Feeling insanely amazing!!!

You may want to consider the hospital, Miss Laura. Having sex with strangers is a potential danger to yourself. You may not see it that way, when manic, but I'm telling you that it is a danger.

Wishing you safety and best wishes

the hospital isn't that bad really u get food and lots of attention.

ive been 8 times but havnt been for 2 years knock on wood.

I went for the first time last year. It scared me at first, but I made friends quickly and got a lot out of therapy. I spent time in the schizophrenic wing and a women's trauma group. Both were interesting and had a lot to offer. The hospital gave me a safe space to come back to reality and get well enough to step back into my life. Try not to fear it if you need to go.

It’s a safe place to get help you need, Med changes/ doses can be moved quicker since nursing staff is there to watch for problems. There is always someone staff wise to talk too if you need them. It’s also helpful being with other people struggling with many of the same problems.

Stay safe Laura

Finally after 2 more calls to my CPN I get a hold of her. She says she spoke to my community worker but thinks I'm over the worst as I'm not speed talking. I'm to stay off the sites and I'll see her Tues as planned.... less than a 10 min phone call btw. For the love of God I give up. Waste of my phone bill calling up

Saw my Peer Worker today... she says I'm fine today and she doesn't think I was manic as although she is concerned about the guys coming over I didn't have sex and was just fooling around with them. I have spent lots of money but it would be thousands rather than hundreds of pounds. I would have grandiose ideas, not sleeping much (much less than I am), busier than i was, not able to hide it etc etc

I have a feeling my appt in 22 hours with my CPN won't go down well. I'm dreading it tbh. I'm confused what is wrong with me?

Hi. I want to offer my 2 cents here on this subject...

in all honesty you should quit doing what you are. you are here talking to us about it, as you know that it's not healthy and is extremely dangerous, especially since you are going thru some form of intimacy with these guys, some may get angry and take it out on you as if you are leading them on, like a c**k tease.
your doc may be wrong here as you may have left feelings out or details, that may make them have a different take on the matter.

you should just find a med that curbs your libido, or get a vibrator or both.
I understand the need for affection and human touch. (I have been celibate for 6 years) so, yeah I get it.
but being beaten up, raped, or other things, is not worth what you are doing.

please consider getting some serious intervention here with your doc, and if you feel they are not getting what you are laying down, make it really clear to them, even if you break down in the appointment and start bawling. they have to know what's really going on.

also, just because you are not going that far with them, doesn't mean that they won't stalk you. keep that in mind.
good luck with this and I am here if you wanna talk. let us know the outcome and how you handle things going forward please. /hug

I hope your appt tomorrow gives you the help you need Miss Laura.
Please keep safe. The risks are not worth all the potential negative outcomes

My appt was today... useless. Cpn thinks I was nervous and anxious as I dont seem manic nor did I yesterday or Fri. I told her what's been going on. She thinks I'm bored and seeking out conversations. Says meds are fine. No need to change them or add to them. I need more things to do with my life too

Do you feel you have been manic?

From reading this thread, it is not clear that you are convinced you have been/are manic.

We tend to relate information from our own perspective. If you are not feeling you have been/are manic, then you may have presented your story according to your own perspective. This is totally understandable.

Are you upset with the CPN's feedback?
if so, what did you hope she would do for you?

Whether or not you have been manic, it may be helpful for you to get more involved with other interests in your life. I agree this is a useful suggestion. It seems like you get very involved in searching for men and put yourself at risk. You might as well channel that energy into something safer and more constructive.

Do you feel like you have a choice when you have a mood shift re: looking for men and putting yourself at risk?

I hope you are doing well today.

I am too right now lol

Even though I am hypersexual right now also. What everyone else is saying might not be a bad thing to listen to.

But what do I know.

I feel I'm more mellower now but the last 4 weeks plus I have felt manic.

Yeah I was quite peeved off tbh... I was hoping for a med change/upped and or an anxiety med too. But she's told me she would get me an anxiety med for the last 4/5 months.

I'm being made to go on a 6 week Be Safe course (covers online etc as well as fire safety etc). They want me to do more volunteering to get out the house more. I really don't want to though.

Not really if I'm honest, my head rules a lot of the time which clouds over my judgement.

Hope you start to feel better soon... yeah I'm listening to everyone and taking on board their advice