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Do you blame yourself for relapsing? I know and believe BP is a brain disease but when I get depressed I feel that there must have been something I could have done differently to prevent myself from getting depressed. If I ate better, exercised more or slept regularly, maybe I would not get sick again. Does anyone else feel similarly?
I am on meds and I take them ALL as prescribed so I can't or don't blame it on the meds. __________________ Bipolar: Lamictal, and Abilify. Klonopin, Ritalin and Xanax PRN. |
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I completely blame myself but i have more of a reason to. I quit my meds and drink a lot sometimes so it is definitely my fault.
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Most of the time I use a mix of blaming the illness, and blaming myself. However, if I really have been doing all the right things and still have an episode I blame the illness alone. However, what I use to blame myself can be petty and rejected as a cause by my pdoc. Things like I had a week where I didnt exercise like usual. We can definitely trigger our episodes with significant negative behavioural changes though. That is when I blame myself. Still if we didnt have Bipolar there would be nothing to trigger.
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What do you mean by relapsing? I look at BP as either active or being in remission. To me, relapsing is like self blame and I do not think you need to blame yourself, nor do you deserve it.
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Is this for bipolar 2 or 3 people? I have no idea what relapses or remission of BP is or even possible.
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Ive only blamed myself once. Two years ago I drank myself stupid. It triggered the worst sui episode Ive ever had. I ended up in hospital and have never touched alcohol again.
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Sometimes I have. Other times my episodes came on beyond my control from either triggers I had no control over (I can't change seasons, stress, medication issues) or seemingly nothing.
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Some people like myself like to say that their bipolar ( or other mental illness) is in remission when stable on the right meds, going to therapy. etc. I was asking about the relapse part because I am not sure what that refers to.
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I blame myself as well, especially if Ive had a long period of stability and then slip back into depression. I always think there must have been something I could have been doing to help myself more. Even though sometimes there just isnt. Sometimes its just my brain. But I always think I should have tried harder to avoid depression.
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I can be rolling along stable and bipolar just reaches up and slaps me hard. No I do not blame myself.
A few times I have fiddled with my Meds and drop my coping skills out of anger and well that never ends well. So that one I blame myself for. __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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Thank you everyone for the insight. I was symptomatic for a few weeks (doing fine now) and I just started thinking about the course of this disease and if I was doing as much as I could to avoid depression.
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