[LadyShadow]

Had some bad news - My T of 12 years got really sick and has decided to go into retirement. I didn't even get a proper goodbye and its really tearing me apart. I think I will buy him a card and write a letter and hope they give it to him.

On a good note, I saw my good friend of 20 years today. It was good to hang out with her, I hadn't seen her in a while. We had wine, Taco Bell, and played Mario Kart. It was nice seeing her place, she really redecorated. Also, we watched the new Amy Schumer comedy special on Netflix and had a few really good laughs.

I guess everyone moves on in life, I just have to make due with a new therapist.

[bizi]

@Brentus

how is it going? what did you want to happen?Any way to ask for a change like call his office and request a change if that is what you wanted????
just guessing here.
how are you doing?
bizi

[bizi]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I’m having a good day today. I was trying to get my mom to her MRI on time and was an hour and a half late because a connecting bridge right at the 75-24 split collapsed. That’s a major thoroughfare and traffic is snarled all over town. No one was hurt, thank goodness, but it will be one heck of a headache for weeks or months to come. Just SMH. Our infrastructure could use a little help preferably before somebody gets killed.

I woke up feeling productive and motivated yesterday and knocked out several items on my to do list. Woke up motivated again today. it’s nice. I don’t know if I mentioned it but when my pdoc put me on Trintellix over the winter, I started rapid cycling multiple times a day. I didn’t know what was going on. I’ve been off it for about two weeks now and I’ve been in an increasingly good mood.

Warm wishes and hugs to all.

nIce to hear you so positive and having a good day@!!!!
Hope you have many more to come!
bizi

[~Christina]

Happy Birthday Wild

Hope you are having a hell of a great Birthday !!!! You deserve so much happiness

[Wander]

After getting a cortisone injection last week I rested for three days as instructed then swam two days in a row. Problem was I was so anxious I swam hard and fast in choppy seas with strong currents. I have wrecked my leg again. Stupid me. Physiotherapist gave me some exercises and thinks I should avoid the injection this time. It hurts and is so uncomfortable. Guess I’ve learned my lesson.

Otherwise day has been chilled. Anxiety manageable. Computer still stuffed but I’m walking away for now as it drives me mad trying to fix it. Had a nap. Been told by Physio to rest up for a few days so I’m taking the opportunity to rest my mind as much as possible too. At least Bipolar is still at bay. I am so thankful for that.

[Scooter9]

The site looks good on mobile now!

I'm posting directly on the site for the first time in ages, I was using Tapatalk on my phone before. I might just switch to using the site directly now.

I looked at my mood chart for last month and see that I was really low for 25% of the month in total. That's up quite a bit from a few months ago. But I was on a higher dose of Modafinil then. I had to lower it due to side effects.

Not feeling too good today either but I'm having a huge, pail-sized coffee so that might lift my mood for a few hours.

LadyShadow, I think your card idea is very nice and appropriate. I'm sure it will be appreciated. I'd suggest being careful not to write anything that might make your T feel guilty for his abrupt departure. You really don't know the full circumstances. I'm sure he would like well wishes and appreciation.

My moods have not been quite right lately. I have times when I'm sort of fine, but others when I almost feel mildly depressed and others when I have short periods of extreme agitation and racing thoughts (and other mixed symptoms). I see my psychiatrist tomorrow. I definitely don't want to have my Seroquel XR dose increased, but if I'm honest and tell him I've had to take PRN Seroquel (above my regular meds) he might raise my base dose.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

My moods have not been quite right lately. I have times when I'm sort of fine, but others when I almost feel mildly depressed and others when I have short periods of extreme agitation and racing thoughts (and other mixed symptoms). I see my psychiatrist tomorrow. I definitely don't want to have my Seroquel XR dose increased, but if I'm honest and tell him I've had to take PRN Seroquel (above my regular meds) he might raise my base dose.

Is the prn seroquel working for you?
bizi

Originally Posted by bizi

Is the prn seroquel working for you?
bizi

Hi bizi. When I've been taking the prn Seroquel lately, it's usually because of extreme agitation (agitation being a mild word). If I take it for that (usually 50 mg regular Seroquel), it usually does calm my agitation within about 30 minutes. That kind of dose during such times doesn't make me at all tired, though. The thing is, this agitation seems to show up at some times almost every day lately. I try to avoid taking the prn (sometimes the agitation eases without), but it's been a lot lately. Really, it's possible that a 50 mg daily increase of my daily Seroquel XR dose might be a good idea so the need for regular Seroquel prns can stop. I wouldn't normally mind, but I have been really eating a lot lately. I think the overeating is partly because of my recent mood issues, and partly because of my Seroquel XR dose. It's hard for me to lose weight taking any more than 450 mg of Seroquel XR daily. I'm now on 500 mg. It often goes up to 600 mg (or more) at times.

Usually I'm not that concerned about my weight, but it has been steadily going up up up over the past months. I am really afraid that I will eventually reach my all time high weight. When I was at that weight, my blood work was particularly bad. I don't want to get diabetes. My sister got diabetes. Diabetes is common in my family.

[bizi]

I understand where you are coming from. Read my thread if you wish. I stated taking 5 mg of zyprexa at night a year ago. It helps with sleep.
I don't think that contributed with my weight gain, also going thru menapause does not help either.
good luck with your diet.
bizi

Originally Posted by bizi

@Brentus

how is it going? what did you want to happen?Any way to ask for a change like call his office and request a change if that is what you wanted????
just guessing here.
how are you doing?
bizi

@bizi It's nothing like that -- I'm just a little disillusioned when it comes to medicine and it's efficacy. It's doing all it can. I'm just not where I want to be I guess. It's not even something the psychiatrist is a part of.

[Innerzone]

Still looking for a new job. It's pretty bleak. There's really only been 2 I'd even have a shot at in all the weeks I've been looking (not including jobs I have absolutely no interest in -- like yeah, I could probably be a dishwasher, but I don't want to be completely exhausted and not be able to do life things. I've done it before, but I was decades younger then. Also, not jobs too far away to be practical. And have to be transit accessible. And not require a car. It's not that I'm not overly fussy, I just know my physical and psychological limitations. And I have very few in-demand skills. I'm a really hard worker, but it's hard to get in the door.).

But I finally DID download a word processing program (LibreOffice) and updated my resumé (minor change). (I had downloaded another, but it was useless (Bean). Like, it couldn't even center(!!). Sure, the choice was there, but all it did was put it all over the place. So into the trash that one went!

I'm also cleaning up my room today. It's a big mess. Things have been sliding and indifference is considerable. Might be somewhat depressed. But it's probably situational.

And I need to do something creative, or I will die. (Not physically, but mentally.)

[Wander]

That’s a tough situation. I have no advice I can think would help, but I can see you’re working your bit off. Keep fighting and hopefully a decent job will come along. Even start at dishwashing if you desperately need the cash right now. Then you can keep looking and work from there. I wish you the best of luck.

[Wander]

Woke up at 6.30 am. Still, I finally got a great sleep due to 12.5mg of Seroquel. Now I’m smoking and drinking coffee to wake up. Have to get my nephew a present today for the family get together tomorrow. He is autistic so it’s really tough as he wants nothing and is really picky. He will be 13. I’m going to make a card and put some money in it as that’s the only thing he will love.

Not anxious so far which is great. I usually wake up anxious. Hope the day continues like this. Trauma therapy must be helping. Although I’ve only just started and have much worse things to speak about.

[LadyShadow]

Had a good day today despite waking up at 2:30pm, ugh! I have been taking 20mg of Melatonin on top of 400mg Seroquel and my crazy mind won't rest enough for me to fall asleep. The bad side of that is, if I take more Seroquel or something else I won't wake up or be too groggy too do anything or worst case scenario - sleep all day.

I better figure it out before I commit to working a job - Sigh.

[Blue_Bird]

I'm feeling really good. My meds are great so I'm hoping the one that's not generic is approved by my insurance.

Possible trigger:

I ended up in the ER the other day due to my ED and long story short I'm out and after a few days of eating normal and getting a ton of rest I'm beginning to feel much better

My concentration has come back, I have energy again, I don't feel like crap and my hallucinations have stayed away for several weeks.

Hope everyone is doing okay

[fern46]

Today was a good day, but strange as well. I saw my pdoc and he is questioning my diagnosis. He thinks maybe I have delusional disorder instead of bipolar disorder. I read up on it this evening and I'm not sure it fits. I'm not sure bipolar disorder fits either. Ugh... I don't like not knowing one way or the other.

[Innerzone]

Originally Posted by Wander

That’s a tough situation. I have no advice I can think would help, but I can see you’re working your bit off. Keep fighting and hopefully a decent job will come along. Even start at dishwashing if you desperately need the cash right now. Then you can keep looking and work from there. I wish you the best of luck.

Fortunately, I do have a job (that I've been at for a little over a month). Problem is, I can't stand it. So it's more like continuing to look I guess. There *is* one aspect that I actually (generally) enjoy, that was a surprise to me. At least there's value in that, because it lets me not worry about that if that's part of another job.

There's a number of times that I really wanted to just walk. And totally *would* have when I was younger! (I've had 40 jobs, though the rate of change has slowed over the years). I never worried about finding another one back then, but it's much, much harder now. And ageism is very real. Illegal, but real (I actually had a potential employer SAY they weren't hiring me on account of it(!!)) Doesn't help.

Anyhow... the search continues...

[bizi]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I'm feeling really good. My meds are great so I'm hoping the one that's not generic is approved by my insurance.

Possible trigger:

I ended up in the ER the other day due to my ED and long story short I'm out and after a few days of eating normal and getting a ton of rest I'm beginning to feel much better

My concentration has come back, I have energy again, I don't feel like crap and my hallucinations have stayed away for several weeks.

Hope everyone is doing okay

I am glad that you are better..
(((HUGS))))
bizi