[BeyondtheRainbow]

Yay Innerzone! (On the job and end of conjunctivitis, not the fall damage. I'm still not quite free of scabs from my fall a few weeks ago although at least my face was about the only thing I did not hit. Hope you feel fast.)

[lightly toasted]

I think I'm going hypomanic.

Physically I'm tired, but I've been super chatty and all over the place with topics I've been blathering on about. And giggly and weird. Tonight I was in a Petsmart and the cat food I was after wasn't on the shelf, I couldn't find any salespeople, so I just walked into the stockroom and looked myself . Now that I've been home, I realise that's a bit odd. It seemed normal and acceptable to me at the time. I am cringing at some of the stuff I've overshared and this is why, apart from my husband, I just don't socialise any more. If I'm not depresses and cranky, I'm hypomanic and embarrassing myself. Cripes, I just want to crawl under a rock.

[giddykitty]

I'm almost done weaning off my bipolar medicine. It wasn't very high dosage. I still am skeptic whether I actually have bipolar. I'm thinking it must've just been a reaction to the ADHD medication that sent me hypomania, I don't know. But I just want to thank all of you for reading my posts all these months and your support and your stories. I wish everyone the best and hope to remain a part of this group even if just for moral support. I still have anxiety and depression and apparently dependant personality disorder (although I'm skeptic of that too) so I can relate a little. Anyway, take care everyone! Peace and love!

I almost fried my work laptop this morning and lost everything. I spilled a full cup of water on the edge of it, but luckily, the water spilled off it and went underneath, not in through the keyboard. I’m so clumsy sometimes! I hit it with my hand pretty forcefully because the cup went flying. lol. The mouse is toast, though. R.I.P. mouse.

This is like the 3rd or 4th time I’ve done this. I really need a spill proof water bottle and to stop using the disposable cups. You’d think I’d have learned by now!

Well, I’m the kind of person who trips going up the stairs or trips on flat ground, so I’m pretty clumsy. And I drop things often.

Otherwise, having a good day so far. I set up a lunch today with my coworkers to go out for Indian. It’s 15 mins away from the office, but it’s sooooo worth it.

I'm applying for disability and it sucks. This is totally overwhelming I don't remember half the crap they're asking and I don't even know how to find it out. How am I supposed to remember what I got paid four years ago when I only worked a few months out of the year? I was told it wouldn't be overwhelming and it is and I'm already on the verge of a breakdown and this is just sending me over the edge. **** it, I can be homeless.

[Nammu]

What got me is that they wanted addresses and names....I don't remember those things. I started keeping my outdated DL cause they had the addresses on them, but how much I earned and who was my boss? I didn't know. I don't remember people's names from high school either.

[Miss Laura]

Still feel hyper. Still wakening between 2 and 4am. Skin still crawling. Struggling to do anything cause I'm hungover and cant stay awake. Having high anxieties. Talking to guys online. They want to meet. Buying stuff off of Ebay and Amazon etc. Dont care about things anymore that I use to

[yellow_fleurs]

Originally Posted by spikes

I'm applying for disability and it sucks. This is totally overwhelming I don't remember half the crap they're asking and I don't even know how to find it out. How am I supposed to remember what I got paid four years ago when I only worked a few months out of the year? I was told it wouldn't be overwhelming and it is and I'm already on the verge of a breakdown and this is just sending me over the edge. **** it, I can be homeless.

I am sorry it is so stressful. A few things you could try for your income are an old W-2 or tax form, or maybe a bank statement? You could possibly call the HR though I realize that would be stressful. I had to get records from an old place of work and the HR was able to print and mail me my pay stubs.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

I was right about my toothache. I need a root canal. I have to go to an endodontist so they can work through the crown I already have. I have a feeling this will be very expensie. But at least the toothache will stop.

Tonight and tomorrow I'm taking some extra clozapine to hopefully knock my mood down to normal. I hate it because I'l be exhausted but it's needed. Usually I do a 4 day pulse but I only have time for a 2 day to let it clear my system before I drive all day to see my pdoc. Hopefully it won't interfere with the root canal. My mom can probably take me if it does but I hate to make her do that. Maybe I should wait before I do the pulse. Not sure....not sure how to know. I guess I'll figure it out.

[Scooter9]

I lost my security pass that I need for work and parking. Now it's going to be a headache and $40 to replace it. I have no idea where I lost it except that it happened during the day while I was at work.

I'm feeling ok... first day on bupropion (Wellbutrin). Still feeling low but it'll be a couple of weeks before I can expect any change, if anything at all because I'm on a low dose.

[LadyShadow]

I have never been better. I finally am on the right medication - I am aware, sleeping properly and soundly, waking up at a decent hour and absolutely ready to go to work full time. I am waiting to hear back for a job I applied for, but I am feeling very positive, and healthy. It was a long road, and after 12 years, I am finally ready to come off of disability and rejoin the workforce.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by LadyShadow

I have never been better. I finally am on the right medication - I am aware, sleeping properly and soundly, waking up at a decent hour and absolutely ready to go to work full time. I am waiting to hear back for a job I applied for, but I am feeling very positive, and healthy. It was a long road, and after 12 years, I am finally ready to come off of disability and rejoin the workforce.

That’s great news! Good for you! I hope you get that job.

[LadyShadow]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

That’s great news! Good for you! I hope you get that job.

Thank you so much! I am really hoping for it, but I don't want to put myself through agony over it. If I don't hear from them by next week, I am going to start looking again after the holiday. I am trying to keep my cool and do the absolute best for myself.

I haven't been able to access the forum for a week due to tech dif. BirdDancer: great job on all your Spring cleaning! I've done some myself and it's nice to have a clean home. WildFlowerChild25: congratulations on your house! It sounds like RS' family are very supportive. I feel like you're starting a whole new chapter of your life!

I feel like i'm shaking off my Winter depression. I think it's the Lamictal because i'm not super chatty like i am when i have Spring hypomania. In fact, i was out with my neighbor today with our dogs and i was quite uncomfortable as i was so tongue-tied. But i'd had her over earlier to see my keyboard and the interactive app it works with and that went well.

I've been eating healthy for twelve days. I'm not restricting calories because i don't think it's possible on Seroquel from many attempts and failures. I'm just eating healthy food in proper meals instead of grazing on junk all day. It probably doesn't seem like much of an accomplishment to most of you but i've been eating so poorly for most of the past two decades i'm surprised i didn't get malnutrition. It was really hard the first week with intense hunger between meals but the second week has been easier.

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by whatever2013

I haven't been able to access the forum for a week due to tech dif. BirdDancer: great job on all your Spring cleaning! I've done some myself and it's nice to have a clean home. WildFlowerChild25: congratulations on your house! It sounds like RS' family are very supportive. I feel like you're starting a whole new chapter of your life!

I feel like i'm shaking off my Winter depression. I think it's the Lamictal because i'm not super chatty like i am when i have Spring hypomania. In fact, i was out with my neighbor today with our dogs and i was quite uncomfortable as i was so tongue-tied. But i'd had her over earlier to see my keyboard and the interactive app it works with and that went well.

I've been eating healthy for twelve days. I'm not restricting calories because i don't think it's possible on Seroquel from many attempts and failures. I'm just eating healthy food in proper meals instead of grazing on junk all day. It probably doesn't seem like much of an accomplishment to most of you but i've been eating so poorly for most of the past two decades i'm surprised i didn't get malnutrition. It was really hard the first week with intense hunger between meals but the second week has been easier.

I think healthy eating is an awesome accomplishment especially if you live alone, it's just so easy to graze on junk food. It's a huge lifestyle change, congratulations!

[~Christina]

So I fell on my steps coming in the house yesterday , wound up twisted sideways. I’m sure I looked ridiculous. My husband saw it happen and told me I looked like a ballerina .... LOL I love this man .. Pain hit right away. Ibuprofen was in me before I sat down. Getting up this morning was a chore for sure.

Almost a month ago I fell down the stairs and probably a week later tripped over one of my dogs.

I’m not sure what’s going on I might just be a klutz lol.

Otherwise I am doing well off many medications I have 2 more I want to get off of, one can be cold turkey the other I need to wean down. My mind does seem much clearer. So that’s a wonderful thing.

[Innerzone]

Up in the middle of the night. Again.

LadyShadow, that's a great step! Congratulations on being at this point. I hope it won't be too long before I can write similar.

For some unknown reason, my street had a power outage between 3 pm and 10:30 pm yesterday. I made dinner early while there was still light (I manually lit my gas stove burners). We ended up falling asleep early so I woke up around 5 am fully awake.

I'm so sore from staining our deck yesterday. I'm not used to that kind of labor. It looks good, though. We'll be receiving our new deck furniture this weekend.

[Moose72]

I'm back to being exhausted. Sleeping 8-9 hours at night and about 6 during the day. I am leaving where I am whhen out to go home and sleep.... Its overwhelming- as bad as when I went back on seroquel earlier this month. "Haldol is a major tranquilizer" says my friend who is/was a behavioral pharmacologist. I guess so!

[fern46]

It sounds like the mania has subsided. Maybe your doc would be willing to drop your meds down a bit now to give you back a little energy. I'm sure it must feel as though you've been on a roller coaster.