Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I would be a bit aggravated with the seating issue at the theater!

I've been very agitated, too. I very rarely swear. I have been swearing like a sailor for the past 3 days. I get super frustrated very quickly. I try to clean up my act if I am not alone. It's hard to do when so irritable, I find.

I hope you will have FUN today, even if it is in practicing your knife-throwing skills!

My PC friend, I think your cursing is more than justified, at this time! I don't curse that much, either. No one really cursed in my family. But I can let out a roar and a half, and am quite fluent in non-verbal gestures.

I'd never hurt anyone, physically. My bark is usually way beyond any bite. I have been violent, but only towards non-living things. Well, I did throw a wallet at my husband once in the past, when manic. He reminds me of that occasionally. I haven't thrown knives for a while. I do have a dart board in my basement. I usually win at darts.

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Hi Blue,
I hope you can enJOY the day anyway. Bought some treats on Prime Day?
Will you get your new headset today?

Catch you later!

Yeah, I got it yesterday. It's pretty nice. Haven't used it yet, though.

That's the only thing I bought on Prime Day. Then I have kapton tape coming in the mail and some voltage regulators so I can do some electronics work. (How exciting... lol.)

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Yeah, I got it yesterday. It's pretty nice. Haven't used it yet, though.

That's the only thing I bought on Prime Day. Then I have kapton tape coming in the mail and some voltage regulators so I can do some electronics work. (How exciting... lol.)

Wireless, right?
Answer: Of course!

There is a mic on the headset?
Answer: Yes, of course!

What color is it?
Answer: Blue, of course. NOPE!

I am very impressed with your many talents!

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Good Morning!

It's very humid here today.
I tend to experience more physical symptoms in the humidity (and with the heat).

I go to Ortho today. I had, somehow, injured my foot approx 10 days ago. I am walking with the help of a crutch. I think I know the dx; however, I will leave that to professional.

The NP at the Ortho office is a very interesting person. I love interacting with her. She has been in practice for 40 years and knows MUCH more than the PA(s) in the office. She is the #1 biathlon champion, for her age group, in the world.

She has the most interesting, and the most extensive, collection of shoes!
On top of all of that,she has an outstanding personality.

I hope everyone has a FUN day!

The NP sounds like quite a character (in a good way). I’m glad you enjoy your interactions.

I hope your Ortho appointment goes well. I know these things take time for healing but I hope they get you fixed up and back on both feet in a timely fashion.

I got my pdoc and therapist appt mixed up, so I see the doc tomorrow and my t next week. I'm struggling so much atm.

Possible trigger:

I'm thinking about jumping off a nearby bridge and the urges to self harm are really intense. I'm actually hoping my family dies so I don't feel bad about offing myself.

I'm trying to distract myself by watching some shows I like, listening to music, and playing the keyboard, but that's only doing so much. Oh well, I'll get through it eventually.

[Wander]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

Wander, I have been thinking about you. I'm so sorry that the hospital has been a source of stress for you, instead of a retreat or safe haven. I do want to say how important it is not to rush away from intensive treatment. Doing so can exacerbate the situation. If it does end up best for your to leave the hospital, can you maybe go to an Intensive Outpatient program or at least schedule frequent visits to your therapy and psychiatrist?:

Thanks for thinking of me. It is disappointing that I can't relax here properly until I fully recover, but I do feel ready to deal with the outside world. I am just a but vulnerable. It is a good idea to see my T and pdoc more. I will see my T weekly and my pdoc at least weekly for the first few weeks to make sure I am safe and recovering well. My partner will also stay with me for the first week so I won't be alone. That will help immensely.

I fell asleep around 9 pm and woke at 3.30 am. Slept on and off for an hour but have been awake since. It is 5.20 am now. I feel good but it is going to be a long morning. I don't start my discharge until 9 am, assuming my pdoc is on time. I should be out by 10 am. I am actually excited, and a little nervous.

[Victoria'smom]

My new therapist resigned. She may have been a good one too. She wants me to go into a private practice. I don't think that's available to me. So IDK.

[yellow_fleurs]

Wander I am so glad to hear you are feeling better. I hope things continue this way for you. Do you have any idea why you are suddenly feeling better? Was it a successful medication change perhaps? It makes sense that your Pdoc is being cautious (we all want you safe), but I can totally understand why you want to get out of a place that is triggering. I have really been feeling for you and your situation. I think the meditation sounds like a great idea. I have tried meditation at a local center recently, but haven't gone back, just been rather busy with other things. A retreat is something I would be interested in looking into. Please continue to keep us posted with how you are doing!

[yellow_fleurs]

Spikes, I am sorry you are suffering so much. I hope your psychiatrist and therapist can help you. Are you safe until tomorrow? If not, please don't wait to get help.

[Wild Coyote]

Had a good time with Ortho NP!!!
I just LOVE her!

Had several Xrays.
I have severe (raging, according to her) Plantar Fasciitis.
I am supposed to wear a splint at night and an aircast during the day.
Picked up prescribed orthotics for aircast and for any footwear.
Having FUN tonight!

Was told it will take at least a year to heal.

I have had this, before, probably 15 years ago now, and it took 2 years to heal.

We will see how it goes. Trying to stay positive.

I hope everyone has a restful night!

[hopeless2015]

Doing ok, seems like it should be later in the week. Excessive heat warming tomorrow through Sunday here.

Hugs to all

[~Christina]

Saw my T today ( thank god) neither one of us can understand why my husband just can’t understand that being gone for a month is going to be so horrible and possibly life threatening to me. He’s usually very understanding.

Saw my Dermatologist Tuesday for 2 huge psoriasis flares. I picked up medication and one area is my eyebrow , the other below the belt. One liquid medication might as well be straight bleach on wide open skin, the other an ointment which burns just as bad !

I call my rheumatologist, they are rushing Me in tomorrow so we can figure a biologic change. They are all shots and must be kept in refrigerator, yeah okay not sure how to manage that while travelling, it can’t get to hot or cold as it ruins the medication.

We can barely afford the hotel for the days we will be there in the kids part of town. so 3 weeks with friends 4 hours north is unavoidable. Then back south for granddaughters birthday party. Our friends keep there ac on 80-82 so I’ll be hot the entire time.

My T is calling me weekly and I’m to call him or email him anytime I need too.

I’ll admit there are days I just scroll Facebook or read and have almost nothing to say , mainly due to pain. Our friends don’t know about my Bipolar, but I guess I’ll have to throw it out there, I always feel judged when I let that frantic cat out of the bag.

I told my T I’ll bring my own box of tissues when i get back , I’ll likely slide into his office bawling my eyes out.

We leave the 13 th. And yes many could saw why bother with worries now ? I have to count out meds and see what we will run out of , getting refills out of state is so difficult and takes days. So I need to skip meds to make them last until we return in September.

So yeah , I’m a freaking mess.

My pain is off the chart today. I was honest about talks of checking out to day during my session. No one in the medical field gives a damn if you have Fibro and even PsA type arthritis , it’s about finding something to help slow down the progression not really help with daily pain.

F M L

[Innerzone]

Christina !!!!!!!
I made a magic wand for a Halloween party a couple weeks ago. Wish it were real. Still, flinging sparkles your way. Maybe they will help if we hope really hard!
No fair such trials for such a wonderful person... Sending lots of love and healing thoughts to you.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Saw my T today ( thank god) neither one of us can understand why my husband just can’t understand that being gone for a month is going to be so horrible and possibly life threatening to me. He’s usually very understanding.

Saw my Dermatologist Tuesday for 2 huge psoriasis flares. I picked up medication and one area is my eyebrow , the other below the belt. One liquid medication might as well be straight bleach on wide open skin, the other an ointment which burns just as bad !

I call my rheumatologist, they are rushing Me in tomorrow so we can figure a biologic change. They are all shots and must be kept in refrigerator, yeah okay not sure how to manage that while travelling, it can’t get to hit or cold as it ruins the medication.

We can barely afford the hotel for the days we will be there in the kids part of town. so 3 weeks with friends 4 hours north is unavoidable. Then back south for granddaughters birthday party. Our friends keep there ac on 80-82 so I’ll be hot the entire time.

My T is calling me weekly and I’m to call him or email him anytime I need too.

I’ll admit there are days I just scroll Facebook or read and have almost nothing to say , mainly due to pain. Our friends don’t know about my Bipolar, but I guess I’ll have to throw it out there, I always feel judged when I let that frantic cat out of the bag.

I told me T I’ll bring my own box of tissues when i get back , I’ll likely slide into his office bawling my eyes out.

We leave the 13 th. And yes many could saw why bother with worries now ? I have to count out meds and see what we will run out of , getting refills out of state is so difficult and takes days. So I need to skip meds to make them last until we return in September.

So yeah , I’m a freaking mess.

My pain is off the chart today. I was honest about talks of checking out to day during my session. No one in the medical field gives a damn if you have Fibro and even PsA type arthritis , it’s about finding something to help slow down the progression not really help with daily pain.

F M L

I am getting very concerned about you!

What happens if you just say no to this fiasco? Maybe stay at home?

I totally agree with you re: pain and PsA, fibro, etc. one has to experience it in order to understand. Most of the medical community is threatened by the state re: prescribing pain meds. It's a mess!!!

Please know that I am here for you!!!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by hopeless2015

Doing ok, seems like it should be later in the week. Excessive heat warming tomorrow through Sunday here.

Hugs to all

I enJOY your dropping in!!!
Much Love to You!!!

[Innerzone]

Well, tomorrow is surgery. It's just carpal tunnel on my non-dominant side, but I'm starting to get a little squicky. Will be off of work for a week. Loaded up on lots of dvds from the library to pass some time. I should still be able to draw, so hope to do a bunch. It will be so weird not being at work. I will actually miss it!

Have to take a big anti-bacterial shower tonight, then again tomorrow morning. Sleep on freshly laundered sheets etc etc. Even tossed my teddy bear in the laundry. He said he didn't like it, but would do his bit.

We'll see how typing goes afterwards. If I get a bit quiet, you'll know why.

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Saw my T today ( thank god) neither one of us can understand why my husband just can’t understand that being gone for a month is going to be so horrible and possibly life threatening to me. He’s usually very understanding.

Saw my Dermatologist Tuesday for 2 huge psoriasis flares. I picked up medication and one area is my eyebrow , the other below the belt. One liquid medication might as well be straight bleach on wide open skin, the other an ointment which burns just as bad !

I call my rheumatologist, they are rushing Me in tomorrow so we can figure a biologic change. They are all shots and must be kept in refrigerator, yeah okay not sure how to manage that while travelling, it can’t get to hit or cold as it ruins the medication.

We can barely afford the hotel for the days we will be there in the kids part of town. so 3 weeks with friends 4 hours north is unavoidable. Then back south for granddaughters birthday party. Our friends keep there ac on 80-82 so I’ll be hot the entire time.

My T is calling me weekly and I’m to call him or email him anytime I need too.

I’ll admit there are days I just scroll Facebook or read and have almost nothing to say , mainly due to pain. Our friends don’t know about my Bipolar, but I guess I’ll have to throw it out there, I always feel judged when I let that frantic cat out of the bag.

I told me T I’ll bring my own box of tissues when i get back , I’ll likely slide into his office bawling my eyes out.

We leave the 13 th. And yes many could saw why bother with worries now ? I have to count out meds and see what we will run out of , getting refills out of state is so difficult and takes days. So I need to skip meds to make them last until we return in September.

So yeah , I’m a freaking mess.

My pain is off the chart today. I was honest about talks of checking out to day during my session. No one in the medical field gives a damn if you have Fibro and even PsA type arthritis , it’s about finding something to help slow down the progression not really help with daily pain.

F M L

Oodles of pain free hugs and cheesecake sent your way.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Well, tomorrow is surgery. It's just carpal tunnel on my non-dominant side, but I'm starting to get a little squicky. Will be off of work for a week. Loaded up on lots of dvds from the library to pass some time. I should still be able to draw, so hope to do a bunch. It will be so weird not being at work. I will actually miss it!


Have to take a big anti-bacterial shower tonight, then again tomorrow morning. Sleep on freshly laundered sheets etc etc. Even tossed my teddy bear in the laundry. He said he didn't like it, but would do his bit.


We'll see how typing goes afterwards. If I get a bit quiet, you'll know why.

My mom had it done about 15 years ago and she was a hair dresser , took the week off and was fine.

My T is actually having this done while I’m gone.

Yes they both had to do all the prep clean everything deal.

I hope your recovery is swift.

Yeah that magic wand would be lovely.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I am getting very concerned about you!


What happens if you just say no to this fiasco? Maybe stay at home?


I totally agree with you re: pain and PsA, fibro, etc. one has to experience it in order to understand. Most of the medical community is threatened by the state re: prescribing pain meds. It's a mess!!!


Please know that I am here for you!!!

Yesterday Hubby got really really upset with my worries over the trip and said loudly FINE I’ll skip my reunion and just go for Payton’s 4th birthday party ... are you happy now? Will this help you “ handle” it !! I said F you and had nothing else to say.

I don’t want him to miss his class reunion, he loves going and seeing old friends and I’m happy for him. I hang out with my daughter while hes off doing his thing.

His son and DIL scheduled Payton’s birthday party almost 2 weeks after her birthday or there would be only like 10 days between , but no.

They knew about Steve’s reunion dates and since we drive over 750 miles one would think they might be a bit considerate, but nope. If I just decided to stay home he likely would be furious and it would hang over our marriage heavily, and I do truly need to see my daughter. It’s been since Xmas.

This is very out of the ordinary for him, usually he more understanding about how I manage life. He’s all excited about the trip and 3 weeks with our friends but he is going to be doing a lot of work on George’s tractor and stuff so he has things to actually do.

They never want help with dinner or clean up , I grabbed a broom last time and no no no Alice said your on vacation.

So nothing for me to really do to pass the time. They think being online more than 30 mins a day is ridiculous.

Our dogs will live on a leash for a month, something they are not use too at all. My dog when stressed stops eating he went 6 days last trip without eating. And that was a 11 day trip.

I don’t think I’m borrowing trouble, I have to make sure we are both going to get by medication wise. The 3 meds of concern are all scheduled meds so they can’t even be refilled in another state.

Yes I have a list of things that need to be figured out.

Between our suitcases and my husband big oxygen concentrator in the truck I’m not sure where dog food for both dogs and they are 60 lbs each is going to go, it’s not a brand I can buy small bags as we need them.

Look out your windows... see that mushroom cloud. That’s my brain exploding.

Im done complaining about this cluster F of a trip coming up , it’s a boring saga from beginning to end.

Thanks to anyone reading all this crap.

[Wander]

Home from hospital. Agitated but ok. My partner is coming over for a few days. I know I kind of ran from the hospital but I think I made the right decision. This is a safer environment for me.

Sending hugs to all.