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#921
So I texted my friend over the course of several days 3 short messages about 3 things I got upset about. First she made last minute plans to see her friend, while we already were out together and had plans for same time in the afternoon she decided to see her friend (and dump me).
Second she suggested we go to the mall instead of the park, when she also loves to be outdoors on the days it is nice to do so. She did this to save time so she could go see her friend when she agreed to. and 3rd when i texted her the that I felt she had treated me unfairly she quickly apologized in one sentence and then immediately moved on to explaining what she had discussed with her friend she dumped me to see. It's like she doesn't even realize how insulting that is. Then she texts me back that she doesn't know how to respond to 'all this' and she apologizes again without acknowledging, that she hurt my feelings or trying to reassure me she actually cares about my feelings. The truth of the matter is I don't think she cares about my feelings at all. Not a bit. She never did. She is a fake friend. __________________ BP 1 with psychotic features 50 mg Lyrica 50 mcg Synthroid 2.5 mg olanzapine Last edited by tecomsin; Jun 24, 2019 at 07:00 PM.. |
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#923
That really sucks tecomsin. I hate people like that, you deserve better. I'd rather have no friends than fake ones. Good for you for standing up for yourself and not letting her treat you like that.
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#924
I feel like absolute ****. What better thing to do than complain on the internet, right? I feel so alone.
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#925
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#926
I was hoping to go for another long walk with my youngest today. (It ended up pouringwhen we wouldve been walking so Im glad we didnt get caught in it.) I did take him to his piano lesson this afternoon and sat and listened for 45 minutes. Its always refreshing. Sometimes I read during and sometimes I send recordings through fb messenger to my mom. I feel comfortably dozey right now- have background music playing.
To WC, I'm so sorry. You are in my thoughts and prayers. __________________ Wellbutrin XL 300 mg Loxapine 50mg Ingrezza 80 mg Ativan .5 mg 2x/day Propranolol 20 mg 2x/day Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) Mania (April/May 2019) |
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#927
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"I'm sorry. I've already said I'm sorry. I don't know what else to say, and then changes the subject. Do you think it is possible she doesn't understand how to acknowledge someone else's feelings or it is more likely this lack of caring and concern is really about how she feels about me in particular? __________________ BP 1 with psychotic features 50 mg Lyrica 50 mcg Synthroid 2.5 mg olanzapine |
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#928
I am agitated/antzy.
not good. bizi I hope I can sleep tonight..... __________________ 150mg of lamictal 2x a day haldol 5mg 2x a day 1mg of cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, 4-5 peri-colace for chronic constipation multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine at noon PRN Remeron 15mg at night, zyprexa10mg under tongue, requip2mg. |
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Location: Toronto, Canada
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#929
My family and I released into a river the ashes of a relative that passed away last January. We're allowed to do that where I live and we did it after much research into the place and how we did it.
As I saw the ashes flowing away I thought that's what it all comes down to in the end... some ashes in the water. It inspired me to do something with my life. I raised a family and made a future for them, wrote some books, helped some people. I hope to do some more with the time I have left (hopefully it's a long time). I'm feeling a very little better. Still not at my baseline but not as depressed as before. I'm a week into an increased dose of Wellbutrin. I'm so quiet now. I used to make jokes and talk about a variety of things. Now I just prefer to listen and say very little, if anything at all. It gets awkward in social situations or at work. I've just gotten used to that awkward feeling. I know it's the depression causing this. I hope it gets better soon. I'm thinking of you WC! __________________ * Dx: Unspecified Bipolar and Related Disorder * Rx: Remeron, Prozac, Klonopin, Vraylar My avatar picture is a photo of the Whirlpool Galaxy I took in April 2023. I dedicated this photo to my sister who passed away in July 2016. |
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Location: Australia
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#930
I’ve been avoiding PC due to being very easily irritated. But thought I’d pop in quickly.
WC, I’m so sorry to read of your circumstances. Sending many hugs your way. I agree with the person that suggested you take your computer to the police. The reason is that it may not be as simple as your husband wanting to hurt you. A forensic examination may reveal what if anything your H may have tried to hide (that he suddenly felt he had to wipe the computer). A forensic exam should recover your photos. My hubby works in IT and has had to over the years conduct many computer forensic examinations. Without fail everyone who tried to wipe their computers clean were hiding something. __________________ Pookyl ———————————————————————————— BP1, GAD, Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, Claustrophobia Psych meds: Saphris, Seroquel XR, regular Seroquel. PRN Diazepam and Zopiclone |
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#931
WC , I just can’t imagine being with him for so long he is doing ALL of this bullshyt right and left and it seems to only get worse by the day. He’s so angry because he got caught and she didn’t leave her husband. Booohoo. He’s just a horrible nasty monster. I am so sorry you are having to go through even a day of this let alone 4 weeks and likely will continue for God knows how long
Tecomsin. I think your “ friend” is just wrapped up in her own lol world that she just can’t see or honestly just not care how she’s treating you. I would also be very upset with her. A break sounds like the best thing you can do for yourself. Has your hip improved any? __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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#932
Saw my Rheumatologist today for a followup , last blood work showed a slight increase in my liver function nothing huge but enough to address. He said my cholesterol Med “ can possibly cause it” although it’s a rare side effect.
My routine lab work from GP has never been a problem. Just another thing to worry about. Sigh My joint pain has been much worse last 3 weeks. I also have two areas of psoriasis pop up and my inflammation blood levels are increased. Might be that Enbrel is pooping out on me. Possibly need to switch to a new Biologic, something I’m not thrilled about. We found a free Treadmill on Marketplace today so we picked it up tonight. It’s on the deck it needs a really deep cleaning. The people that had it had a very dirty looking house the bit that I saw and omg the smell. How do people live like that ?????? I know I’m OCD about cleaning but damnnnn I realize today my husband and I go through 6-7 gallons of water every 3 days. I have a Britta filter jug. So I’m “ making water” again. Hugs and cookies to anyone that wants or needs it. __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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#933
Feeling really ****** at the moment. I want to
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#934
I'm still okay, the weather is nice so I'm enjoying it while I can. Been thinking a lot about my future...
I have a special indication that allows me to work at places with adjustments, but no one wants me/they won't hire because my education is too high. Should I start something for myself? Should I just buy and resell things online? I need to do something with my life because I don't want to stay a house-husband... I just wish things were like they were before, when I didn't have to be so careful and that my brain wasn't Swiss cheese now. Meh, just thinking about things. __________________ Diagnosis: Bipolar Disorder II Anxiety Disorder OCD Meds: Lithium Lamictal Seroquel Zaprexa Oxazepam Lots of misc that I wont list, but feel free to ask about above |
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#935
I finally slept!
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Magnate
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#936
Hi Christina,
Thanks for asking about my hip. It is much, much better and I am almost as good as before except I stopped doing my physio that I really should keep up. My mental health is not so good but my sleep has been fine. I wanted to share her reply when i texted her how hurt I was about what she did. She never addresses my hurt and immediately changes the subject to why she dumped me to go see her friend, instead, in the middle of our outing together. Quote:
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#937
My mood is only so-so today. I'm not depressed, or even sad, but more the feeling one gets when something really nice ends and you're back to a hum drum situation. My psychiatrist will be away for six weeks. All of our projects relating to our deck and gardens are complete. I would perhaps just be enjoying them right now, but the sky is gray. I brought up a rather triggering topic with my psychiatrist yesterday. All he said in the end was to talk about it with my therapist. He is right, but...I don't know. I do like my therapist, but I guess she's been saying some things I'd rather not hear, lately. Perhaps it is what I should hear, though.
I'm still doing well with my diet. I actually feel and look like I've lost some weight. Given this, I'm hoping/expecting that this week's weight loss amount should be very good. The two weeks before I lost almost 5 pounds. Let's say, as an example, that I have lost 3 or more pounds this week. If that is the case, I think that after losing eight pounds one might feel/see a difference. Eight pounds would be almost one quarter of the grand total I want to lose. I'm sure that my weekly weight loss amounts will start decreasing soon, unless I start adding even more exercise. My husband (also on the diet) said his belt fits one notch smaller. Ditto for me, but where I feel/see the biggest reduction in size is in my thighs and bosom. It would be really great to be able to fit into the next size smaller. Almost all of my clothes are the next size smaller. I haven't worn my wedding band for some years now. If I can reach my final weight goal, it should hopefully fit again. I'm not aiming to be the weight I was when I got married. I think that's unnecessary. |
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#938
Just laying on my bed feeling refreshed an relaxed after a shower. I walked 4 miles straight today with N3 (minus 2 5 minute breaks). I got up at 630. Wonderful to be up and out in the cool morning air! (So much better than sleeping till noon. Meh)
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#939
We’re all moved in! It’s been so nice relaxing in my own house. I went food shopping yesterday and bought enough for an army! Lots of meats and deli meat and stuff for breakfast so we don’t have to keep buying food out. I spent $150 at the discount grocery store! So you know I got a lot! Now the only problem is that we have nowhere to store pantry items because we don’t have a lot of cabinet space in the kitchen. We’re going to buy cabinets or shelves that we can put in the third bedroom (which we’re using more for storage) so I can get all the food out of bags and boxes. I’m trying to organize so our place isn’t cluttered like my moms. That’s what I hated so much about my mom’s house, the awful clutter and the mess no matter how much I tried to clean. I can keep this place as clean as I want to. I’ve been doing the dishes every night (nice that we have a dishwasher) and I plan on using Saturday and/or sundays as my sweep up, vacuum, etcetera day. Just have to get some cleaning supplies! I’m so so happy that I have my own place and that it’s with the second love of my life!
My brother finally got back to me too. Turns out he doesn’t want to come to our party because he and his wife have developed a drinking problem and don’t want to be around people who might be drinking. I knew they drank a lot and in my opinion it was too much because they would get blackout drunk and fight with each other. So I’m glad they’ve finally admitted it. I’m more than happy to have them over by themselves because I hardly drink at all anymore. I’m just happy he was honest with me and didn’t brush me off. I feel a lot better now knowing that it’s not me he was upset with. Last day of school was today! I snuck out early lol. Now I have two weeks off until ESY starts. I never heard back from my old job so I guess they’re not interested in rehiring me. Not surprised, I told them I was leaving because of mental health issues like an idiot. Why I said that I’ll never know. Of course they wouldn’t want to rehire someone with mental health issues. Oh well. When I get my special ed certification there are more private schools in the area I can apply to. So overall I’m happy! Things are going well. I’m so glad! Last April I was in the hospital, and now I’m living with my love and my son in our own little house and I haven’t had a serious incident since last April. I love my life! __________________ Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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#940
Doing well today. Spent the day up until now floating in the pool with M. It was really nice. She’s gone to work now so I’ll start unpacking and straightening the house. Just didn’t have the motivation before.
Today is the first day I’ve felt like myself since 12/31/18 when mom had her accident and I went into crisis management mode. I think I can start on the goals I had for 1/1 now. I’ve decompressed and caught up on my sleep etc. Feels good. Warm wishes and hugs to all. |
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