[Nevvy]

Haven't been on here for a looooong time.

On a lot of meds, still trying to find myself a job where I won't have big problems, but I'm okay

This isn't really about today, but since I was last on here I dropped 60lbs, which helped keeping it in check, a lot. I am slipping a little now, but I am keeping everything under control. My pdoc switched to another clinic, so I am waiting to hear about my new one, and I'm almost on the top of the EMDR list! So crap and Yay!

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Nevvy

Haven't been on here for a looooong time.

On a lot of meds, still trying to find myself a job where I won't have big problems, but I'm okay

This isn't really about today, but since I was last on here I dropped 60lbs, which helped keeping it in check, a lot. I am slipping a little now, but I am keeping everything under control. My pdoc switched to another clinic, so I am waiting to hear about my new one, and I'm almost on the top of the EMDR list! So crap and Yay!

How did you lose the 60 pounds, if I can ask? And what meds were/aare you on while losing?

[Nevvy]

Originally Posted by Moose72

How did you lose the 60 pounds, if I can ask? And what meds were/aare you on while losing?

I started seeing a dietician and went low carb (did it with hubby), as for pills...

Lithium

Zyprexa (was daily, switched to as needed for sleep, big weight gain pill for me when it was daily) - this was the big change that started it I think. This pill was the devil for me, haha.

Oxazepam
Lamictal
Seroquel

And metformin - This was also a big thing for me, it helps weight loss in non-diabetics, but it also forced me to wean off of fried things (doesn't work well for me with that pill.... ....)

And when I started losing weight, my mood improved and then it sort of got me into this new thing of not liking being in the house.

I joined a gym too, but that's only for cardio to help my mood. It has an effect, sure, but I pretty much do it when I can't go and walk somewhere.

Originally Posted by Nevvy

Haven't been on here for a looooong time.

On a lot of meds, still trying to find myself a job where I won't have big problems, but I'm okay

This isn't really about today, but since I was last on here I dropped 60lbs, which helped keeping it in check, a lot. I am slipping a little now, but I am keeping everything under control. My pdoc switched to another clinic, so I am waiting to hear about my new one, and I'm almost on the top of the EMDR list! So crap and Yay!

Super congratulations! You kicked butt with the weight loss. It is wonderful how many steps you took to improve your health, physical and psychological.

At my very heaviest ever, on not so friendly bipolar medications, I, too, sought help from a dietitian. I specifically asked for that professional help because my triglycerides and cholesterol were through the roof, and I had become pre-diabetic. I was also put on a somewhat low carb diet of 60 g net (not total) carbohydrates and a reasonable fat allowance, but not one that allowed lard sandwiches. I lost 40 lbs in six months on that diet and normalized all of my blood work. I retained the loss for a few years, and in the past 8 years since I have never reached that highest weight. I have gained, because of medication changes, but I am taking charge now, too. My current diet is just on my own, but I bring to it the knowledge I gained from my time with the dietitian. I allow myself some more carbs, but am still keeping them in check.

Lithium was weight neutral for me, too. I take Seroquel XR and though at higher doses it's a challenge, at doses of 500 mg and below I can lose weight on a diet. At my current dose of 500 mg, my appetite is reasonable enough that dieting isn't that big of a struggle. Being stable (or mostly) is important for me, too.

Unlike you, I have not added a significant exercise program into my life. My energy levels have increased, though. I would not call myself completely sedentary anymore. It feels good!

[Innerzone]

I got 7 straight hours of sleep last night(!) (Have been waking up in the middle of the night nearly every night. Sometimes finally getting back to sleep hours later, sometimes not at all).

I have unfortunately been off of work because, you guessed it, I had a return of pinkeye Sunday, and the boss insisted I take off out of fear others might catch it. I am VERY fastidious and therefore no one in my house or former job caught it, but there ya have it. I had an appt. with a PA, who was quite thorough (the others were not at all), followed by an appt. with an opthamologist who is taking a different approach. It seems to be clearing nicely, so hopefully I can go back to work tomorrow. Fingers crossed.

Have had a bit of trouble motivating lately. And getting out of bed. Not terrible though. Had a med increase recently, so that's probably helping keep a lid on it.

Originally Posted by Innerzone

I got 7 straight hours of sleep last night(!) (Have been waking up in the middle of the night nearly every night. Sometimes finally getting back to sleep hours later, sometimes not at all).

I have unfortunately been off of work because, you guessed it, I had a return of pinkeye Sunday, and the boss insisted I take off out of fear others might catch it. I am VERY fastidious and therefore no one in my house or former job caught it, but there ya have it. I had an appt. with a PA, who was quite thorough (the others were not at all), followed by an appt. with an opthamologist who is taking a different approach. It seems to be clearing nicely, so hopefully I can go back to work tomorrow. Fingers crossed.

Have had a bit of trouble motivating lately. And getting out of bed. Not terrible though. Had a med increase recently, so that's probably helping keep a lid on it.

That's great your pink eye is clearing nicely! Hopefully it doesn't return again. Sounds like a never-ending nightmare.

Good luck with work. Hopefully you can get back soon.

Originally Posted by ~Christina

The ptsd will always be a part of my life and I’ll just have to roll with it and try to avoid movies that have guns in them , yeah that honestly is very hard to do nowadays .... I am so furious that I brought a friend from PC into my home and her actions will cause me pure hell at times the rest of my life.

My T and I talked it out.... So I feel back on firmer ground again ... well until the next time.

Things could always be worse.

Sorry to hear that, Christina.

I hope you're feeling better today.

Originally Posted by sadveiledbride

Feeling very irritated and depressive. I got around 4 or 5 hours of sleep today. Wishing I could sleep more but am trying not to delude myself for not being able to. Angry about an appointment I have tomorrow. Angry and disappointed with myself.

Hopefully the appointment isn't too bad for you. Sorry to hear you're not doing so well.

Try not to be so hard on yourself. Maybe reward yourself with something nice, even if it's something like going out for ice cream.

Originally Posted by Wander

I emailed my pdoc yesterday to try and get my appointment moved sooner as it was in a months time. My T urged me to do this. After explaining the rage I’m feeling and how I am at breaking point my pdoc got his team to call me within a few hours. I now have an appointment for tomorrow. I am so thankful he was able to squeeze me in so soon. I really don’t want to go IP again.

How are you feeling today?

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

Tired beyond tired today. Feeling cold so had to put on socks and sweater. We keep our thermostat at 75F and lose cold air from lack of good insulation. A bit down as I was feeling more like myself yesterday. I know the improvement is expected to be gradual, but when you backpedal, it is depessing

How do you feel this morning?

Sorry you're backpedaling. I hope things get better soon for you.

[Daonnachd]

Hey, all.
I met with my T yesterday. We talked alot about other job options for me as 12 hours/week isn't earning us enough money. The challenge is not only do I have to be able to take time off every month for ECT treatments, those treatments make it very difficult to learn new things. I have no confidence I can take on a new, full-time job. This has me stressed and a bit down. ... I don't want to go on too long though, so I'll stop there.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

Hey, all.
I met with my T yesterday. We talked alot about other job options for me as 12 hours/week isn't earning us enough money. The challenge is not only do I have to be able to take time off every month for ECT treatments, those treatments make it very difficult to learn new things. I have no confidence I can take on a new, full-time job. This has me stressed and a bit down. ... I don't want to go on too long though, so I'll stop there.

Thinking of you and wishing you luck in scoping out job opportunities that are good fits for you.

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

Hey, all.
I met with my T yesterday. We talked alot about other job options for me as 12 hours/week isn't earning us enough money. The challenge is not only do I have to be able to take time off every month for ECT treatments, those treatments make it very difficult to learn new things. I have no confidence I can take on a new, full-time job. This has me stressed and a bit down. ...I don't want to go on too long though, so I'll stop there.

What about a stocking job at a place like Target or Wal-Mart where you work out back? I could be wrong, but I don't think you'd need to learn many new things with stocking shelves (and I mean that in a sincere way). It seems like you'd probably get told which shelf to put the things in, and you likely wouldn't have to interact with customers if you're always in the backroom helping with shipments. Then you don't have to worry about customers asking where things are (since I know ECT messes with memory). Just a thought.

[Miss Laura]

I saw my therapist today I felt good then I got home and I have felt miserable since then. I'm weepy. I'm itching to talk to people but no-one is around. Really down. We didn't even speak about anything hard too. Confused so am I

[fern46]

I'm feeling so uplifted today. My brother is fighting cancer and he just shared with me a wonderful moment of his battle that has humbled him. He is on vacation this week and his friends got together and offered their time to work on his house. They pressure washed his fence and driveway, cut the grass, trimmed all of their trees and bushes, laid down new mulch and cleaned the whole house. It was a ton of work and they stepped up for him while he is feeling too sick to do it. They are all amazing and I'm truly grateful for their service.

[Nammu]

My daughter lost her SSDI. She's in the middle of going back to school and can't handle school and job both, the stress is too much. She also has two kids, one is almost 2 and the other starts first grade in the fall. I feel helpless cause there's nothing I can do to help. Aside from babysitting. She's on the same medicine I'm on, Latuda, worked miracles for both of us. This sucks.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Nammu

My daughter lost her SSDI. She's in the middle of going back to school and can't handle school and job both, the stress is too much. She also has two kids, one is almost 2 and the other starts first grade in the fall. I feel helpless cause there's nothing I can do to help. Aside from babysitting. She's on the same medicine I'm on, Latuda, worked miracles for both of us. This sucks.

Oh no! I know how bad that is. Your daughter and her children are in my thoughts and prayers as are you.

[Sunflower123]

Starting to come out of the deep depression I always get when coming home from a vacation. Experienced moments of levity today and I’m finally moving around. Hallelujah! I had been sleeping 14-16 hours a day and living on a can of soup a day. This was a tough one. Why not just skip vacation you ask? I ask myself that same question every year as well. I get anxiety and panic attacks before and depression after. Doesn’t seem worth it but somehow it is. I need to plan for these things.

Floating in the pool today in the sunshine helped a lot. I still might ask for an AD when I see my NP in a week and a half.

Warm wishes and hugs to all.

[Pookyl]

I feel really out of sorts today. Dunno why which makes it hard for me to fix.

[Moose72]

I have to get my youngest from work in an hour but Id rather lay here and fall asleep. Oh well- he cant stay all night there so off I must go.