[Moose72]

Prep went well. Leaving at 1.

[Innerzone]

Had an appt. at a staffing agency today. I was hesitant about the whole thing, but went anyway. I just now left, told them to forget it. I don't like that feeling, like I'm being herded into something, and I was feeling it, so I left. In the past, I'd just get swept into things (people pleasing probably), and THEN kick myself and ruminate endlessly. Still kind of kicking myself, because I don't like people having my info unless necessary. I'm a very private person. But the good news is that I left! At least that's progress.

Just wish I'd stayed in bed and maybe gotten more sleep.

[Victoria'smom]

what makes you think you need to be inpatient? I don't think I need IP but I'm use to professionals disagreeing with me. I can handle the space I'm in now. All she knows about me is that I sit quietly in my husband's sessions and whatever my husband said last session. I was not with him last session. His T asked if my T knew something and he told her I'm not going back to therapy and I guess she wants to talk to me about it.

I saw my psychiatrist a little while ago. It was a laid back session. I told him that my agitation has been reduced since my medication increase, but I still have minor mood fluctuations. He said to stay where I am with my meds, especially since Easter is coming up.

I mentioned earlier that my psychiatrist is attending the same lecture series on modern China topics that I am. We were really quite naughty. During my session, we sort of made fun of the last lecture. I mentioned that I thought the professor was maybe having some kind of issue. My psychiatrist agreed. He actually went so far as to say he suspects the professor could be on the autism spectrum (Asperger's Syndrome). Having had a lot of exposure to people with Asperger's (my two nephews and a local man), I now think that's a possibility, too. I feel bad that we laughed a bit about the lecture topic. It was rather absurd, though. My psychiatrist said he slept through about 1/3 of the lecture. I know that because I saw him with his head down.

[Sunflower123]

I have an appointment with a tdoc who specializes in mood disorders on April 29th. I’m really relieved because I’m baffled at and tired of going along thinking I’m stable and Blam! I’m on the phone with the crisis line. I also have a few issues I’d like to work on. I never really got over my daughter going to college.

Got out in this gorgeous weather and ran some errands. About to go out again. I’m feeling like myself again after a day and a half of a crisis. Am I just not accepting my diagnosis? Why does this keep happening? Maybe I’ll get some answers April 29th.

Warm wishes and hugs to all.

[fern46]

My family session went well today. We played mostly. We didn't get into anything heavy, but she established the start of a relationship with my kids. We go back in two weeks. I'm optimistic.

[pirilin]

Good news and bad news.
Found a US Treasury bond from 1996.
Hundred dollar bond. The bank gave me 107.54 dollars.
I spent it rightaway, thinking my wallet had at least 60 bucks.
My wallet has 18 measly bucks. Where does the money goes?.
Life is full of surprises.
Cheers.

[Scooter9]

I had a really low day today. My mood was particularly low and I was withdrawn. I took a long and brisk walk at lunch - a beautiful afternoon, yet my mood didn't change.

I got in contact with my son who is living and working in another country and told him I love and miss him. At least that's the good thing that came out of this today. He replied later and said he loves me too.

I went shopping on the way home. When I got home my younger son was home which was nice. He lives at home but has classes at night so I only see him 1 or 2 times a week.

I feel so bad. I'm hoping I feel better tomorrow.

[GoldenSnitch]

I had a decent day today. I stayed busy and spent some time outside with my daughter in the beautiful weather we are having. It felt good.

[wildflowerchild25]

I am still feeling funky today although we had a good day at the water park. I’m not depressed really I just feel...off. I don’t know.

I’m pretty worried about Easter. There’s been some family drama involving my mother and my grandfather. Basically he yelled at her about getting our kitchen redone and she’s now said that if he says anything on Easter about it she will not keep her mouth shut. Thing is he’s guaranteed to say something about it and not in a nice way. Besides that my uncle and cousins are all dickheads. Last year Easter was horrible. But this year I’m bringing RS. I shouldn’t have invited him. I’m going to be so embarrassed if **** pops off.

Also, my grandparents are pushing me to ask RS to be the point person for this whole kitchen remodeling fiasco. I don’t think it’s fair of them to ask the man I’ve been dating for only five months to get involved. It’s not his house. He doesn’t live here. Why would he want to get involved in the drama?

Ugh I hope everyone behaves themselves. I hate my family dysfunction.

[gina_re]

The days are running together. I want to sleep the day away. I can't get myself to be productive. I know this is situational though. I just wish I can fast forward to when this is over with.

It was a beautiful day here and i got some errands and shopping done. Now we're headed into trois jours du pluie (if you like my French -- it means three days of rain). Beaucoup du pluie.

[Unrigged64072835]

Thunder is rolling along this morning. Not in the forecast.

Saw pnurse yesterday. She upped my Trileptal and restarted Lunesta to get my sleep back under control. Today I feel awful emotionally but at least I slept okay. Tonight will be the clincher.

I’m almost finished with sewing a pair of shorts, and will start another top soon. I’m going to keep working on this for a while. Hopefully make it a way of life because ready to wear clothes don’t fit anymore. I have lots of patterns—that’s actually the inexpensive part.

May have to move daughter out of her apartment Friday. Roommate is not paying rent. She’s co-signed on the lease, so she’ll be on the hook until July. She’s staying with her current boyfriend and she’s happy there.

[Wander]

Beautiful weather today before a storm and major drop in temperature tomorrow. Slept about 5 hours even with a lot of meds. So nauseous. I have trouble eating as I don’t feel hungry, and when I do eat my stomach feels worse. On the plus side I may lose weight.

Texted T and he suggested usual anxiety management skills. Later he suggested benzodiazepines. They help but only in large amounts so not really sustainable. I guess I will just have to use my skills and tough it out.

Saw a close friend for coffee this afternoon. We haven’t caught up in ages. It was wonderful. I rarely see friends, and have so few. We’ve known each other 23 years.

Mentally I’m ok but I get very stressed very easily. Then I dissociate and stare, and lose time. I’m used to having bad PTSD from years ago but this is a more physical monster. The panic attacks are bad. Even though the Bipolar is stable I’m worried I’m going to lose it under all this pressure.

Originally Posted by whatever2013

It was a beautiful day here and i got some errands and shopping done. Now we're headed into trois jours du pluie (if you like my French -- it means three days of rain). Beaucoup du pluie.

J'aime le mot "pluie". Je pense que c'est un joli mot. Le mot "rain" en anglais est dur. Je suis curieux de savoir pourquoi certaines langues semblent plus severes que d’autres.

[Daonnachd]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

J'aime le mot "pluie". Je pense que c'est un joli mot. Le mot "rain" en anglais est dur. Je suis curieux de savoir pourquoi certaines langues semblent plus severes que d’autres.

There are parallels in English with pluie. Pluviophile means someone who loves the rain. (I am a pluviophile.)

Thank you, Caesar, for bringing the Romance languages to Britain.

[hopeless2015]

Took my ****ing seroquel this am by mistake. What a dumb *** move. As soon as I swallowed it I was like ****!!At work about to crash. Time to take my break and go walk a bit, might help.

Hugs to all

[Blue_Bird]

I have appointments today and am nervous, not sure why

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by hopeless2015

Took my ****ing seroquel this am by mistake. What a dumb *** move. As soon as I swallowed it I was like ****!!At work about to crash. Time to take my break and go walk a bit, might help.

Hugs to all

That's not good I don't leave the house after I take mine because it's almost like I'm drunk after taking it, guess that's why it's a night med hope the walk helps wake you up a bit

[Moose72]

The colonoscopy went very well. Everything went better than anticipated- got there early, found the place, got a good parking spot. My prep went perfectly . The procedures both went well. Just one small polyp which they removed. Revovery was fine- i was a little wobbly at first. On the way home, my mom took me to Red Robin first real food in days.