[Wild Coyote]

I hurt for you, ~Christina.

Christina, I'm glad you spoke up about not wanting to hear about the trip 24/7. I fully understand how that could be mini torture.

Wild Coyote, thanks for sharing about that Native American custom.

Today hubby is home because we need to go to Philly for his eye appointment. I never look forward to that. Neither does he. At least those appointments have been far less frequent these past couple years. I have nothing against Philly itself. When I was a teenager, I used to go in with my mom and we had fun days there.

Our new counter, sink, and faucet are beautiful and the plumbing is fixed. We got a new dishwasher. That had a little issue, but it's resolved. I still need to do some cleaning and put the remaining things away. It's so lovely that I bought some pretty new things, like new trivets, mats, and attractive soap dispensers. I want to keep some stuff under the sink instead of next to it.

[fern46]

Hey Christina, there really seem to be no words that can help much at a time like this. Just know I'm thinking of you and sending thoughts of peace and wellness your way. Huge hugs.

[Sunflower123]

Christina...me as well. Sending many hugs and supportive vibes. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

[Sunflower123]

Yay! M is coming home Wed-Fri of next week before school officially starts. I’ll finally be able to take her to the drum circle. Been wanting to do that for a long time now.

The house got a bit messy and cluttered while I was caring for mom after her fall and when I was depressed and I’ve been taking it one room at a time straightening up. The outside is lovely (due to a terrific lawn guy) and the inside will be done by the time M arrives. It feels good to find the house again.

I’m running short on my mood stabilizer so I’ve been thinning it out to make it until the 9th. I’ve been sleeping ok but my mood is slipping and I’ve been a bit irritable. I’ll do a better job from here on out.

Warm wishes to all and hugs to those that are struggling.

[Jedi67]

Hey Christina, sending you best wishes and thoughts of serenity and peace during your rough patch. please keep reaching out and stay strong!

[Jedi67]

in a better mood today. though a tad elevated I think. got some pruning done on the side of the house and been getting some reading in. slept pretty good last night with just OTC meds. but it's inconsistent. who knows tonight? just checking in on PC and seeing what's up with everyone. hope you are all well.

Hubby and I are in Philly now. I received a text from my brother saying that he dropped our dad off at the ER again. Nowadays, he just drops him off and goes to work. That may seem harsh, but otherwise my dad would likely change his mind quickly and demand to go home.

When I saw my pdoc yesterday, he said it might be good for my dad to get an MRI. I know that seems strange having my pdoc make recommendations, but frankly, I think my pdoc gets more detailed info about dad than my dad or brother gives the doctors. I'm never part of that. My dad usually refuses to let us talk to the doctors, especially the psychiatrists and psych nurse practitioners. The fact is, sometimes a patient doesn't see the whole picture, or is in denial about it or wants to withhold info.

[liveforsummer]

Feeling ill. Food going through me. Nausea. Excitement/anxiety for concert tonight? Cymbalta withdrawal? (Having some electrical zappy sensations going through my body here and there. Just ate toast, diluted ginger ale and a banana. Im still gonna go regardless.
Music therapy/immersion can be its own high 😊

[Jedi67]

Originally Posted by liveforsummer

Feeling ill. Food going through me. Nausea. Excitement/anxiety for concert tonight? Cymbalta withdrawal? (Having some electrical zappy sensations going through my body here and there. Just ate toast, diluted ginger ale and a banana. Im still gonna go regardless.
Music therapy/immersion can be its own high 😊

feel better and enjoy the concert! hope that'll help things!

I haven't eaten all day. Nothing. The only thing I've "had" was a hot cocoa and 2 small glasses of water.

I need to go grocery shopping because I literally have nothing left to eat, but I'm too lazy to go anywhere. I'm also really anxious and can't tell what I'm anxious about.

I do have therapy tomorrow morning, though, so I'm gonna have to get off my lazy @ss and go outside anyways. Maybe I'll go grocery shopping after therapy and eat something for the first time in what will be 48 hours.

It's not like I haven't done this before. I have. I get lazy and anxious and don't eat. It sucks.

[Nammu]

Went to the fair with mum today. We got a ride from one side to the other, she took us the long way though the midway. Boy did those rides look fun. I have a weakened spine so I can't go on them anymore and in any case mum wouldn't anyway. Guess I'm not much of a fair food person the only good food was the funnel cake. They had an exhibit of prehistoric tools that was pretty cool.

[leomama]

Hi everyone, haven’t posted in a few months. Went back on lamictal, thinking about going off it again, then I had lunch with my dad and was reminded that I have a mood disorder. My mom won’t see me because she claims I start off every conversation “edgy and argumentative “. That’s like when I was 15 and ran away, was found to have suicidal ideation by a youth shelter , I was “looking for attention”, according to her. Perhaps I’ll stay on lamictal. I jokingly envy people whose parents are supportive.

[gayleggg]

I think I'm doing okay, but I am seeing a pdoc Monday. I'm a little nervous about that. I have been sleeping better this last week, so that's a plus.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by liveforsummer

Feeling ill. Food going through me. Nausea. Excitement/anxiety for concert tonight? Cymbalta withdrawal? (Having some electrical zappy sensations going through my body here and there. Just ate toast, diluted ginger ale and a banana. Im still gonna go regardless.
Music therapy/immersion can be its own high 😊

Good for you!
I hope you feel much better and have fun!
I wish I was at a concert tonight!

[Jedi67]

had a productive day. I showered, made my bed, did some pruning around my house and did a lot of reading. had a good day, but now I feel like I'm crashing a bit. maybe I was a bit manic, but it really didn't feel like it. I'm done reading for the night and I am going to unwind with a movie. hope everyone is well!

[Phoenix_1]

I wonder if I'm falling into another depression. I want to sleep all day but I can't fall asleep so I lay on my bed in the dark.
I thought I was stable, but maybe not.
I pushed myself to walk to the drug store to buy hair colour and other things. It's senior discount day on Thursday. I didn't want to go but I did. It's a mile and a half there and back. It's a beautiful day. 23°C and sunny.
I just had a shower and that was incredibly hard too. I haven't showered since Monday and that's unusual for me.
I'll have to watch this.

[~Christina]

Rheumatologist is putting me on a run of steroids to see if it will help the pain.

I just feel sick sick sick.

We leave on Tuesday for Florida #HellTrip

[LadyShadow]

Had a great day, met with a new therapist and went to the doctor. I feel fat, but it seems I lost two pounds? I really don't get it. I haven't had my period in more than a year, so all that bloating could have me feeling that way. I am going to make an appointment with an endocrinologist and a nutritionist to see if they can help with my weight and menstrual cycle.

I accomplished a lot today, and I even changed my mind about changing psychiatrists and giving up therapy. I think I could really well with this new woman.