[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

No sign of my package.

I think it's gone forever. I think someone took it or it was misdelivered.

If this happens for a third time, I guess I'll get a P.O. box if there's one available. However, it's not ideal because the size I want (approx 1 foot by 1 foot square) is $540 a year, but on the upside, at least my packages won't be missing. I mean, some of the things I buy are unique, so it's not like I can just order another one...

Otherwise, doing okay. No problems as of late. Just sleepy. I think I'm tired from oversleeping, though.

Sorry your package is missing!!! No FUN!!!

I have recently priced mail boxes, too. I was surprised to see I could rent one online, without going to the PO itself. The prices are high!

In this area, we have"vendors" delivering the mail. It is not always reliable, which is why I was pricing PO boxes.

I hope your package does show up!!!

Have a good day!!!

[wildflowerchild25]

Had another hospital dream last night. This time I don’t know how I ended up there because I was perfectly fine. I was waiting for RS to visit me but he never did. I also kept forgetting to get my meds so I went without them for five days. Then I felt fine so I decided to go off my meds completely. I don’t know how that went because I woke up.

This dream wasn’t as disturbing as the others because I didn’t self injure or want to self injure, and I didn’t feel trapped at the hospital. So it was ok. Just weird.

It’s insanely hot here today. Like 97 degrees or some ****, heat index 110. And we’re crazy because we’re going to the city where it’s even hotter to go to a museum of medical oddities. But if we can get good parking we should only have to walk a block or two so it should be fine. I’m sure the museum has air conditioning. Can’t let those floating heads and fetal pigs get too hot lol.

Tomorrow I’m not sure what we’re doing, probably just staying inside since it’s supposed to be crazy hot tomorrow too. But thankfully that’s the last day of the heat wave. 83 degrees is going to feel like a dream on Monday!

[Victoria'smom]

I want to cry but can't. H isn't in a good mood so he's being harsh and negative. Shot down every idea I had (researched for days) and told me I shouldn't volunteer. And I was talking not typing.

[Daonnachd]

Completely off the current conversation of dissociation, but I want to share some pleasantness. My son's girlfriend just got here after a four hour drive. They're going to a concert tonight. She brought gifts for everyone in my family, my wife, my second son, and myself. What a sweet and thoughtful kid.

[Unrigged64072835]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Thank goodness he wasn’t seriously hurt.

I have always wanted a 2 story home but with my husbands neuropathy in his feet and legs so bad stairs would be just asking for a disaster to happen.

I have kept every blind and window dressings closed, this heat is horrible.

Stay cool

Yeah it could’ve been much much worse. I’m hoping we’ll be able to move out before our knees go out. Or our brains. Either one.

Unfortunately the bolsters aren’t helping much. The master bedroom and living room are on the southwest side of the house, so they’re still really warm. We may have to vacate to the craft room where it’s cooler, but that means moving all the craft stuff.

Hope you’re staying cool as well. I think you’re south of where I’m at, so it’s worse there.

[Unrigged64072835]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Oh no!

That must have been scary, for both of you!

I, too, am glad the injuries are much less than they could have been.

I am sure the heat greatly bothers your H.
Please stay cool and well!!!

Much Love ~

Yeah, with MS heat can aggravate his symptoms. He has an ice vest but it’s only good for about an hour. Luckily the only thing hurting now is his thumb, and he can use it a little.

Lots of love and I do hope you have some relief from what you’re going through.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I’m glad your husband is okay.


Lol! I stay so hot that my spring clothes ARE my winter clothes.


I’ve been thinking of you and your upcoming trip. I hope it goes better then you think it will. You’ll be in my thoughts and prayers.

Thanks so much !! I am far past menopause thanks to a hysterectomy at 31 , but I still have hot flashes despite blood tests results saying I shouldn’t “ have them” go figure lol

[~Christina]

So the saga of the Florida trip is just getting worse.

Now they are thinking of just taking Payton to Disney World for her birthday , not on her exact birthday but they haven’t figured out “ when yet”

They said they will buy my husband a ticket, my husbands now upset that I’m being left out ( this isn’t anything new, I truly think I’m just considered the bytch there dad married)

Do I have any desire to walk around freaking Disney in August or September with millions of smelly people? Oh. Hell. No !

It’s just ridiculous. I. Do. Not. Care. Anymore.

I have made it crystal clear I will be back home by the September 11th at 3pm to see my T !

Stay cool everyone !

[Wild Coyote]

I am soo o sorry sweetie!😘

I hope this gets sorted out before you head for Florida!!!

I appreciate you and your friendship!!!

[fern46]

I had a great day at my family gathering yesterday. I'm sunburned and a little tired, but we don't have anything planned today. I should be able to relax and recover.

Possible trigger:

I got the news that a friend from high school killed herself. She had been suffering from depression and it was just too much for her. She was a good mother and person. She had a blessed life, but she could no longer see it clearly. I hate that her brain won in the battle to convince her she had no other way out. Truly tragic.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by fern46

I had a great day at my family gathering yesterday. I'm sunburned and a little tired, but we don't have anything planned today. I should be able to relax and recover.

Possible trigger:

I got the news that a friend from high school killed herself. She had been suffering from depression and it was just too much for her. She was a good mother and person. She had a blessed life, but she could no longer see it clearly. I hate that her brain won in the battle to convince her she had no other way out. Truly tragic.

My condolences at this very difficult time.
It's truly a tragedy when we lose someone in this manner.
Much love to both her family and to yours.

[fern46]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

My condolences at this very difficult time.
It's truly a tragedy when we lose someone in this manner.
Much love to both her family and to yours.

Thanks. We weren't close in our adult years. It just hit close to home. She was my age and a mother of two like I am. I wish I would have known she was struggling. I could have offered a sympathetic ear and let her know she was not alone in facing mental struggles. Too many people suffer alone.

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Sorry your package is missing!!! No FUN!!!

I have recently priced mail boxes, too. I was surprised to see I could rent one online, without going to the PO itself. The prices are high!

In this area, we have"vendors" delivering the mail. It is not always reliable, which is why I was pricing PO boxes.

I hope your package does show up!!!

Have a good day!!!

Not to be pessimistic, but I don't think it'll show up. I think it was misdelivered because it's still not here today.

I wish PO box prices weren't so high either, and that I had one local enough to me. The one I really want to rent is located about 1-2 mins down the road (depending on traffic), but the post office has no 11x11 boxes available for rent. The other two post offices are 20 mins away from my place, in opposite directions. While 20 mins isn't bad, I'd much prefer 2 mins. And one of those post offices happens to be in another state. (Not sure how taxes work with that. I don't want to pay for double the sales tax.)

Anyway, we're celebrating my grandma's birthday today. 89. We got her a nice, authentic Red Sox jersey (since she's a huge baseball addict!) and a few other small things. The jersey was only $72 with a 40% manager discount from a friend, so we were very happy with the purchase!

She is a diehard Yankees fan (since she's originally from upstate NY) and we saw a Babe Ruth jersey for sale, but it wasn't in her size. She loves the Red Sox, though, and we got her her favorite player's jersey (Mookie Betts).

bluebicyle, happy birthday to your grandma!

Christina, I'm so sorry your upcoming vacation is causing more dread. Do you have a therapist to consult about this? It would perhaps be good to make some decisions about the time there before hand or process it beforehand.

fern, I'm so extremely sorry about the loss of your friend and her loss of her life to depression. I always like to say the latter, too, because I definitely feel that those who die by suicide are victims, in a sense. You may recall that my family lost my nephew to depression, in July 2017. It's so difficult because we know that he would have seen many good days if he was here today.

Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs

BirdDancer can I ask how you got past the maladaptive daydreaming? I do daydream a lot, it's not always to get out of a stressful situation or anything, just the way my brain has always worked since I was a kid. My dad used to tell me to stop daydreaming when I was a kid. I also don't know when it becomes daydreaming, I am sometimes just thinking up a plot for a story, analyzing a situation, running through a song in my head. Things get busy, but it's hard for me to imagine it being quieter than that, I sort of assumed everyone's head was this busy until I realized when my therapist would ask me what I had just thought of that it might be a bunch of things nearly at the same time haha. Although, sometimes I cannot think of a single thought if I am feeling tired or depressed.

Hi yellow_fleurs! The short answers are bulleted:

* Recognizing that the daydreaming was a problem/maladaptive
* A conscious decision to stop. Cutting down on it (sort of like sweets or other similar addictive things)
* Grounding techniques
* Success in finding a passion or other major activity that I really wanted to focus on
* Time for my brain to heal
* Good therapists that helped me get past it

My maladaptive daydreaming was not something that I stopped abruptly. It decreased over time. Perhaps with the above help it started to become less satisfying. The pleasure (or whatever positive) I derived from it decreased. Reality showed itself more. The stories ran their course.

At its worst, I was daydreaming for literally 12 hours in a day. I daydreamed when my husband was home, when visiting others, when driving, when shopping...all of the time. Mostly, I spend several hours per day in bed binge daydreaming. I neglected a lot. I often "didn't hear" people talking to me, for the most part. It became an obsessive/compulsive type activity, but I don't have OCD. I would often rework similar daydreams multiple times with slightly different versions.

I think my past maladaptive daydreaming was a means of coping. An unhealthy way of protecting myself from the trauma I had experienced in the past. That is similar with dissociation. I guess I can understand why I sometimes experienced dissociative symptoms during that period. When that period ended, so did my symptoms of dissociation.

[Nightsong]

Hi!

Good to meet you all, I have bp2 (diagnosed 4 years) and I'm 2 weeks into a 2-month intensive outpatient program. Going pretty well, all things considered - the DBT and CBT classes are really helpful - but getting a little overwhelmed. On Thursday I was just hit with two new personality disorder diagnoses, too, so that doesn't help. I hardly know what to focus on anymore.

Has anyone else been through intensive outpatient/ day hospital? How did you keep your focus?

[Miss Laura]

Still feeling good.... it's the last night of my lodge cabin on the West Coast of Scotland. We've had decent weather. Hot tub amazing. Went on a car ride yesterday and today. Then jumped into the hot tub late afternoon. Its pouring rain currently so indoors. Leaving lodge in about 16 hours. Gutted got another one booked for next month but with no hot tub been great to get away!

[fern46]

Hi Nightsong, welcome. I went through an intensive outpatient program 8 months ago. It can be a lot to stay engaged during all of the activities while you're there. They are mentally and emotionally taxing and there are a number of them every day. I was also on heavier meds at the time and they affected my concentration.

For me, I tried to simply stay present in the moment without over thinking everything. I tend to over analyze and it was dragging me down. I felt like I was getting the answers wrong and missing stuff even though there arw no wrong answers. I relaxed a bit after a while and did my best to just be honest and take it all in one thing at a time. I later decompressed during the weekends and even after the program was over.

Just be as honest as you can be even though it can be embarrassing. It is hard to grow if you hold back. Set an intention to do the best you can and just let the rest go. The important stuff will stick and the rest will naturally fall away. Remember that you're not trying to solve everything there. You're picking up skills to help you solve things at your own pace later as it makes sense. You can always follow up with a therapist later on anytning you feel like you need more time on. I wish you success with your program.

[hopeless2015]

Pretty nice weekend. Indoors most of it due to heat so doing a lot of chilling. Back to work tomorrow but I was off Friday so had a 3 day weekend . Next week we are headed out of town for an overnight trip. Really looking forward to that. Moods been staying stable.

Think I'll hit the dollar store and see what I can find, needing to replace some makeup.

Hugs to all