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Today I'm really missing my pet. I know that it's been weeks since he passed, but sometimes it hits me that he's not here. I look over at where his cage was and he's not there. I really wish he was here on my tummy harassing me. I wish I could give him a kiss. Tears are running down my face.
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#622
I thought coyote's story was lovely too! Just push on and use humor!
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I stopped consulting after I got sick last fall. My husband amd I agreed the added stress was too much for me to handle while I was in intensive therapy and working to get a grasp on what happened to me and my family. I haven't done anything professionally in over 9 months. My husband picks my brain every now and again, but I haven't had a project to focus on.
I started something new today. I'm taking a class that focuses on my favorite area of my profession. It offers new skills and a methodology for growing my consultancy. It felt really good to get back in the game. I'm not sure if or when I will use this material. It may be a long time before I take on clients again, but my brain needed this. I spend so much time playing with and teaching my kids. It is a nice change of pace to do something for myself that can potentially add value to our family in the future. I used to offer us more and it has been hard to take a step back. I'm excited at the thought of jumping back in one day with new skills. |
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__________________ "Do or Do Not. There is No Try" - Yoda, Jedi Master Diagnosed 2008 Bipolar II with Mixed States, Rapid Cycling with Anxiety / Depression: Meds: Zoloft, Latuda, Gabapentin & Depakote. |
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Thanks Jedi! I really appreciate all of the encouragement you throw my way. I'm fortuante to have met you here. My class will take me about 3 months to complete, so I'll have a worthwhile outlet to channel my energy into for a while. I'm pretty excited.
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3 months huh? not too bad. you should be excited. it sounds like it'll be a cool learning experience with some fun thrown in as well. I'm glad you are taking this on for yourself. you deserve it! and like you said, it's an outlet much like when I volunteer. it's fun and fulfilling. wishing you the very best, and remember to have fun! __________________ "Do or Do Not. There is No Try" - Yoda, Jedi Master Diagnosed 2008 Bipolar II with Mixed States, Rapid Cycling with Anxiety / Depression: Meds: Zoloft, Latuda, Gabapentin & Depakote. |
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Is there any way you can treat yourself right now? Or even a hot shower can be relaxing. |
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Thank you, bluebicycle. When I finally wiped away my last tear I went to the store and managed OK. I've been doing a little better since then. It was good to at least be out in public a bit. It's sometimes hard after weekends with my hubby home. Tomorrow I see my therapist.
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I hope you have a good therapy session tomorrow. Maybe you'll feel even better after talking to him/her. |
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I had a pretty good therapy session overall. I was wondering if my therapist might be frustrated with me because I've been a bit stuck and not sure what to work on, but we came up with a goal together for me to become more self aware of my obsessive thoughts and better about not falling into the loop and getting stuck. I am glad we are on the same page. I think she may have been educating herself about OCD treatment or something based on our convo which I appreciate, especially because I was wondering if I needed see a specialist. It's clear she cares which is nice.
I did find myself frustrated at getting another talk about psychosomatic symptoms, though. It's hard to debate because I've got that OCD diagnosis and all, but I guess I'll just stay away from that topic in therapy. It's one of those situations the more I try to debate the more "obsessed" I end up sounding haha. What a catch-22 that is. For anyone interested, she recommended anxiety.org as a good site for information on OCD, but it also has stuff for other anxiety disorders. Sending compassion to everyone! |
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I think you might be right that a formal evaluation could be useful for me. I might look into it further. I hope your pdoc can provide you some useful info for decision making. |
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#634
Oh geez I'm having a really low day today. Second one in 9 days.
That's not good because I'm on the increased dose of Wellbutrin. I was hoping that I'd seen the last of these low days but I guess not. 3 weeks to go to evaluate whether Wellbutrin works for me. __________________ * Dx: Unspecified Bipolar and Related Disorder * Rx: Remeron, Prozac, Klonopin, Vraylar My avatar picture is a photo of the Whirlpool Galaxy I took in April 2023. I dedicated this photo to my sister who passed away in July 2016. |
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sorry to hear you are feeling low today, Scooter9. I hope the Wellbutrin eventually works out for you. good luck and know that it'll pass. stay strong. you got this.
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I know you've been struggling for a while now with depression. I can only imagine how tiring it is, but I hope if Wellbutrin doesn't work out, that you'll find the magic med soon.
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