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#981
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April 8th is a month away don’t even think of that. You always become overly religious when your doing poorly. It’s good you realize that things aren’t just black and white. Please folllowup with IOP your T and Pdoc You are going to be feeling better, please continue your medication. __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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#982
Went to sleep at 7.30 am and slept (apart from getting up for breakfast) until 4 pm today. Utterly exhausted. Still tired but now drinking beer. Hurt my hamstring again. Done with healthy coping. F*** it. I’m giving up trying. This is beyond my skills and I’ve lost all hope.
__________________ Bipolar 1 with psychotic features PTSD "Phew! For a minute there I lost myself." 'Karma Police' by Radiohead |
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#983
Good morning.
I started my exercise regime today. I'm weighing 207lbs. My normal weight at this age is 185-195. I did the full ten minutes too. Standing in that dam vibration machine is no walk in the park. Cheers. __________________ ]Roses are red. Violets are blue.[ Look for the positive in the negative. PIRILON. If lemons fall from the sky, make lemonade. Unknown. Nothing stronger than habit. Victor Hugo. You are the slave of what you say, and the master of what you keep. Unknown. |
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#984
Day 1 1/2 of New Diet! (I consider yesterday a 1/2 day since I didn't adhere to it for breakfast)
I woke up today with a headache (assuming it is because I haven't had caffeine from no soda), so I took some headache medicine. At least the caffeine in the pill doesn't come with loads of sugar and other chemicals that are unhealthy, right? It's temporary anyway until I can manage the headaches without it, and eventually they'll go away. I'd say at most 4-5 days. As I've stated before-- portion control and over-eating isn't really my problem but I want to drop this weight fast. No soda, light exercise, and sensible meals. I'm using weight watchers so I have a point system. It's a very friendly and forgiving system (there are 14 "splurge points" a week so you can go over your daily amount without feeling guilty). Anyway, outside of that -- I feel OK. My mood is normal I guess, I don't feel that high or low, but most importantly I don't feel low. I'm very happy about that. |
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#985
I am ashamed to be alive
litirally doing nothing with my day- I don't really deserve it |
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#986
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You really don't deserve to feel that way. I'm sorry you're going through that. I am in the same boat, I am unemployed and I don't leave my house unless I have to. I am wasting away the days. However, we are struggling so things are difficult right now -- cut yourself a break. Your life is valuable and you contribute in the ways that you can. |
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#987
raging vortex, I am sorry you are feeling that way. I do think you deserve to feel well. In fact, I think right now you could use some extra self compassion and care. Maybe do something nice for yourself
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#988
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For caffeine, you can try unsweetened tea or coffee. I drink a lot of tea instead of soda. |
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#989
I did a chore today that i've been putting off for months so that's good. I took a shower i was overdue for also. I'm painfully lonely so i thought i would retry that meetup group i tried last year. My membership is pending. Listening to mood music on YouTube. It's nice and soothing.
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#990
I hope the meetup group works out and you can make some friends.
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#991
Hello everyone and happy Sunday. To be honest I am honestly exausted; the time change really hurt me this morning. I hate spring for this reason; the terrible time change; I love the option of getting nice weather but I hate springing forward. My body and brain was not at all happy with the time change; it likes fall but spring is usually hard on my body.
I'm not doing the best had a pretty emotionally exhausting day today and I know tomorrow isn't going to be any better with the emotional exhausted feeling. Today was pretty terrible honestly. I went to church which was nice but lunch out with his parents was not the best; plus my worry is really starting to get the best of me and stressing me out. I just feel exhausted after today; I am not looking forward to tomorrow at all. I am still at the boyfriends place at least for a little while longer. Sorry I feel like I haven't been posting a lot regarding updates; I've just had a lot on my mind. Hugs to everyone __________________ Generalized Anxiety Disorder Depression Symptoms of PTSD Trintellix 10mg once daily Buspar 10mg three times daily |
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Bizi is bizi
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#992
Am very proud of myself this evening.
I ate well today, Only eating from 12;30pm to 6;30pm No snacking after dinner. I won't eat again until 11;30 tomorrow morning, a 17 hour fast. Went to the gym and walked a 5K. Came home and took a shower, Did not pick the pimple on my red nose. Took all of my supplements and meds. Remained alcohol free. bizi __________________ 150mg of lamictal 2x a day haldol 5mg 2x a day 1mg of cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, 4-5 peri-colace for chronic constipation multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine at noon PRN Remeron 15mg at night, zyprexa10mg under tongue, requip2mg. |
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#993
I keep deleting posts, due to the feeling of safe and even worth it creeps in.
Thanks to you that have been kind, and I wish everyone the best. I have been kicking around thoughts, if any read what I wrote earlier it is in reference to cannabis- which is controversial and yes - I would be an abuser of getting high; But I really don't care atm because at least it got me off of sui and hom thoughts, I have still been bouncy and chaotic like I was but not as bad. When I got sick in mid feb I stopped medicating myself. I hope work goes better this week, last week was a breaking point and I cried, snapped, and just too much. The place that general doc suggested I've been writing emails with to get a better idea of what to expect. They only do psychotherapy, so I am in the midsts of asking do they referral out to psychiatrists -- because I keep getting prescribed drugs that I am afraid to take, and I am at a point that I Guess I should start taking them. A lot of things in my mind revolving around this; because - what if I would had just stuck with the first therapist and pdoc back in 2011... what if. etc, whatever- Look forward and yet- I can't help but to keep wondering what is it "that I am missing" to be whole? in a sense.. it's hard to explain. __________________ "A laugh is worth a hundred groans in any market." Charles Lamb
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#994
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__________________ Bipolar 1 with psychotic features PTSD "Phew! For a minute there I lost myself." 'Karma Police' by Radiohead |
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#995
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__________________ Bipolar 1 with psychotic features PTSD "Phew! For a minute there I lost myself." 'Karma Police' by Radiohead |
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#996
Well I actually stayed out of bed today, although it is only 2.15pm. I doubt I will get back to bed. I have been so exhausted. Had a couple of panic attacks, which is unusual for me. I am overwhelmed and making bad decisions because of it. I feel my life falling apart. It terrifies me. I think I am stable Bipolar wise, just PTSD stuff. I know I am in trouble. Free falling. It is beyond my skills to prevent. Seeing my T Wednesday. I am worried he might want me IP due to my out of control emotional state. I have too much to do to be locked up. I have had severe PTSD in the past. It can get much worse than this. I sense it is going to but I really don't care right now.
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#997
Feeling tired and apathetic right now, but hoping the day gets better as it goes on. I had a pretty productive day of shopping for supplies for my kitchen and making a red curry yesterday. So, at least I have food for lunch. I am doing pretty well at keeping stable and using coping skills, but right now I am just feeling a bit pessimistic about the whole thing. I know this way of thinking will get in my way, but I am just tired of the amount of energy that goes into maintaining my health on the daily. Maybe I need to track my progress, because I have come a long way, but this morning I feel like why even bother? Gosh, I really do sound whiny haha. I think it comes down to a mental fatigue because of these exhausting thoughts and anxiety I am dealing with, so I am walking around constantly burnt out. Anyways, I am off to work. Hope everyone has a good day!
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#998
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I am glad that you are seeing your therapist on wednesday. Maybe you could go to IOP therapy, out patient and not go in patient. They do CBT therapy there I believe. And it would not cost as much as a hospital stay. sorry it is so hard for you right now. ((((HUGS)))) bizi __________________ 150mg of lamictal 2x a day haldol 5mg 2x a day 1mg of cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, 4-5 peri-colace for chronic constipation multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine at noon PRN Remeron 15mg at night, zyprexa10mg under tongue, requip2mg. |
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#999
La bruja found smaller faucets that cascade.
I'm glad she did, but will admit to nothing. I'm the MP, she's labor. We make a great team. By 2020, we will have the drains working. Cheers. __________________ ]Roses are red. Violets are blue.[ Look for the positive in the negative. PIRILON. If lemons fall from the sky, make lemonade. Unknown. Nothing stronger than habit. Victor Hugo. You are the slave of what you say, and the master of what you keep. Unknown. |
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#1000
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Don't underestimate the effects of mental fatigue. I know how much it affects even the simplest of tasks. It changes our moods for the negative and makes everything 10x harder than it should be. I'm sorry you're goin' through that. It sucks. I hope you get a chance to mentally decompress and relax. Mental/emotional health is just as important as physical health! Hope you have a great day at work! |
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