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SUPERMAN
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#941
I'm doing the best I can fighting anxiety.
I hope the big D doesn't show up. Cheers. __________________ ]Roses are red. Violets are blue.[ Look for the positive in the negative. PIRILON. If lemons fall from the sky, make lemonade. Unknown. Nothing stronger than habit. Victor Hugo. You are the slave of what you say, and the master of what you keep. Unknown. |
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#942
I am okay today I guess, sort of sad and worried. Not much happening tonight.
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Member Since May 2010
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#943
So nice to see the sun after what feels like months of overcast skies and rain. Sat outside as long as I could without suntan lotion.
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#944
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Just before this all had started (the remote accessing of the computer, etc.,) I had discovered a lot of files hidden in the C:drive, labeled "Backup files" and in a vault. I played with passwords until it opened the "vault." I was shocked to find so many files there, labelled "documents." definitely not all documents, as many had ".mov" suffixes. Those are movies/videos. The vault not only was locked, it gave notification that someone had accessed those files (me). Almost immediately, the files were moved,/deleted. I could not believe it! I went back out and back into the same location and something entirely differently was there ( a very different visual... with all files folders emptied.) what does anyone want to hide so much, esp when videos/movies are involved? I think we can all make a good guess, sadly. I have found other "vaults" and have been able to unlock the ones I have found. I cannot always open the files easily... or at all. Some were pictures and video files in a vault in places like: RealPlayer, etc. All of the contents of any media program were taken and/or wiped out. Some videos. quite a few were previously deleted from media player, Windows picture gallery and RealPlayer. There were also vaults at 2 of these locations. There is alot more to this; yet, it all gets tedious... I'll save anyone from reading it all. All computer backup sets were also removed or deleted. The person had the password to the backup sets. Only two people had that password. I was one of them. All picture, movie/videos and document files are gone. I saw some of the deleted files as they were being deleted.. That was the first action taken remotely an d I was watching it, wondering what was going on?. The file names came onto my screen for some reason? They were from the hidden vault in the C drive. Some had live links in them. I had filmed the files as they came onto my screen. I filmed those with live links, while I opened the links. I am not yet at liberty to reveal the contents. I am shocked... repulsed and deeply saddened. I guess we never really know the possible '"complexities" of our seemingly best friend(s)? I had no idea. Someone has still been trying to access the computer. The battery is out, so someone cannot turn it on remotely. If I plug it in for even 3 minutes, it is being "pinged" at least twice a minute... when it is not even connected to the internet.! It is being accessed from a cloud, it seems. I have changed the password on the security and have reinstalled it just to have even a few minutes of security if/when anyone turns the computer on. Even so, someone keeps trying to access my security password. The security company keeps notifying me of this. Whomever is doing this has my email address, as the only mistake they are making is not knowing the new password. Each attempt generates a notice to my email acct. Anyway.. it has been quite a mystery. Much of it has been found out, but there IS more. Only the C drive is left at this point and someone still wants to access the computer. As you have noted, the C drive holds a lot of info. The other interesting note: Whomever was involved was loading the pics, videos, files into a hard drive. This is clear from the security reports. So someone wants to keep all of the files. Hmmm... I wonder who is that interested in deleting the files from the computer and then wants to keep/store the various types of files? Who is interested in deleting all backup sets? The authorities have mentioned they may want the computer, the C drive. The investigation moves forward with each passing day. There is much more. So this is what has had my attention lately. Sadly. Sorry for the long rant. It has been very tough. I did not, however, disclose anything that was not made public info just today. VERY STRESSFUL. VERY SAD. Thanks for reading. Thanks for your support, everyone. You all mean lot to me. __________________ May we each fully claim the courage to live from our hearts, to allow Love, Faith and Hope to enLighten our paths. Last edited by Wild Coyote; Jun 25, 2019 at 04:50 PM.. |
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Yes, I have made MANY discoveries since asking him to leave. I am shocked. Yes, he has been making me out to be quite the B**ch! I am sure he does not like some of the things I have found out. I have shared a few of these things with him. He gets very irrate and belligerent. He says he thinks someone is out to get him,is trying to set him up? I cannot imagine anyone having cause to do such a thing. If so,someone is making an extremely concerted effort to do so and has been at it for years. He says he thinks someone else has accessed the computer in question and has hidden the files which Ii have found were hidden. I remind him his password was the password that unlocked the vault of files. Hmmmm... Time will tell. Thanks again. __________________ May we each fully claim the courage to live from our hearts, to allow Love, Faith and Hope to enLighten our paths. |
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#946
Thinking of you WC and praying for you to have the strength to make it through this nightmare.
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#947
WC, keeping you in my thoughts
T says I am looking well even if I did only put on makeup because I was going to therapy, at least I did it. Not surprisingly, we worked on positive affirmations and coping with anxiety today. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, , propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, omeperazole I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: two roads diverged in a wood, and I - I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference. --Robert Frost |
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#948
Thinking of you WC!!
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#949
WC, I’m glad the authorities are involved with this and I hope there’ll be justice for his actions. So sorry you’re going through this though. Prayers and good vibes for you.
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Oh bugger. WC I really was hoping that I was wrong and just being paranoid. I don’t know what to say except let him know as little as possible about what you’re up to.
Christina, I haven’t restarted the Epilim. I was due for Lithium levels this morning. I’m hoping that they’re low. I’d rather increase my Lithium than take Epilim. If it’s not possible to increase my Lithium I’ll get back on the Epilim. __________________ Pookyl ———————————————————————————— BP1, GAD, Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, Claustrophobia Psych meds: Saphris, Seroquel XR, regular Seroquel. PRN Diazepam and Zopiclone |
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#951
WC, wow, I really don't know what to say, but this sounds like a horrible situation. I hope you have support from others in your life, and we are here for you, too.
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#952
WC- my thoughts are with you!
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#953
WC, I hope this all gets sorted quickly and easily for you.
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I’m glad your hip has improved so much. Yeah you friend... I would have be pissed with her response. There are many ways to apologize and sometimes a “ I’m sorry” just isn’t enough. Her “ sorry “ then rambling into her work excuse talk is just bullshyt. Had she really acknowledged that she hurt your feelings and how in the future she would be more considerate. That’s an actual apology. Shame on her for treating you this way, you deserve much better. __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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#955
WC , my heart breaks daily for you. I’m glad that things are being investigated further.
It likely he had a lot to hide unfortunately. I hope whatever it is causes him massive problems. He threw you into a tail spin months ago. I’m glad that you were finally able to break out of the fog and disassociation he was causing so you now have a clear mind to handle all this. You are such an unbelievably strong person ! Don’t forget that. Much love as always __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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#956
I am so sorry Wild Coyote about what you are going through; we are all here for you.
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She is not gaslighting me claiming we never had plans to go to the park after lunch and the like but it feels like a fake apology and she is just doing it because she feels for some reason she has to rather than any heartfelt remorse or sorrow for how she hurt me. My pdoc said she sounded like someone totally consumed with herself. __________________ BP 1 with psychotic features 50 mg Lyrica 50 mcg Synthroid 2.5 mg olanzapine |
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#958
I feel the worst I have in a long time. I have no hope.
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Grand Magnate
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#959
What a horrible place to be in. Do you have anyone to reach out to, professional or otherwise? It may sound really lame but sometimes the best we can do is stay alive and wait for hope to return. Hang in there and keep posting.
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#960
WC, I haven’t yet taken the time to say how horrified I am at hearing what you are going through. You are a strong, beautiful soul. We are all on your side. Keep posting and I hope you have more than enough support during this time.
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