[Miss Laura]

Bouncing!! Definitely feeling like Tigger on speed today. Lack of sleep isn't helping. Had a heavy session with my therapist today. Wish I didnt act like this when manic its exhausting me

So, I just got prescribed Zoloft. I hope it works well for my anxiety since Buspar doesn't. I think I'm starting to feel a little depressed anyway, so maybe it'll help with the depression too.

I didn't mention the hallucinations to my pdoc because I was dealing with paralyzing anxiety at the time and hallucinations weren't even on my mind. I should probably tell him, though, in case Zoloft exacerbates them. But he does know I get psychosis regardless of me being in an episode, so at least I know he is being mindful of that in general. Still, I have to tell him.

Otherwise, doing alright I guess. Just starting to feel a little down today as of a few hours ago. Sad, disappointed in myself, reflecting on all the stupid sh_t I've done. Maybe it's just a negative moment in my life and not depression, though. Only time will tell. I hope everyone else has a wonderful day.

I started Wellbutrin a couple days ago, or was it yesterday? I don't know. I've been slightly depressed lately. Haven't been walking as much. Tired.

[Moose72]

I had a dream today that I met my soulmate at a restaurant and we ate together and left together after lots of cuddles and happy grins.

I can barely walk today after the deck staining yesterday. Hubby mostly just stained the floor of the deck, using a staining brush on a stick. I, on the other hand, was kneeling, getting up and down a million times from that position, on my hands and knees at other times, and reaching into difficult to reach places staining all of the railing and a huge flower box he created. I took ibuprofen and even put arnica cream on my legs, but they've helped little. Walking itself is painful, but going up and down the stairs is sheer torture.I do very little physical work, so I was particularly vulnerable.

I haven't done much of anything today. The last time I went downstairs I felt horrible thinking that I haven't even done my flower arrangements. Leaves were falling on the floor and my legs hurt too much to even pick them up. Hubby told me to order dinner. I'm not in the mood for it.

[bpforever1]

I'm doing well. I am taking care of my father still. It is a lot of work. I am currently washing clothes. I scrubbed the toilet and cleaned the drawers in the bathroom since ants are coming inside the bathroom. Then, I took care of the kitty litter. I also took out the dishes from the dishwasher. I am now preparing for dinner. I am thinking of boiling vegetables and making sausage sandwiches. I just sat down and feel tired. I will have to set the table then clean afterwards. Oh well. Such is life. I have no time to feel depressed nor contemplate about my situation. I feel fine though but tired.

[Moose72]

I went on a walk with n3 today. Got a shower. Feel refreshed! And started some laundry. I wish that dream I had earlier were real.

[Daonnachd]

My ECT which was supposed to happen tomorrow got postponed to the 5th of June. That will be nice because we won't have Friday afternoon holiday traffic to deal with getting home.

[Nammu]

Ewww holiday traffic. Yeah avoiding that is a definite plus.

[VerMOZZica]

I went to a therapist appointment. I`m giving therapy another try after my Pdoc suggested it more than once. It went okay .The therapist seemed nice. After that I got lunch and after that I didn`t do too much. Later we went to pick up my meds at the pharmacy and picked up dinner. After dinner I folded my laundry and put it away. Then I tidied up my bedroom. Now I`m here posting. I hope everyone has a fantastic weekend.!!!!!!!!!!

[Wander]

I have been too unwell to post or even read posts the last few days. Stomach issues, severe pain, shivers and exhaustion led me to ER again. I felt I was in trouble but more tests led to no conclusions. Constant sleeping and antacids seem to be helping but I am still very weak as I haven't been able to eat much for about a month. This afternoon I seem to have picked up and even managed to vacuum my flat as the mess was bugging me. My partner is back at his flat as he wants to be alone. He has a lot on his plate and is overwhelmed so I understand. Tbh I want to be alone too. Being in a quite environment that I can control helps.

Now my fear is that my Bipolar meds have not been digested properly over the last month leaving me vulnerable to another episode. I am ok at the moment. Just irritable, but that could be caused by my physical issues. Gosh, I just want to be well in every way for once. It's 2.30 pm here and I am back off to bed after getting up at 11 am. Sigh ...

[xRavenx]

Everything I say and do seems to be the wrong thing. I don't really see what the point is anymore. Whenever I try to move forward, it seems I do something to mess it all up.

Originally Posted by xRavenx

Everything I say and do seems to be the wrong thing. I don't really see what the point is anymore. Whenever I try to move forward, it seems I do something to mess it all up.

Sorry you feel that way. Sometimes I feel that way too lately. It's crushing.

Hopefully this feeling passes soon.

Originally Posted by Wander

I have been too unwell to post or even read posts the last few days. Stomach issues, severe pain, shivers and exhaustion led me to ER again. I felt I was in trouble but more tests led to no conclusions. Constant sleeping and antacids seem to be helping but I am still very weak as I haven't been able to eat much for about a month. This afternoon I seem to have picked up and even managed to vacuum my flat as the mess was bugging me. My partner is back at his flat as he wants to be alone. He has a lot on his plate and is overwhelmed so I understand. Tbh I want to be alone too. Being in a quite environment that I can control helps.

Now my fear is that my Bipolar meds have not been digested properly over the last month leaving me vulnerable to another episode. I am ok at the moment. Just irritable, but that could be caused by my physical issues. Gosh, I just want to be well in every way for once. It's 2.30 pm here and I am back off to bed after getting up at 11 am. Sigh ...

Sorry to hear that, Wander. I hope you get better soon.

If your stomach is bothering you, have you tried eating some plain bread or plain crackers with your meds so that they're absorbed better? Usually plain bread products are light on the stomach, and I do that whenever I need to eat with my meds. A lot of times, meds are absorbed best when you eat them with food (with the exception of a few like Ritalin).

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

My ECT which was supposed to happen tomorrow got postponed to the 5th of June. That will be nice because we won't have Friday afternoon holiday traffic to deal with getting home.

Good luck with your ECT. Did you ever manage to get the financial situation straightened out?

[Daonnachd]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Good luck with your ECT. Did you ever manage to get the financial situation straightened out?

Good morning and happy Friday.

I haven't got the finances sorted yet. I'm still working on it. What's more, yesterday I got a call from the billing office of another hospital. I owe them over $320. I don't have enough money to pay that, either.

Wander and xRavenx, I'm sorry to read that you are feeling unwell. Perhaps this weekend will bring some brighter things and feelings.

Daonnachd, I really feel for you about these bills coming in. Please try not to be overwhelmed by them. There is always a solution. I think others have suggested recently to contact them and ask about payment plans or if the charges are possibly mistakes.

I had a very difficult time getting up this morning. I had so much leg pain since staining the deck. Luckily, the pain is starting to ease. I won't be doing anything that requires kneeling today. I'm sure this weekend I'll be able to do that kind of work again. We want to plant flowers and herbs. We should have had them planting a few weeks ago. Our deck furniture is coming this weekend. That will be another project, since we'll have to assemble it all. The umbrella comes next Wednesday. We need the umbrella. It's getting hot again.

I finally contacted my French teacher after putting it off for a long time. I told him that I am not yet ready to schedule my next class, but I will be working on the homework in the meantime. When I feel ready, I'll contact him. Hopefully the next class will be in a few weeks or a month. We'll see. This is actually progress. A couple weeks ago, I was ready to quit him and lose money.

[Moose72]

Today was N3s last day of school! He graduates a week from Tuesday! I have to find a new cpap supplier. I hope its easier than last year- that was a nightmare! My flickr account is messed up. Ugh.

[Daonnachd]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

I haven't got the finances sorted yet. I'm still working on it. What's more, yesterday I got a call from the billing office of another hospital. I owe them over $320. I don't have enough money to pay that, either.

I tried paying $5 on this one just so that the hospital would know that I'm not ignoring it but the charge was declined. We don't even have $5 in our account. Not to worry, I get paid on the 31st. Nevermind the fact that we need to eat between now and then.

Been a rough week. Been rough for awhile. I'm still around, that's a plus I guess.