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Default May 09, 2019 at 03:49 PM
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The thread about psychiatrist numbers sort of inspired me to post this. I thought it would be interesting to see peoples' timelines of mental health treatment. I'm referring specifically to ages/periods when you received formal mental health treatment (any type of mental health issue). I'm sure most of us have had issues at times we didn't receive treatment. I'd exclude those and just focus on your treatment timeline. Here's mine as an example:

* 14 years old - General practitioner (anxiety - Buspar - took for a week or so - saw him once)

* 15 years old - Child therapist - saw him two or three times - traumatic breakdown

* 20 years old - University psychiatrist (probably mixed, but dude prescribed Prozac - took for a few days) - saw him once

* 24 years old - Hospital in Taiwan, but no stay (severe depression - unknown medications - took for about a week) - saw him once

* 25?, 28?, 30?, 32 - General practitioner (anxiety/mixed - various antidepressants - took for a few days to a week or so) - saw same gp all four times, but the fourth time he referred me to a psychiatrist (see below).

* 32 - Psychiatrist (initially Lexapro with group therapy - about 4 weeks - then diagnosed bipolar disorder because of hypomania and quit on that day.)

* 34 - Psychiatrist above (1st hospitalization/alcohol detox - full mania w/mixed features)

* 34 to 38 - Various psych hospitalizations, IOPs/PHPs, private psychiatrists and therapists (mostly manias or manias w/mixed features and psychosis - bipolar medications - mostly complaint, one series of ECT for severe depression towards end)

* 38 to present - My current psychiatrist (various bipolar medications, most the same I'm on now - manias, hypomanias, mixed, depressions, anxiety issues, but quelled quickly to avoid hospitalizations). Various therapists.

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Default May 09, 2019 at 05:31 PM
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My psych care started when I was 14. I started self harming in eighth grade and my mom found out and took me to the hospital. From 14-16 I was in the hospital six times, in the state hospital for three months, and in a residential program for six month. The. I moved to a new school for kids with behavioral and emotional problems and I did much better. I even stopped my medication and therapy. I still self harmed though. But sometimes I could go three months without it whereas previously it had been multiple times a day.

I refer to 2005-2006 as my lost year. After I graduated high school I fell into a deep depression over the summer. I started self harming more often. I went to college in the fall and lived on campus but I couldn’t hack it. I went to a counselor on campus but I did something stupid and she put me in the hospital. That’s where I got my first bp dx and ended up going into basically a year long mixed episode. I was in the hospital seven times in ten months. Any time out of the hospital was spent in a PHP program. It all culminated in a serious suicide attempt and my first round of ect treatments. Ect pulled me out of the severe depression I was in and gave me my life back. I also met my husband at this time. I spent another six months in a PHP program that helped me deal with the trauma of losing my dad and I was on my way. I was convinced I didn’t have bipolar.

All was well for six years. I finished college, got married, had my son. I had occasional episodes but didn’t recognize them for what they were. I was off medication and out of therapy. It was nice.

At 25 I started experiencing more intense and longer depressions and more intense and clear cut hypomanias. I remembered what the doctor had said, that I had bipolar. I started looking for information and realized it sounded a lot like me. I joined this site around that time (hence the 25 in my username). Then all hell broke loose for the next three years. Depression, hypomania, mixed, psychosis. Seven more hospitalizations. Another round of ECT. Self harming, suicidal behavior, etc. on top of this my husband developed a drug problem.

I was finally getting stable when my husband suddenly died of a drug overdose. I ended up in the hospital one week after that after a serious self harm incident but after that I knew I had to get my life together for my son. He couldn’t be left with no parents. So I tried very hard to find meds that worked. Went through another round of ECT but I managed to stay out of the hospital for two and a half years. I was finally stable on a combo of invega sustenna and emsam.

Then I had to go off the invega two years ago because it messed up my hormones and caused me to gain 75lbs in the matter of one year. All hell broke loose again. I was tried on latuda but it gave me insufferable anxiety and sent me mixed. Then I took a job I knew wouldn’t be good for me but it was more money so I decided I needed it. It was horrible. By October I was severely depressed. By November I was psychotic. I recovered a little by going out on fmla but when I went back to work it got bad again. I remember being extremely paranoid. I thought people would poison my food, I though my school was tracking me through my key card and the cameras, I thought police were following me and were going to detain me thinking I was high, and I felt like I was going to be attacked at any moment. I was also gloriously hypomanic. And then I crashed. I started mixing medications and taking too much. Finally my therapist sent me to the hospital. I was started on lamictal, depakote, and haldol. And finally, finally I was stable.

I’ve heen stable for over a year now and it’s a magical feeling.

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wildchildflower25, thank you for being willing to share about such rough years. I'm very glad to read that you have been stable for over a year now, and feel good again. You are a strong person!
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Default May 09, 2019 at 05:45 PM
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- 24 years old went to GP with depression. Diagnosed as clinically depressed with insomnia

- Saw a counsellor through work

- 25 years old diagnosed with Bipolar type 1

- Between 25 and 33 diagnosed with anxiety and ocd tendencies

- 30 and 31 saw a Psychologist short lived both times

- 33 saw a therapist currently still seeing

- 34 still currently fighting it
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It is difficult to remember but I'll try...

1988- age 16: Felt "off" somehow. Parents sent me to a psychiatrist who diagnosed me with nothing but being a "normal teenager". My thoughts felt off some how. I'd hear voices talking to me in the night. I thought it was my sister but I'd check and she was always asleep in her room.

1997- Age 25: While pregnant with my first child, I was diagnosed with depression. I was filled with anxiety at times. Prescribed Zoloft.

2000- Age 27: One day I was in the bathroom and looked out the . in the sky were orange rectangles. I'd look away but they were always thete. I thought they were alien spaceships. I called my husband in to look but he said there wasn't anything unusual in the sky.

2001- Age 29: After I had my third child, I was seeing a psychiatrist who diagnosed me with post-partum depression. I
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2005- age 33: Was walking my youngest into preschool one day, when I saw
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After I dropped my son off, I called my psychiatrist: she said not to go anywhere. So I sat in my car. Somewhere in there I was put on Celexa (as opposed to the zoloft I got in 2000). I drove myself to Wendy's and went in. I couldn't figure out what they did there. I stared at the menu but had no idea what it said. I asked myself what they did there but I really had zero idea. I called my pdoc who freaked out and told me I shouldnt have driven.

2005: I wandered around the neighborhood: everything was ultra real. The smells, sights and sounds.... Somehow I relayed this derealization to my primary who sent me to another MD - he diagnosed me with premenstrual dysphoric disorder.

2005: I was sent to a psychiatrist. I was diagnosed after a bit with "Bipolar NOS" and put on Depakote. I gained 50 pounds. Previously I was a regular judo player and very fit.

I changed pdocs somewhere in there and at the psych emergency services was put on zyprexa. I was diagnosed with "Bipolar 1". I've had various pdocs since then. And many bouts with psychosis and mania and a bit of depression.

Somewhere in there I met my current pdoc and moved clinics. I've gone through so many antipsychotics its not even funny. Mood stabilizers too. Pdocs have toyed with the idea of schizoaffective disorder but it goes back and forth. Still hallucinate a lot. I just got out of my worst Manicepisode a few weeks ago. (May, 2019).

Oh and not to forget the 4 or so times since 2012 that Ive been hospitalized in a psych hospital for up to 10 days each. These include once in about 2014 when I
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Default May 09, 2019 at 06:54 PM
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38 years old, Nov 2018. First episode. Hospitalized for psychosis. Diagnosed as bipolar. Started on Risperdal 2mg

Saw new psychiatrist at IOP, diagnosed as bipolar with psychotic features. Dropped Risperdal down to 1mg and placed on 20mg Geodon

March 2019 - started private visits with psychiatrist. Dropped Risperdal to .5mg. Kept Geodon at 20mg

April 2019 - Dropped Risperdal to .25mg. Geodon at 20mg. I was told I may not be bipolar and potentially suffer from delusional disorder

May 2019 - Taken off Risperdal. Geodon 20mg. Told there is little evidence to support my bipolar diagnosis. Diagnosed with 'brief reactive psychosis' and told we need to wait longer to see if any other symptoms occur.

I've never experienced clinical depression and I've only ever had the one episode. It was mixed and complete with delusional thought, racing thoughts, psychosis, disorganized speech, anger and rage. My doctors don't really quite know what to make of it all yet, so it is a waiting game. My mother was diagnosed as bipolar after a psychotic episode, but she has never been depressed either. She has been stable for 15 years since her episode. I dont know what to think anymore. If it isn't bipolar, what caused my extreme break with reality?
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I was 8 when I developed anorexia. 11 when I started self harming. By 13-16 I was in therapy through the school. It didn’t help because I said nothing. It was hard to get a hi from me. My sister dx with bipolar when I was 13. I quit school at 17 and went to a GED program. I went off to college went manic, ment my husband, and plummeted into a deep depression. Went through swings and psychosis until I was 22ish. With an ultimatum from my husband I went to GP got dx’d with depression. Took meds went psychotic and went off. A while later had a new GP while hypomanic and got prescribed depakote. I became deeply depressed and got referred to a pdoc. That pdoc put me through hell. Eventually I moved. I took a med break for a little while until my paranoia got to me. I was with them for 3 years. My end dx was mood disorder nos. Then I went on a 6 month trip. I went crazy. I was on medication even then it was bad. I almost acussed my parents of trying to take my son away. I was able to find a dr when I moved here. I wasn’t able to set up a good team so I ended up in the hospital twice. I switched companies and haven’t had much success there either. So I’m taking a break. I’m paranoid but okay we’ll see.

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Default May 09, 2019 at 07:27 PM
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i was diagnosed as everything -but- severely mentally ill until recently. psychosis because of a 'severe personality disorder,' for instance. when i quit going to a condescending counselor, i was labeled as 'manipulative' with 'oppositional defiant disorder' and...and....

i got sick and tired of it, so did my parents. i ended up pursuing legal action. toyed with antipsychiatry, but...voices and such kept me from staying out of psychiatric 'treatment.' records contain inaccuracies, straight up lies. over-billing, insurance fraud. now, i get better treatment at a community clinic than i did with private practice people...and my label/diagnosis/best they can come up with is some form of schizoaffective.
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Default May 10, 2019 at 01:47 PM
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All of this time wasnt treated

Age 8: Panic attacks. Would wake up in the middle of the night thinking I was dying, hyperventilating, and praying asking the gods to please let me live a little longer. Scary stuff.

Age 12: First major depressive episode. Suicidal. Made plans. Made many plans. Making plans was what helped me get through it, knowing I had an out. I really wish I had told someone about this but I was too scared and confused. Started self harming (rarely)

Age 15: First hallucination. It was a cat. We were on vacation. I remember looking around the entire condo we rented for this black cat. I thought it was real! Of course I did! It was my first hallucination I didnt know what I was dealing with!

Age 15: Got depressed again. Suicidal but... not as severely. Not as strongly. I think being older helped me a bit here. I dunno though. It was just less severe than the episode I had at 12. Less unrelenting.

Age 18: First hypomanic/manic episode. Made all As this year with no struggle. And by all As I mean- every grade was over 100%. Before I was lazy. Not this year though. I had so much energy on and off this year and it was great

Age 19: Stress and anxiety starting college. Went and talked to someone but they said I was fine. I guess Im good at coming across as doing better than I am. Its been both a gift and a curse in some ways.

All this time WAS treated

Age 20: Got really depressed again. Another episode. Suicidal. Got to the point where I was scared that if I didnt do something about it I wouldnt be able to stop myself from hurting myself in some way. Went to on campus mental health clinic. Saw therapist and had first psychiatric visit. Was diagnosed with depression, anxiety, and ADD and given antidepressants and stimulants.

Age 20-21: Struggled. Struggled a lot. Was on antidepressants but they made things WORSE. Felt constantly like I wanted to rip my own skin off. Had panic attacks frequently. I honestly... dont really know what was going on with my mind this year. Dysphoric mania? Rapid cycling? I dunno. But it was bad. To the point where I was curling up into balls in the sides of rooms, in the fetal position, just to protect myself from and minimize the pain. Was eventually put on antipsychotic just to... calm things down a bit. It started helping but it was a very low dose.

Also age 20-21 (lots happened during this period): Was diagnosed with bipolar NOS or bipolar 1 with psychotic features depending on the professional. Antipsychotic was raised to therapuetic level. I started feeling better! My grades went up and I could function again! I could sleep. It was nice. It felt like I had my life back. I did better for a good while.

Age 21 (near the end of it): Self adjusted my meds. Went down on them and got very depressed. Suicidal ideation. Meds were adjusted back up next time I saw psychiatrist though.

Age 22: Pretty solid. Fairly normal for me until the end of it. Hallucinations started coming more and more frequently. What was once every month or two was now several times a week. Was scary and hard to deal with- not necessarily the hallucinations (though those WERE generally unsettling) but the fact that I didnt want what was happening to me to be true. I didnt want to be crazy. I was afraid Id just get sicker and sicker. And I did. Or at least... I allowed myself to.

Age 23: Was hallucinating but still able to ignore it or dismiss it mostly- but was frustrated with life in general so self adjusted my meds again. Started hearing voices encouraging me to continue to not take it. Stopped medication all together. Became very psychotic. Was almost hospitalized but avoided it. Worried a ton of people. Eventually, after a lot of drama really, started meds back up. Diagnosed schizoaffective.

Age 23: Now. Im trying. Im scared but Im trying to keep going despite it. I have a hard time believing my own brain in lots of different ways but... people are helping me help myself and things are ok right now. Not ideal but... well. It is what it is.

Ive seen 5 or 6 or 7 idk therapists during this time. 2 psychiatrists. More than a dozen meds trued. No hospitalizations (yay!). No phps. Not iops. Just therapy and psychiatry and a couple groups.
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I think I technically was in therapy as part of family therapy when I was quite young, maybe five or six. Probably due to my family having problems like my parents often fighting. Yet, really not sure what came of that.

At 15 I developed anorexia and ended up hospitalized. I had a pdoc and therapist inpatient who I saw a few times. I didn't want medication as my pdoc tried to insist I needed an antidepressant, but I didn't feel depressed, just like I was wrapped up in the eating disorder and it was like a compulsion. I had a therapist for maybe 3-6 months after that, but it just wasn't that helpful and in fact made me feel worse. At some point she had to have surgery and suggested it would be a good time to take a break and see how I did. I never went back. Over the next few years I slowly recovered from the eating disorder, although it was very difficult without help.

I continued to deal with depression, especially seasonally and around my period, as well as anxiety.

I went to a pdoc when I was about 26 because I felt I was having memory and attention type issues. I was put on adderall and it helped but made me irritable. I took it for maybe 4-6 months then stopped and did not go back.

When I was 30 I started seeing a therapist at my university's mental health center because my anxiety was through the roof, and I was having obsessive thoughts, and some other concerning thoughts. Prior to that I had never felt suicidal. I only got 7 sessions with her and after a couple heard about a clinical trial for depression and decided to join it because they would give me CBT or Lexapro. I stopped seeing the university therapist and did the trial. I was told I had MDD and GAD. I was randomized to Lexapro in the trail, and tried that for 6 weeks and it made me quite unwell, mixed I guess. I at least had a reaction to it. I had the CBT portion added in after 6 weeks, but they had to pull me out of the trial to try other medication. Lamictal also didn't help, and in the end I was more stable off meds. I was diagnosed bipolar unspecified, and told I also seem to have OCD. I am now just seeing a therapist and can go back to the pdoc as needed.As I mentioned recently in another post, I think I need neuropsych testing or something because of my memory issues.
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I first went to therapy at about 10 years old. I got 'upgraded' from family therapy to individual therapy after the doctor noticed something was amiss with me. I was also 2 years into being physically abused at this point. Nothing came of the therapy appointments and I didn't mention the abuse at the time because I thought it was normal.

About a year later I was skipping school a lot and I was placed with a therapist at school. He knew something was up with me but couldn't tell what it was since I wouldn't talk very much. He felt I was bottling my feelings and he was absolutely correct. Nothing came of this and I started going back to school when my parents found out and abused me for it.

After that nothing happened treatment-wise although I was depressed and suicidal throughout my teens. But I survived. The abuse stopped around when I turned 18 and was strong enough to fight for myself.

I started a family in my early 20s and when I was 32 I experienced my first panic attack. It was bad - happened while I was driving and that would become a feature for years although I was not afraid of driving.

I saw a doctor for the regularly occurring attacks and he put me on buspar for a month and sent me on my way. But the attacks kept on coming and were getting worse.

I saw another doctor and he put me on paxil and diagnosed me with generalized anxiety disorder after a massive panic attack where I blacked out because my heart was racing so fast.

I went manic with paxil but had no idea what was happening. I also saw myself from the outside looking in for weeks and just thought that this is how things were supposed to be. That badly affected my life at the time.

I ended up going from one AD to another for years and my depression was getting worse. I had manic periods too but had no idea that there was something was wrong with that.

At 42 I was referred to a psychiatrist and she too kept trying antidepressants to try to treat my depression and anxiety. I now learned about what being manic was and that it's bad and she realized something was up. A couple of years later she referred me to a university clinic where they determined that I'm bipolar. During this time I also started talk therapy.

I have been treated with mood stabalizers and antipsychotics ever since.

Things have not exactly been good but I'm somehow getting by. During all this time I raised a family and continued to work although looking back at it I probably should have been hospitalized during my more severe depressive eppisodes.

So overall it was many years before I got treated and years later when I was finally diagnosed.

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16 - saw school counsellor - depressed - did nothing (missed hypomania)
18 - saw GP - depressed - given antidepressant, took for a couple of weeks but stopped as boyfriend was worried about sexual side effects..
20-22 - saw GP - diagnosed depressed (missed hypomania), given antidepressants got worse
saw T - anxious - tried relaxation/ meditation made it worse
saw pdoc - changed antidepressants, then increased, then increased. Diagnosed MDD (missed hypomania)
23 - still depressed quit pdoc,
24 - still depressed quit meds
25 - still depressed went to a diff GP more antidepressants, first mood stabiliser, olanzapine- very sedated and didn't take for long
26 - got referred for bipolar testing at tertiary referral hospital specialising in BP - diagnosed BP2, realised had always been BP! placed on lithium tried to go off antidepressants didn't work, very depressed, suicidal and paranoid
27-28 - got an new private doc, tried seemed like a million dif meds none worked
29 - tried a dif mood stabiliser to try and get pregnant
- it worked
30-39 - a few minor mild depressions but otherwise stable mood and same mood stabiliser with antidepressant tweaks and still going strong!

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I want to give thanks to everyone who has shared their treatment timeline here. I thought it might be interesting, and it is. It's a shame to see how long it took for many of us to be properly diagnosed, at what ages people's symptoms started, the courses of people's illnesses, and in some cases, what the initial triggers were. I feel it is sad that so many of us had symptoms so early in our lives.
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10, 12–saw a school therapist, but nothing happened
17–saw a GP for fatigue. He mentioned depression but he also joked about me in the hallway before the appointment so I didn’t believe him
27—diagnosed with depression after grief wouldn’t go away, first AD
28-46–different pdocs, different ADs. Borderline PD was added
47–suffered mental breakdown during peri menopause. Anxiety was added. Neurontin was added
49ish—pdoc decided to try a mood stabilizer instead of yet another AD. Symptoms improved, finally. Given BP 1 diagnosis instead of MDD
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14-15 = First Depression, very low and suicidal. Didn't tell anyone how bad I felt.
19-20 = Got diagnosed with Depression and I didn't know what it was. Put on AD but they didn't work so I stopped them
21-23 = Did talk therapy which was pointless
23-24 = Got diagnosed with Anxiety
28-29= After talking to new doctor he said I displayed bipolar symptoms, so he referred me to a psychiatrist,
29 = Diagnosed Bipolar 2 and put on mood stabilizer and anti psychotic depakote and quetiapine. Got a CPN
30 = First hospitalization due to depression with psychosis, upped all meds and changed Depakote for Carbamezepine plus taken off Venlaxfaxine due to making me hypo-manic when they tried to increase it.
31= Second hospitalization after stopping meds after being hypo-manic which led to a bad Depression
32 = Did CBT which I waited ages for
33 = Third Hospitalization for mixed episode. But I was taken off carbamazepine which I thought didnt work good, and I was put on Lithium.
34 = So far my new meds have been the best ive been on .

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I was 14 when I started to self harm and weep every day at school. I confided in a teacher and the school contacted my mom. She freaked out. I saw my 1st pdoc who diagnosed me with clinical depression. I was out of my mind manic as soon as I started the antidepressant but at that time she just lowered my dosage. I saw therapist after therapist and none of them helped. I was mildly psychotic.

At 15, my condition worsened. My mom thought my pdoc was incompetent so we switched and I was quickly diagnosed with bipolar. I don’t remember what drugs I have taken when because there have been so many but I do remember starting on lamictal and zyprexa. That was tough because my tiny frame packed on 50 lbs in 3 months. I had a psychotic break and did and said many bizarre and horrible things. I had to drop out of school my sophomore year and finish school through a home hospital program.

At 16, I switched schools (from a performing arts high school to a tiny private school that housed many children who had various issues) but didn’t get better. I was hospitalized for the first time. My mom started me on “pig pills” which was like this Canadian witch doctor medicine (the best I can describe it) and I literally took about 16 of these HUGE, nasty tasting things. Sometimes I would have to pull over on the way to school to vomit because of them. It was terrible. I eventually stopped them. My pdoc thought it was ridiculous, I think, all along. Later that year, I did an IOP where I met the first therapist I actually connected with and he helped me tremendously. After graduating high school, I slowly recovered.

By 20, I was no longer taking meds and convinced I wasn’t actually bipolar. With the exception of a mild postpartum depression with my oldest daughter, I had no memorable episodes.

At 28, hell broke lose. I had a total break with reality and was blind sighted. I was completely and utterly out of my mind. Once I became aware of what was happening (which was unfortunately after at least 6 months of mania with at least a couple of psychosis) I sought out the same pdoc I had seen as a teen and he put me back on meds. I got pregnant with my 3rd child (5th pregnancy-2 miscarriages) shortly thereafter and he had some ideas about mixing meds with pregnancy that I wasn’t so sure about so I got a second opinion and ended up switching pdocs. I was very, very mentally ill during that pregnancy. I had to be hospitalized with ppd when my youngest was just a few weeks old. I ended up with post partum psychosis. My pdoc moved to Indiana so I went back to the former pdoc. He eventually changed my diagnosis to schizoaffective. However, I soon realized that he was heavily overmedicating me. I switched doctors again. I was very unstable for about 4-5 years between the old and new pdocs. I bounced around therapists and in and out of IOPs. I finally found my current therapist who is by far the best I’ve ever had. In the last 3 years or so I’ve had a few very bad episodes, the last at the beginning of this year when I was in IOP and missed 6 weeks of work, but with my amazing treatment team, it’s been caught quickly and usually resolved in just a few months as opposed to a few years! I’m pretty sure my current pdoc has changed my diagnosis back to bipolar 1 with psychotic features so that’s what I generally claim. I’m in a good place right now.

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Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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I honestly can’t remember that specific of a timeline.

My mental health issues started at 14 and that’s when I first went for help. I had individual and group counselling. The first med I was prescribed was celexa. It worked for a bit but we kept having to increase my dose so I went off of it.

That takes me through a few years.

Later in my teens I started taking cipralex. It worked well with my anxiety. I wasn’t seeing a therapist at this time. My doc tried me on a few other things and gave me a bipolar diagnosis. One of the first meds I tried was seroquel and it made me a zombie so it didn’t last long.

I went off meds in my mid 20s. Had my daughter at 26. Then had a downward spiral that resulted in my marriage ending. I decided to go back on meds after that. We kept trying different meds but nothing seemed to work.

At 30 I was hospitalized for the first time and ended up with a new pdoc. Meds still weren’t straightened out and he took a list of everything that I had tried and why it didn’t work. He tried a new cocktail but I ended up being hospitalized again 6 months later and then again 1 year later. This brings us to the present.

I’m 32. I see my pdoc regularly and have been seeing the same therapist for 5 years. I’m on cipralex, Geodon, Wellbutrin, zopiclone, lamictal, clonazepam, and Ativan prn. I’m on a leave from work right now because I had a breakdown. I’m going back in a month and will hopefully have my meds sorted by then.
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