS)))))
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[bizi]

The smoothies taste awful.
They contain super foods/greens:
Moringa, amla, collagen, aspen "slim",
4oz of almond vanilla milk,

4 oz of fat free organic milk.
All in all have 210 calories,

23 grams of protein and only 15 carbs.
It definitely cuts my appetite and is good for me.


I have started taking the supplements

of tart cherry and boswellia and turmeric

for inflammation along with my other

supplements at noon after lunch.

A few weeks ago I started taking a

large dose of thiamine.

Because I drink, I thought I needed that.

But looking at the label am not sure it is

really thiamine....it is called L-theanine.

It is made by sports research promoting

relaxation and focus.

It came up as one of the top sellers on

amazon when I searched for thiamine.
I ordered it and am taking it with out

researching it out first. I should do that!

I am trying to drink more fluids...this morning already,
have had 3 cups of coffee and 2 cups of

sweetened water with stevia.

And it is almost 10am here.
I got up at 7:30 this morning,

had to pee and wanted to weigh myself...no loss just a gain.

Need to try and not get discouraged.

It is important that I remain alcohol free,
Eat well and try to take care of myself as best as I can.

On thursday I got my nails done, a manicure, clear gel

polish that should last for weeks.
I am trying to stay sane and not worry about

the board of nurses issue for now.

If I lose my license then I will worry about our finances.
I was going to stop the vitamins that I have been taking

because they are expensive.

But I feel that I need them.

It is almost 2 weeks until easter.

Wonder if I will drink then?
I have been happy with the weight loss
thus far. And I know it is because of not drinking
fattening dark/sstrong beers.
I know this is true for me.
The lure/seduction of moderation keeps calling my name.
I have tried this before and have failed.

I am an all or nothing kind of gal.
No moderation in this vocabulary.
I guess that is the bipolar in me.

Have a great weekend and hug and kiss your loved ones!
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