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Default Mar 21, 2019 at 11:07 PM
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I'm sorry sea cat.

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Hello everyone; I hope everyone is alright. I'm not at all. M's doctor's appointment went terribly and it's going to be some serious surgery. I really don't feel like taking about it. I really just want to break down and cry.

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Still waiting on my Haloperidol script. It is midday and thankfully I am not that agitated but it always gets worse as the day progresses. Last night was the worst in a while. I curled up in a ball to cope. Annoyed at my pdoc for not faxing the script and the pharmacy for thowing out my Haloperidol as I wasn't currently taking it. It better come through today but my pdoc isn't in the office on Fridays so I am not hopeful. I emailed him today as he requested an update yesterday. I hope he responds. I am not doing well overall.

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Sorry I keep posting. Just an update. It is 4.30 pm and I’m feeling awesome. Had a productive day and heading to my partners for the night. Such a relief to not be agitated. Hopefully this is over and my mood stays happy.

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Woke up with a massive headache, probably sinuses or stress or both. Can only take Tylenol for it, and that is not helping so far. Maybe I'll drink some coffee as I'm tired too but had to wake early to get H up for work (he sleeps through all alarms we've tried so far, and the quietest wakes me and usually I can't go back to sleep afterwards).

School closed again today because of the plant fires and possible fallout. My daughter has had 1 day of school this week, so she's had practically a 2 week Spring Break except we are not doing any outdoor activities even if the temperature and weather is nice otherwise, which is a pity because spring doesn't last long here before the heat gets unbearable.

Therapy yesterday was cancelled as my therapist lives in the town where the plant is located and has family there since that is where she grew up, which I remember she told me about when I first met her last fall, I think just to reassure me she's familiar with living in this area and things like shelter-in-place chemical incidents/hurricanes & tropical storms, all of which are stressful. Rescheduled for next week but mood is downward, I think not feeling safe outside so being indoors a lot and with a bored 11 year old as well as well as dental nerve pain - have been to the dentist many times recently - (finally getting somewhat better) all month long has not helped my mood at all. Fibro has flared too. Stress is not good for it, neither is tooth pain, high pollen counts, and probably stuff in the air from the plant fire.

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Default Mar 22, 2019 at 10:12 AM
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I went out today to get some fish fingers for dinner.

also while I was out grabbed a copy of harry potter and the chamber of secrets (which to be fair, is now the only harry potter book I still have any interest in), I still like harry potter and the magical universe, but hmm, I guess I have a long way to go before I'm classed as a hard core fan

I also grabbed a shower today

taken it's toll though, because once again my back is killing me, I am nautious (probably from the extreme pain) and I'm out of breath

I was thinking earlier about how old I felt/ feel

I'm falling apart peace by peace

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Default Mar 22, 2019 at 10:45 AM
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I think there was a miscommunication with my therapist about my appointment. I was maybe supposed to confirm I could make it to keep the appointment. I showed up and then found out she was not there and I was not on the schedule, oops. At least I have one scheduled for next week.

I am feeling a bit better today. Had a really hard time getting up, but feeling better as the day went on (and I had coffee and breakfast, that always helps). Seeing my boyfriend tonight, hopefully I will be in a good mood and can enjoy the time together.
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I think there was a miscommunication with my therapist about my appointment. I was maybe supposed to confirm I could make it to keep the appointment. I showed up and then found out she was not there and I was not on the schedule, oops. At least I have one scheduled for next week.
That happened to me once, too. My T doesn't have a receptionist though, so I sat in the hall til about a quarter past the hour. When I finally sent her a text all she could do was apologise although it wasn't really her fault. I don't know how I got my day confused for I was due there the following day.

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I think there was a miscommunication with my therapist about my appointment. I was maybe supposed to confirm I could make it to keep the appointment. I showed up and then found out she was not there and I was not on the schedule, oops. At least I have one scheduled for next week.

I am feeling a bit better today. Had a really hard time getting up, but feeling better as the day went on (and I had coffee and breakfast, that always helps). Seeing my boyfriend tonight, hopefully I will be in a good mood and can enjoy the time together.
That never happened to me, but it happened to another one of my psychiatrist's patients. I arrived for my appointment, which my pdoc was aware of, and he saw the other patient sitting in the waiting room with me. She had been there for a half hour already and had traveled one hour to get to his office. I ended up giving her my appointment, went home and then returned later at an open time my pdoc had. I only live 4 mins away from my pdoc, by car. My pdoc and that patient appreciated it. I felt for her because at the time it seemed she really needed to see him urgently. I didn't.
 
 
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Tough morning. One of our cats got into varnish or something outside overnight and was covered in it from fur to skin, entire body. Vet’s office said call animal poison control, but they charge a consultation fee of over $50, and we don’t have money to burn.

I tried to wash the cat with Dawn and water, then used vegetable oil because I think whatever she had on her was oil based. Barely got anything off after over 20 minutes of trying, and she got away (did this outside obviously). But then I was covered in the stuff, clothes soaked, brownish oily stuff all over my body and hair and feeling sick from the fumes. Just threw away the clothes and shoes, got inside, showered and bathed forever. Had to use olive oil and lemon juice to get the stuff out of my hair and am clawed and bitten up all over by the cat.

I don’t know. She may yet die from poisoning. There was no way I could get all that stuff off her. We will keep her outside and feed her if she returns. H said maybe once it dries we can cut/shave the hair should the cat live. At any rate, by the time I got to her this morning, she had to have been in that stuff for awhile and probably licked herself all over. If she dies of poisoning, I was probably too late, and with that stuff covering her (a black cat so I could not really see it except where things like bits of grass clung to her) and down to the skin, it was beyond my abilities to clean. I still feel bad about it though and like I should have been able to do more

Drained after all that. Plus, I tripped over another one of our cats while carrying out a bucket of warm water so the bath wouldn’t be freezing. Fell on concrete, scraped both hands, both knees, elbows too. I am scraped, bruised, clawed, bitten and hurting (though yes, at least the cat had her shots). Had a tetanus shot around 7 years ago, so I guess I am okay there. Aren’t those things supposed to last for 10 years?

No school today for my daughter. Luckily, she was more concerned about me being okay from being covered in whatever that stuff was than the cat and seemed sad but understanding when I told her the cat might die of poisoning. But she just said, “I’m glad you’re OK, Mommy.” several times. She’s been very sweet today. Normally, she behaves well, but she is a pre-teen, so I have to accept it’s not always easy to parent her.

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Blueberrybook, I'm so sorry about your kitty! I hope she will be OK. I can imagine how rough that was for you trying to wash her. I haven't had a cat for a long time, but remember how my old cat thought a bath was, well...the worst possible punishment.
 
 
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Blueberrybook, I'm so sorry about your kitty! I hope she will be OK. I can imagine how rough that was for you trying to wash her. I haven't had a cat for a long time, but remember how my old cat thought a bath was, well...the worst possible punishment.
Thanks. Yeah, the whole ordeal has pretty much sucked. The cat hasn’t come back, but sometimes she doesn’t until night. I saw one of the neighbors across the street having quite a lot of work done on her house, including some roof work. I am thinking the cat got into something over there. Ironically, it’s the woman some other neighbors warned us to never get involved with when we moved into our house, that she was mean and nothing but trouble, so we have never officially gone to meet her, and we have lived here 14 years now. She is also the neighbor who is the frequent customer of our local police. I usually see a police car there 2, 3 times a month, and those are just the times I happen to be outside or driving by. The police don’t use their sirens or lights, but I know they are obligated to respond in case there actually does happen to be an emergency.

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OMG, this stupid ITC chemical plant saga will not go away. Now a dike wall around the burned area has collapsed, something is leaking, and they issued a shelter in place for the San Jacinto state park, pretty much across from this plant. They have not issued more warnings for that city or mine, but ugh! Now is this going to affect the water as well as the air?! This week has been so stressful. Everything is OK, then it’s not, then it’s OK again, then it’s not...

Maybe it’s just bipolar paranoia, but I don’t think anyone there has a clue what will happen next or how safe the air and water around here are, if there will be long term effects, pretty much the answer to everything is don’t worry. We don’t know, but don’t worry about it, we’ll fix it, it will be OK Not even sure how you fix something you don’t have a clue about. Glad my daughter is out of the 4th grade. They always take the 4th grade class field trip to that park at her school.

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OMG, this stupid ITC chemical plant saga will not go away. Now a dike wall around the burned area has collapsed, something is leaking, and they issued a shelter in place for the San Jacinto state park, pretty much across from this plant. They have not issued more warnings for that city or mine, but ugh! Now is this going to affect the water as well as the air?! This week has been so stressful. Everything is OK, then it’s not, then it’s OK again, then it’s not...

Maybe it’s just bipolar paranoia, but I don’t think anyone there has a clue what will happen next or how safe the air and water around here are, if there will be long term effects, pretty much the answer to everything is don’t worry. We don’t know, but don’t worry about it, we’ll fix it, it will be OK Not even sure how you fix something you don’t have a clue about. Glad my daughter is out of the 4th grade. They always take the 4th grade class field trip to that park at her school.
I am so sorry this happening to you and your community. It does seem really concerning, I would be worried, too.
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Daonnachd my T works in an office with others but I was one of the first people there and I sitting there awhile, too haha. BirdDancer that was really thoughtful of you. I am lucky that my T is close by at least!
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I’m doing ok. I’m concerned about the weakness in my left leg. I feel like it’s worse than it was before surgery but I can’t tell. I walk with a bit of a limp. But I’m probably asking for too much too soon. I’m only two days out from surgery. It’s gonna take two weeks for the incision to heal and in that time I might be able to build up my leg strength. I have a follow up appt on April 5 so I can always ask them if the weakness has not improved. I’m just worried. However I’m very grateful that the pain is gone.

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Blueberrybook, I don't want to scare you, but have you considered buying a number of gallons of water from the store...just in case.
 
 
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I didn’t want to get out of bed today but I’m feeling better as the day goes on: sun, fresh air, nourishing food, hydration. I can tell I’ve taken a big step back in my mental and physical health during the winter months. I’ll need to work on gaining some ground. Getting a physical Tuesday to get that part in order. Hopefully, I’ll find a good tdoc to help me with the other. My motivation is nonexistent.

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I had a great time ordering in dinner from a delivery service. The whole thing was done thru my computer. There was a map that showed the progress of my driver's car! It was so fun! It's great to live in a city! Other than that, mood still lousy. It's a grey soggy day here and my mood matches.
 
 
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