Bipolar check in #37

Good for you! It's tough to know when to push through and when to retreat when it comes to migraine. You've done well at choosing.

The church gatherings sound beneficial.

Moose, you're kind for sharing your understanding. That would scare me, too, to see a parent starting to injure themselves a lot. Your sister has a good idea. It's hard to have that worry!

My dad has also fallen, but even in public because of drunkenness. Twice he fell at a bar and they called an ambulance. My siblings are angry that the bartender even served him enough to lead to that. Also, he has scratches all over his car and truck. At least once he had a hit and run with a parked car. Now he drives less (thank goodness) but rather stays home like a hermit only drinking and sleeping. He is depressed a lot.

My brother lives with my dad, but my brother works many hours, so isn't always home. My sister lives only down the road from him, but rarely visits him. She will retire young in January. She often struggles with health problems. I live about 38 minutes drive away from him. Not very far, but I am obviously not the best as a first responder. My dad never wants to worry me.

I've been so busy lately with all sorts of stuff. Haven't had time to read the forums.

I found out that my uncle has type 2 diabetes. He is 6'5" and 180 lbs. Not overweight. I'm not sure what happened, but my grandfather (his dad) had diabetes shortly before he passed away, so I'm sure that family history played into it a bit. Just sucks, though. I feel bad for him. Now I have to watch out for myself, considering I'm not overweight but have high cholesterol as my dad and he do. We all seem to be the same.

Anyway, have to do work... I'll check back on the forums later. I have a lot of stuff to do today, ranging from cleaning the floor and vacuuming to clearing off the kitchen counters and wiping them down. Then I've gotta finish building my shelving which I keep saying I'll do but never end up doing. I also ordered some organization stuff for two of my closets. I don't know why I've never realized that I have two empty closets which I could use to store things in, but now I have more places to put my stuff.

Hope everyone has a good day!

You sound good blue.
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Bumped my Mirapex dose again. Following pdoc's directions.

No side effects so far, no nausea.

Feeling down and withdrawn today but that's pretty much normal for me these days.

I had some company over during the weekend and I participated in the conversation. That's a big change because I was zoning out and disengaging in the recent past.

I wish I could say it was the Wellbutrin but it was all me. I really focused on staying engaged, looking at everyone, and worked on coming up with things to say. I was tired at the end of the night but it was worth it.

I am not following my pdoc's directions. I changed my dose of lithium (went back up to a previous dose) and stopped taking abilify. I feel LOADS better and WAY more stable. I know I shouldn't be doing it but it has prevented hypomania/stopped hypomania in its tracks. I plan to discuss this honestly with them in my next appointment but when the nurse called me on the phone to check in I didn't tell her about any of it. (She only asked about sleep and a different change we had made, so I didn't lie, but...obviously not the whole truth.) My partner is aware of my changes and is opposed to me not telling them things but also at the same time says I'm doing better and seeming more stable.

@BirdDancer My dad called just a bit ago. He wanted to know how I was because he'd read my blog. I took DOWN the scary post about the intrusive thoughts days ago, so that's good. But he seemed good. Said he's been having trouble sleeping- that his doctor -(he doesnt have a pdoc)- prescribed "something in the Xanax family" but he didn't like it "so I flushed that ****". I have no idea why someone would prescribe xanax for sleep, but the alternative is that he's lying. Always the two sides: loving wonderful Dad who can do no wrong and the lying drunk dad. He did seem pretty with it today though so that's good.

Feeling low today but the self harm urges aren’t as strong. So at least I’m calmer. I had off from work for Rosh Hashanah so I mostly slept. Took my son to school at 7:30 (before care), got a bagel, ate it, went back to bed from eight to two. I would have stayed in bed longer because I woke up very anxious but I had to put the rent check in and get cat food. So I went out. I got the grocery shopping done and I even did my laundry. Didn’t manage to do any cleaning but it is what it is.

I’m nervous about work tomorrow. I’m not sure how I’m going to feel. If I feel like this I’ll be able to make it through. I have to make it through no matter what, I can’t keep taking time off. I left work early on Thursday and Friday and came home and slept. That’s no good.

I blew my carbs pretty badly with the bagel and then I just had tortilla chips and salsa for lunch. So I ended up getting a pumpkin spice latte on top of it. I shouldn’t have that much sugar but oh well. I’ll be under my calories at least.

Sigh. I hope I start feeling better soon. I don’t like being so down. I know it’s wearing on RS. He wishes he could fix it for me. I keep reassuring him it’s not his fault and all he needs to do is remind me how much he loves me and give me hugs. That’s all he can do and it does help.

It's good to hear you have no major side-effects! Your pdoc will be able to give better statistics (on nausea )than can mine at this point. I hope it stays this way!

I had found I had started to participate more in life within a couple of weeks. I did get hypomanic on it, only because my pdoc was on vacation and I was so pleased with the more immediate results that I quickly increased the dosage (to a full 6mg twice a day)! A dose far too high for use in psychiatry. Lol!

I hope you will feel positive changes with time.

Nice Job!!!

Catch up with you when you take a much-deserved break!

Felt a bit weird today but was still productive and it got better as the day went on. Went to bed early last night and woke up in the middle of the night, had a hard time falling back to sleep while my thoughts were all over the place and kind of upsetting and made me feel really weird. I can't figure out when it's OCD and when it's something else and it makes me so unsure of everything. I was anxious this morning and felt generally uneasy, but managed okay in the end. I have another project to work on tonight, but am taking a break to eat a burrito and maybe watch something funny. Have been busy and not really up to speed on everything here, but hope everyone's doing well and will try to catch up. Sending compassion!

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Originally Posted by ~Christina Do you see your Pdoc soon? Don’t beat yourself up.. Bipolar can wreak hell on our lives at times

I see my psychiatrist tomorrow and I also have an appointment with a therapist. Thanks

Doing okay lately. Nothing new to report, not that it's worth much anyway. I hope everyone here is surviving.

We're onto a new thread guys, check in #38

Yes we do have a new check in thread.

We are allowed by Pc to let them get to 1000 pages

See you all there