[Pikku Myy]

I am so confused about the new layouts...

Yesterday morning I was struggling to get out of bed, but then I did and even did a lot (went downtown, ate lunch out, took a walk in a park). Today I'm sort of struggling to get going, again. I did finally shave my legs. That's actually a big accomplishment for me. But other than that, I've been hiding in bed. I haven't paid enough attention to my pet parrot. I'll try to do so in a little bit. When I don't, I try to remind myself that if I was working a full-time job, he wouldn't see anyone most of the day. As it is, he sees me almost all day long, even if he's just in the cage staring at me. I usually do talk to him even when he's in his cage.

I'm glad it's the weekend! Weekends are almost always a little easier because hubby is home. I tend to do more chores when he's home, and we usually go somewhere for something.

[Fuzzybear]

Hugs y’all

[gina_re]

Today was sort of a 'blah' day. I didn't do much of anything except make a few phone calls. And it was rainy today which makes me lazy. My sister and her kids will be here later this evening, so I'm looking forward to that. Hugs to all that needs one!

[yellow_fleurs]

Having a low day, irritable too. It's PMDD mood still. My therapist said I seemed different and like I wanted to cry. Pretty big change from my chipper self last therapy session. I know it'll pass but I feel hopeless and like it will never get better right now. I am going to meet up with a friend and her friends tonight. I hope it goes well and is a good move to get out of the house. Hope everyone has a great Friday.

[Unrigged64072835]

Crazy eye pain and swelling on a spot on the lower eyelid of my right eye. I was thinking a stye. Nope, according to the ophthalmologist: just pinkeye. I would've been relieved if she didn't expound vehemently upon cleaning every surface in the house twice with bleach wipes, like I had the plague, smallpox, and anthrax rolled into one germy mess.. Stressed my husband out which stressed and frustrated me as well. More antibiotic/steroid drops which don't do a thing for the pain and swelling. At least ibuprofen takes care of some of it so I can sleep.

Other than that another quiet day. Been feeling down of which this didn't help. All I want is more chocolate and sleep.

Love and hugs to all.

[Wander]

Still struggling. Last night I was incredibly restless. I paced and just wanted to sleep early but meds weren’t kicking in. I tried sleeping at 7.30 pm but got up soon after as I knew sleep wouldn’t come. I tried distracting myself and finally went to sleep after 10 pm after more meds. It was an awful feeling.

This morning I feel better and I’m hoping the irritability doesn’t kick in later. Off to babysit my parents house today. It should be fun as they have great technology and my partner will be with me. This should help. My mood is low and I’m scared. PTSD. My T and I are working through it but it’s hard going. I’m hoping in time that the therapy will calm these symptoms.

[avlady]

I am going through getting off my hydrocodone -2 pills a day I was taking. not much but enough to irritate me today.

[RainyDay107]

Originally Posted by bizi

What is that?
bizi
It sounds like you had a good day.

Hey Miss bizi

[RainyDay107]

Originally Posted by pirilin

Present.

Cold subsiding slowly.

Yesterday, I hugged and kissed my next door neighbor.

And started coughing. She looked at me like a criminal.

I told her is going away, but she wasn't convinced.

Bet she went for a pound of Zicam.

LMAO that legally might be assault and battery

[RainyDay107]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Hello peoples !

Not a blip since I stopped Latuda. No withdrawals ( go me) my mood is stable. Just can’t wait til vacation !

Really nothing to report.

Hugs and cookies to all that need it ~

You! Glad you are well.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

My mom has been helping me with some cleaning/organizing the last couple of days. I really appreciate the help but she makes me feel bad about it without trying. She said something today about not letting things get so ahead of me and I told her I just haven't had much motivation lately and that it's been hard with my father's illness and death. She told me I need to just do things regardless of how I feel. Which seems like asking a lot. My brother is grieving also and having a hard time and I don't think she gets why it is hard for us since it had been 20 years. The problem is that 20 years doesn't erase love, even if you thought it did and wanted it to. It's not like it will be when she dies, I can't imagine that, but it is sad and had and I'm proud that I have done enough laundry to have clean clothes.

Oh well. At least my house is getting cleaner and that's a good thing. The guilt I'll just have to ignore.

[RainyDay107]

@TheSeaCat
Hope you see this. Congratulations on your academics!

I hesitate to to post but just my opinion based on my own experience.

If you are finishing your degree and like your job. Seeking the Masters. I would not recommend and that is regardless of bipolar etc.

[RainyDay107]

Originally Posted by Wander

Thanks Scooter, Fern, and yellow-fleurs. You have encouraged me to stay here for now. I’m very self-conscious now.


Still, I will add to my update. I managed to get petrol and go for a swim. I swam hard, probably due to anxiety. Trying to burn it off. As I have Fibromyalgia, which is mild atm, I may crash later but it was worth it. My anxiety is less now. Trying to get in contact with my psychiatrist to get an Ativan script for my pharmacy given blister packs. As the pharmacy has already supplied 20 of their own (and also tried to contact my pdoc), if I don’t get a script by Thursday I will have to go without for four days which would be a disaster. Will try GP but my meds are so controlled she may refuse.


Trying to call the welfare line but they’ve been engaged all morning. If I get through it’s an hour wait. Need more staff. Want to nap. Tired but wired. So YouTube it is for now.

I want to swim. My pdoc keeps fussing on it. It I do not have access to a heated pool.

I hope the benzos are sorted out. If she refuses perhaps ask her if there are any side effects of not having the meds for a few days. (

I like YouTube but never know where to go. I drown on Reddit lol

[RainyDay107]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Ok the meds between psych and physical have always given me dry mouth but OMG today I have drank at least a gallon probably closer to a gallon and a half and I couldn’t spit to save my life.

Biotene is my best friend but it’s only lasting 15-20 mins at a time

I can’t do sugarless candy or gum , my teeth hurt enough as is.

Fml

How is Biotene? I have always wondered.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by RainyDay107

How is Biotene? I have always wondered.

It’s soooooo helpful. Don’t buy generic Walmart stuff get the actual brand

[RainyDay107]

Originally Posted by tecomsin

So I posted basically the same message that I posted previous to this one that I had learned how to take world wide group conscience, or a private, secure, anonymous election based on an email list... I posted that message on another forum and not only was it withheld by the moderator, but now all of my posts onto that message board will be previewed before they are posted by a moderator for a month!


It really makes me appreciate the freedom we have just to be ourselves on psychforums. I feel like i am dealing with an idea police on the other board, which is a private fellowship board that is not public.

Need to share thoughts with my bf lol you sound similar.

Maybe try godlikeproductions

I call it aliensandmorons

[BeyondtheRainbow]

I think Biotene tastes like warm spit. Someone else wrote the same description somewhere on here but it's exactly what it reminds me of. Warm spit in a bottle.

[RainyDay107]

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

I think Biotene tastes like warm spit. Someone else wrote the same description somewhere on here but it's exactly what it reminds me of. Warm spit in a bottle.

Hmmm. That would need to be Truth or Dare.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by RainyDay107

Need to share thoughts with my bf lol you sound similar.

Maybe try godlikeproductions

I call it aliensandmorons

Omg I love godlikeproductions !!!!!! Haven’t been there in ages. I’m heading there now lolllollllollolololol