[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Fharraige

Still feeling low and sleep is still erratic even with increased Trileptal and added Lunesta. At least my husband's MRI is done and we don't have to go anywhere until next Monday.

Hope your sleep improves. How long til you hear about mri results , I hate the waiting bit.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

I'm here. Sorry I can't keep up with threads these days. Still have iron-deficiency anemia. The doctor put me on iron pills, and I guess I have to take those a few weeks, and they will do more bloodwork to see if I'm not consuming enough iron or if I am not absorbing iron properly. I never have had fantastic iron levels, but I've never been anemic this long or to the point of having ice-eating pica. I want to eat crushed ice all day, every day, it's crazy.

i hope they get an answer soon. I had very low hemoglobin before my hysterectomy. I kept hanging one unit from getting ferritin infusions that would have made me feel better. It was really rough feeling that tired. I was so glad when things returned to normal after my surgery.

I hope you are feeling better very soon.

[Pookyl]

Feeling good. But I don’t think I’m sleeping enough so I’ve got ever the slightest buzz.
It shall be our secret 😂

[Unrigged64072835]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Hope your sleep improves. How long til you hear about mri results , I hate the waiting bit.

He should have the report mailed in about a week. He already has a DVD of the images so he can compare them to his previous images. His next neurology appointment is in June, I think. I just hope less stress is working, otherwise he’ll have to go on infusions. That means at least one week of him feeling crappy for a crap shoot. MS meds are just as bad as Psych meds sometimes. It’s throwing Jello on a wall and seeing what sticks.

I had to get up extra early today since my husband had an early meeting. I'm kind of glad since now I'll feel I have more hours in the day.

I have lots of projects to do this week. I MUST do a lot of French homework/study. My French instructor wants me to progress through the book much faster. I wish that there was some kind of little electric shock that I would get if I procrastinate too long.

I have been preparing for our yard sale this weekend. There's still lots to do, plus we need to haul all of the stuff from the basement to the garage. It's a lot! I have to also price everything. I did a lot of research this past seven days trying to figure out appropriate pricing.

This Thursday the PSE&G will come to fix our phone line. They will surely dig up part of our front lawn and garden. Then I'll need to fix it, then plant the flowers we bought. Normally I wouldn't plant this early, but my neighbor with whom we share the garden is listing her house for sale. I want our part of the garden to look nice.

Yesterday I contacted an auction about selling some Hummel figurines I inherited almost 18 years ago. I'm yet to hear from them. I did a ton of research for the contact letter I sent to them.

Today I have my therapist in the afternoon and another evening lecture on modern China topics. That will be lecture 5 of 6. So far I've attended 5 of the 5 so far. I'm proud of myself. My next French class is this Friday.

The weekend after this coming one is my 30th high school reunion. I bought a nice dress and cardigan for the day. I had wished I would lose some weight, but I didn't. Oh well!

about to go on a walk, hate being awake but it f eels like I'm not. I feel like realities are overlapping. yeah, that's what's happening.

[Moose72]

Saw my case manager this morning. She seems happy with things. I haven't seen her as much. I told her I'm off Seroquel and a few others since a few months ago when I was seeing her more. She said to watch out because sometimes drugs stay in your system for a bit after you quit them.

Before that, I went on a nice morning walk with my friend who is also trying to lose weight. She's already lost a LOT from her highest.

[Innerzone]

One job interview done, one to go. Feeling anxious. I suspect I'd enjoy either job and if they both offer, I'm a HUGELY indecisive person (which is probably what's making me so nervous). Well, and I forgot to tell them I'll be going in for carpal tunnel surgery soon. Oops.

First one is kind if a nuisance to get to (double the commute, like an hour), but involves no public contact and has great hours (early start). The one later today is considerably closer, but has a bit more retail type hours (but only till 6) and involves sales (and design, which is not a problem). I always have epic fail at making a pro/con list as I can't really weigh the importance of things. Like... which is more important, commute time or dealing with customers? Ack, I don't know(!)

Anyhow, I'm blabbering, lol. Head a-swirl and waiting for the bus with nothing to do but think. And write.

When I got home from my tdoc's and an errand, I found a message on my home answering machine from my sister. I called her back and she said that my father was so severely ill early this morning from extreme drinking that he asked my brother to take him to the hospital. My brother took him to the ER and just left him there and went to work. My siblings and I have spent way too many hours in vain in ERs this past year trying to get my dad help. I told my sister to tell my brother that I agreed with what he did this morning, leaving my dad there.

We don't know where my dad is right now. Both my sister and I refuse to call my dad. Doing so would only make us frantic or yell at him ballistically. My brother will eventually find out if our dad is home or elsewhere. My sister and I are guessing he called his girlfriend or some other friend and they picked him up. We don't know that for sure, though.

If my father continues on this path much longer, he will either die or kill someone via drinking and driving. My sister and I already discussed post death plans for him. Even though our father is an extremely popular person in our town, we don't plan to give him a service or funeral. We just don't think we could bear seeing all of his enabling alcoholic and blood sucking "friends". Our plan is to only have a family get together with our uncles and other close family. Any announcement will include a request to donate to our state's association on mental health and addictions.

[Wander]

Update. The hospital was great. They tested me for everything. In the end (tmi I’m sorry) it is severe constipation. I still feel bad but the treatment helped. Now I have a protocol to follow to eliminate it. So thankful I have a great hospital down the road.

On the other hand the Bipolar is still stable. I just have to deal with the PTSD which I think caused this issue due to serious stress. See my T today and hopefully he will he will help me deal with this and calm down.

[Wander]

Originally Posted by spikes

about to go on a walk, hate being awake but it f eels like I'm not. I feel like realities are overlapping. yeah, that's what's happening.

That must be an awful feeling. I hope it passes soon.

[Victoria'smom]

I slept the day away because I couldn't take the anxiety anymore and took a zyprexa, I feel so weak.

[Scooter9]

I spoke too soon...the low mood has not passed, but it is not as bad as a few days ago, so that's the good news in this.

[LadyShadow]

Had an amazing interview today for a job I really want. God help me that this bipolar mess stays in check while I pursue full-time employment to finally be on my own. Please, dear Lord, give me the break that I need. I need this so bad.

My father was finally fully admitted into an addictions rehab. I hope he is in their dual diagnosis section. My siblings and I know relatively little. I know where he is. It's nearby to where I live. I will coordinate with my brother to get him clothes.

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by Wander

Update. The hospital was great. They tested me for everything. In the end (tmi I’m sorry) it is severe constipation. I still feel bad but the treatment helped. Now I have a protocol to follow to eliminate it. So thankful I have a great hospital down the road.

On the other hand the Bipolar is still stable. I just have to deal with the PTSD which I think caused this issue due to serious stress. See my T today and hopefully he will he will help me deal with this and calm down.

Sometimes a cigar is just a cigar

[gina_re]

Well I had a job interview this afternoon. I think it went well, but then again I always think interviews go well and I end up not getting the job. But I'll hold out hope. Part of me doesnt want to go back to work. I stress too easily, and when I do it leads to an episode. But I have to pay my bills, so I have to work.
I stopped by sister's on the way home. My two year old nephew is definitely jealous of my eight month old niece. He started copying everything she did to get my attention. It was very awkward.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Fharraige

He should have the report mailed in about a week. He already has a DVD of the images so he can compare them to his previous images. His next neurology appointment is in June, I think. I just hope less stress is working, otherwise he’ll have to go on infusions. That means at least one week of him feeling crappy for a crap shoot. MS meds are just as bad as Psych meds sometimes. It’s throwing Jello on a wall and seeing what sticks.

Oh damn I’m so sorry I hope that somehow something works out.

Jello and wall ??? Perfect explanation.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

One job interview done, one to go. Feeling anxious. I suspect I'd enjoy either job and if they both offer, I'm a HUGELY indecisive person (which is probably what's making me so nervous). Well, and I forgot to tell them I'll be going in for carpal tunnel surgery soon. Oops.


First one is kind if a nuisance to get to (double the commute, like an hour), but involves no public contact and has great hours (early start). The one later today is considerably closer, but has a bit more retail type hours (but only till 6) and involves sales (and design, which is not a problem). I always have epic fail at making a pro/con list as I can't really weigh the importance of things. Like... which is more important, commute time or dealing with customers? Ack, I don't know(!)


Anyhow, I'm blabbering, lol. Head a-swirl and waiting for the bus with nothing to do but think. And write.

Good for you !!! 2 interviews is the way to go , yep now becomes the problem , yes the bloody pro/con list.

Each offer you something you want and need. Is pay equal enough ? Factor in what your commuting costs are monthly.

Will either position come with any benefits ? Like sick days or vacation days ?

It’s always hard to make a decision.

I have no advice other than follow your gut, it will never steer you wrong.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by gina_re

Well I had a job interview this afternoon. I think it went well, but then again I always think interviews go well and I end up not getting the job. But I'll hold out hope. Part of me doesnt want to go back to work. I stress too easily, and when I do it leads to an episode. But I have to pay my bills, so I have to work.

I stopped by sister's on the way home. My two year old nephew is definitely jealous of my eight month old niece. He started copying everything she did to get my attention. It was very awkward.

Hope you get an offer on the job ! Is it a job you think would be a good fit for you ???

I bet it was awkward watching the kids.