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So, we’re leaving for our family vacation in just over 2 weeks. I am giddy with excitement (the ocean is my favorite place and we haven’t gone in 7 years) and staying busy looking for the best restaurants and things to do. I can almost feel myself losing control but I’m not sure if it is simply my excitement mimicking the beginning of an episode. Anyone have any experiences or words of wisdom? At what point do I give my pdoc a call?
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Here are little patterns that imply I’m “losing control”. I am obsessively staring at (fb stalking) a woman I had a crush on in high school and longing and lusting to be with her. I am a long married woman with 3 children and have no desire for infidelity. This may be the biggest red flag but I won’t admit that to my pdoc over the phone and I don’t see her until mid July. I am also though, like I mentioned, absolutely elated inside. It seems like my sleep is getting slowly shorter too and I’m more productive. What do you guys think?
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Sounds to me like the sooner you get in touch with her the better simply because you don't want to miss out on fun on vacation because you are having an episode. Call her now and hopefully she can stabilize you before you go.
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Typically our vacations are just to Florida to see our kids.. about 3 times a year. I grew up 5 mins from beaches so I have zero interest in that. A couple months ago my husband really surprised me with a trip to Savannah, I have been talking about for at least 5 years. I had gone twice back in my 20’s and just fell in love with the city....but I knew he would love the history and architecture. I was just so excited I felt a bit Hypo. It never crossed into Mania. I think being excited about a trip and especially to the ocean that you feel so connected too is just a normal response Bipolar or not. Enjoy every minute of your trip. I will say that when you get back home do keep a watch on your mood, as it can be a bit depressing just getting back to often boring routines. I had some post vacation blues after my trip. I don’t feel that way after Florida trips tho I’m very happy to get back home to my small town instead of dealing with overpopulated rude people in the huge city. Just read the bit about feeling so drawn to that woman and sleep falling off. Are you able to make some adjustments with self care to find some more balance? Increase your sleep hygiene, doing some tough cardio can certainly help burn off some excess energy. Engage with more sex with your husband to wear yourself down to lol Just really take a good look at your emotions right now. You want to have a great time so now is time to work hard so it won’t possibly ruin your vacation. __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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I would go ahead and call your doctor. Mania could ruin your trip, so if it were me I would want to have a plan in place in case the hypomania increases. I would ask for a med adjustment that I could use in case and then wait to see if it is needed. If so, you already have your meds with you. If not, you were prepared. I think that is better than doing nothing and potentially ending up IP while you are out of town. This is a special trip for your kids and husband as well, so it makes sense to do all you can to ensure it is a good time for everyone.
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Hi cashart. I can relate to excitement being a trigger for hypomania/mania. It certainly has been for me in the past, too. Any kind of stress can trigger it for me, and so often people label stress in just negative terms. Highly pleasant excitement is stress, of a sort.
I agree that it would be best to nip this by the bud asap. Can you take some kind of "as needed" medication? Or if you don't have one, I agree with others that a call to your psychiatrist is highly recommended. Mania can definitely ruin vacations. I know. Believe me! The last time my husband and I traveled to Europe I became full blown manic. It got so bad that my husband was literally crying on the plane on our way home. It is very good that you have some insight into what is happening. It is good that you realize that obsessive infatuations are symptoms of your growing manias. Wasn't it you that a while back had a major infatuation (to an extreme degree) with Rod Steward? During that period, I believe you were hypomanic or even manic. If that was you, I recall it seeming scary. I was quite concerned. Perhaps this type of symptom is a common one for you? |
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Sorry for kind of abandoning this thread. I’ve been in and out but not really logging on. BirdDancer, yes...it was me with the Rod Stewart obsession. Infatuations (that can quickly turn into obsessions) can be a red flag for me.
I thought for a few days that I was overreacting and fine but the last 2 days I haven’t slept. Last night I wrote in my head the entire autobiography I’ve been thinking about for awhile. I also planned out a new diet and exactly what foods I’d be eating when I’d be eating them and when/how I’d be exercising. It was a lot and my brain did not shut up. Part of me is thinking yahoo...I’m about to go on vacation and I’m going to be manic because the last time I went on vacation was 7 years ago this month and I was in the midst of the worst episode of mania I’ve ever had. It was also literally the MOST magnificent/majestic/supernatural/euphoric time of my life. It was the first time in my life I ever believed God was talking to me. I think, kind of slyly...if I could just have that again... But I know that’s the mania speaking and if I seriously follow that path I’ll end up hospitalized. I most certainly don’t want that. It’s not fair to me but it’ll be plain traumatizing for my kids if I’m hospitalized during a vacation or it’s cut short or both due to mania. I took a sleeping pill tonight in better judgement and if I still don’t sleep, I’ll call her tomorrow. __________________ ***** Every finger in the room is pointing at me I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now Tori Amos ~ Crucify Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder |
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Definitely call her. Do you have ZYPREXA PRN just in case?
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I would give your pdoc a call.
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This is very much sounding like mania....please call your pdoc.
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Please call right away. You don’t want to waste another vacation since you seldom get the chance.
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I agree with the others. Don't give it another day. Your mania might trick you out of calling. Just go ahead and let your doctor know what you're experiencing.
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