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I’m doing better but I will be left alone again this week possibly, and definitely next week. My H keeps saying I look sad and have a lot of anxiety. When is it anxiety and when is it psychosis? When is it “micro-psychosis” in BPD? I’m doing better do I still call the pdoc tomorrow? What do I say? I don’t have the best memory. I feel like I can wait but I might flip if left alone but I have no idea how to tell if I will. Is this just me trying to wait my turn/down playing?
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#2
Stop downplaying yourself out of fear /anxiety.
Make the call You have been given a link somewhere that offered 99 ( I think) distractions. With that many there is no reason you can’t find ones to keep youself safe while alone. Try to focus on what you CAN conquer instead of thinking of things that didn’t go well in the past. You are much stronger than you think so try focusing on that k? __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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What do you think? You don't need validation for your feelings. You let what H thinks and sometimes what we think define you. I'd like to hear you tell us and your doctor what is actually true and real for you no matter how it sounds. H says you look sad. Are you sad? He says you look anxious? Are you anxious?
Journal what is true for you without feedback from others. Write it down with dates and times so you can refresh your memory later when you need it. You had planned to call your doc for a reason. If those reasons are still valid then definitely call. Doing better for a day or a few hours doesn't really mean that the issues are gone. Sometimes these things come and go. They can still be valid concerns in that state. I also agree with Christina. There are infinite things you can do if you're open to them and throw your energy into them with good intent. You can only be as strong as you allow yourself to be. Just give a few things a shot with an open mind. You might surprise yourself. You deserve some fun. Don't over think it. |
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Does it cost you money to call your pdoc for 3-5 mins? If it doesn’t cost you anything, then IMO, there is no harm in calling and you should ring his phone
My pdoc charges $20 for after hours calls and $20 for in-person appts. But I can talk to his assistant for free whenever I want without being charged (even if she is kinda useless most of the time). All you have to do is say that you haven’t been feeling well lately and that you’re feeling okay for now, but you’re not sure if the “okay” feeling is going to last. Then tell him you’re concerned about your stability. Just put it that way and your pdoc can ask you questions to help him make a judgment. |
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With that many there is no reason you can’t find ones to keep youself safe while alone. I'm not worried about my safety. It's the unchecked anxiety. I've made a list from those coping skills to use.
Journal what is true for you without feedback from others Everything is muddled right now. I'm currently going through my posts and hangouts to make a timeline. Does it cost you money to call your pdoc for 3-5 mins? I have to make an appointment to talk to pdoc. I was told to call back Monday at 9 to find out if there's a cancellation but I'm okay now. __________________ Dx: Me- SzA Husband- Bipolar 1 Daughter- mood disorder+ Comfortable broken and happy "So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk My blog |
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#6
My therapist and psychiatrist always called my anxiety “paranoia”. Which. I guess fits because I tend to be- well. I can interpret something a thousand different ways- some of them being pretty outlandish- and can come up with all sorts of ulterior motives that could be had to make this or that thing possible.
Its easier to talk myself (and maybe you- if you inderstand where the anxiety is coming from. I think your journaling idea is great- its a good way to work through thoughts and anxiety) Anyways. Call if you need to call. Its better to call then it is is to suffer. |
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Would it hurt to set up an appt though? Even tho I’m obviously not a dr, the fact you weren’t okay before suggests to me that maybe you’re not stable on your current med regimen. Like, your current regimen allows for things to fluctuate too much, and maybe you need some adjustments. I mean, I’ve been on meds before where sometimes I felt fine and sometimes I did not, but that fluctuation was indicative of instability... because for every time I felt “okay,” I had an equal amount of times where I didn’t feel okay.
I know it’s easy to convince yourself it’s not a big deal anymore because you’re feeling okay now, but if you haven’t changed your meds, who’s to say that feeling won’t come back again in... say... 24 hrs, a few days, a week, etc? |
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After putting June-now together I will be calling tomorrow. I will start to make daily notes and erase the insignificant ones before my appointments.
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The note I'm giving Pdoc when I see her. Hopefully tomorrow. I tried to keep my option out of it and just list what has been going on. Hopefully she can help.
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Good job with the list MM. I'm glad you are telling them your fear of going IP. I was TERRIFIED of IP, partly because I knew I might run into my own patient since I worked in psych and partly because it's just not a favored vacation spot. My pdoc knew about my fear and really worked with me on it. She managed to help me stay out until I went on my MAOI and couldn't handle the cross taper without help. She told me so much about it and calmed me down about it and when I did have that first stay it was ok and the other 4 times much easier than that. But if she hadn't known my fear she might have hospitalized me sooner and when I was terrified. It's good for them to know fears like that.
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That's great you made the list and are thinking of doing daily notes. I think you may have inspired me to make notes myself because I can really see the use in it. I hope everything goes well when you speak with them.
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Nice job on your journal. I feel like it will be helpful for you, your pdoc and your T. Good luck making your call today.
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#14
One hour until I call.
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9:20 tomorrow.
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Good luck with your appt. Glad they could squeeze you in so quickly.
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Good job!
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great job. awesome to hear! good luck with your appt.
glad they could see you. __________________ "Do or Do Not. There is No Try" - Yoda, Jedi Master Diagnosed 2008 Bipolar II with Mixed States, Rapid Cycling with Anxiety / Depression: Meds: Zoloft, Latuda, Gabapentin & Depakote. |
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I still feel over dramatic and selfish moving the appointment up but I'm trying to remind myself I need sleep and that no one wants me this uncomfortable. I will probably apologize tomorrow. I wish I had coping skills for bugs.
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