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Wild Coyote · Sep 11, 2019 at 01:12 AM

Hey Blue, It's just after 2 am. Checking in on you. I hope you are sleeping peacefully.

Sep 11, 2019 at 05:03 AM

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Originally Posted by ~Christina

The Er would be able to help you with your inability to sleep, many medications they could give you.

I have gone a few times in the past because I had gone 4-5 days with virtually no sleep and all meds I had weren’t helping. I know one time an Er doctor realized how desperate I was for sleep and gave me a dose of morphine as my benzo had no effect on my being frantic and twitchy from no sleep and a larger dose IV of Ativan “ I think” there is a benzo called Halcion and it will knock you flat out, it’s not prescribed often although my Pdoc has me on it fir a couple years at one point.

Of course my husband was with me, no way I would have been safe to drive there and legally they can’t give you those meds knowing id need to drive.

Could your parents help you if you just can’t function any longer with no sleep ? Maybe stay with them for a few days ? I know it’s helped you in past to not be alone.

I so hope your able to sleep tonight and it be a deep restorative sleep

That's good to know the ER can help. I suppose I can go if I don't get much sleep. I got 4 hrs last night (albeit 4hrs of broken sleep).

As for my parents -- I don't want to bother them. My grandma is getting a mastectomy tomorrow and my mom is trying to play catch up at work before the surgery. (She runs her own business.) She's been pulling all nighters. So the only one who could help me is my dad. I *could* stay with them, though, I suppose. That's an option indeed.

We'll see how today plays out after my therapist calls me back.

Sep 11, 2019 at 05:37 AM

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Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Hey Blue, It's just after 2 am. Checking in on you. I hope you are sleeping peacefully.

Sorry. I should have posted when I kept waking up... Didn't mean to keep you all in the dark...

I'm waiting for my therapist to call back. She gets in at 6:45am ish and leaves by 2:30pm everyday (except Thursdays). Hopefully she calls me back sooner rather than later. She has called me before at like 6:45am, so I won't count that out, and it's now almost 6:40am.

I would * like* an appt, but she's usually booked solid. She likes to offer "emergency" appts sometimes, whereby she'll stay for an extra hour or so to see someone who desperately needs to see her when she doesn't have any slots left, but even then, people take those slots up. So, I'm pretty much SOL unless I can see another therapist who I've never seen before, but I don't know how to see another therapist. Idk if she has to put in the request or not.

bizi · Sep 11, 2019 at 07:36 AM

I think you would be considered an emergency.
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Wild Coyote · Sep 11, 2019 at 07:59 AM

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Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Sorry. I should have posted when I kept waking up... Didn't mean to keep you all in the dark...

I'm waiting for my therapist to call back. She gets in at 6:45am ish and leaves by 2:30pm everyday (except Thursdays). Hopefully she calls me back sooner rather than later. She has called me before at like 6:45am, so I won't count that out, and it's now almost 6:40am.

I would * like* an appt, but she's usually booked solid. She likes to offer "emergency" appts sometimes, whereby she'll stay for an extra hour or so to see someone who desperately needs to see her when she doesn't have any slots left, but even then, people take those slots up. So, I'm pretty much SOL unless I can see another therapist who I've never seen before, but I don't know how to see another therapist. Idk if she has to put in the request or not.

Good morning!

I didn't feel left in the dark. I was checking in just incase you were awake and needed anything.

Sep 11, 2019 at 09:51 AM

Yeah, I'm fine. Just irritable as f***. And pissed that none of my treatment team seems to care about me. They probably don't give a f*** and just look forward to the paycheck. They're the kind of people who would probably piss on my grave if I died.

Wild Coyote · Sep 11, 2019 at 10:16 AM

Feeling and expressing anger about the inability to get adequate help through your care providers is very healthy!!!
I am glad to see you are angry and are expressing your anger!

That said, you need them to tweak your meds, unless you are going to seek that type of assistance elsewhere?
It appears as though you need a tweak as soon as possible. You don't want to lose your job or hurt your standing there.

Do you think you can channel your anger by using that energy to help you to get in touch with your therapist and/or your pdoc? It seems you trust your therapist more. Call her!

I hope I am not antagonizing you. I care and I want to see you get better as soon as possible I do not want something detrimental happen in your life because of this.

yellow_fleurs · Sep 11, 2019 at 10:23 AM

I'm sorry you're not getting the help you need right now. Did your therapist ever call back? I hope they do, if not maybe you can call before they leave for the day and explain you feel you need help now not later. As others said there's always the ER. I hope you continue to try to keep yourself out of situations that could lead to actions your would regret like driving. Stay safe and check in as much as you need!

Sep 11, 2019 at 12:03 PM

I've called my therapist 3 times. Well, left her voicemail 3 times. She has not responded to a single one of them, and there is no voicemail message thing that says she's out of the office. So, I'm led to believe she doesn't care either.

Kinda sucks when you try to reach out for help and then no one cares. Like, what's the point in even seeing mental health providers if they're just going to ignore you because they don't care?

yellow_fleurs · Sep 11, 2019 at 12:18 PM

I'm sorry she hasn't responded. I would hope she'd call back quickly in this kind of situation. Is she usually responsive to calls? Is there anyone at a front desk you can reach to check if she's received the voicemails?

Sep 11, 2019 at 12:26 PM

Thanks for the advice, but I'm thinking about leaving her a 4th voicemail and saying "don't f***ing bother" because she obviously doesn't care and I don't want to talk to someone who doesn't care.

She normally responds to phone calls in the morning, but obviously not today. And she's going to be gone for the day soon, too. I have never received a call from her past 10am ish. I feel like I'm wasting my time with these people, with meds, with everything.

Wild Coyote · Sep 11, 2019 at 01:21 PM

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Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Thanks for the advice, but I'm thinking about leaving her a 4th voicemail and saying "don't f***ing bother" because she obviously doesn't care and I don't want to talk to someone who doesn't care.

She normally responds to phone calls in the morning, but obviously not today. And she's going to be gone for the day soon, too. I have never received a call from her past 10am ish. I feel like I'm wasting my time with these people, with meds, with everything.

Do not let her off the hook.
Doing so only confuses the situation .

You have a better case for confronting her if you do not let her off the hook!

I know you don't want to call your doctor again. What will you do to have your med(s) adjusted? How can you get the help you need?

Concerned ~

Sep 11, 2019 at 03:03 PM

Ok, so I mentioned in the check-in thread a while ago that I asked my therapy office to ping my therapist. She got back to me and said she "forgot" to respond to me. Yeah, "forgot"... I'm not buying that.

I told the office to ping her because it was like 2:30pm and I knew she had left for the day. I didn't actually think they would ping her, but I figured I'd give it a shot?

Anyway, I now have an appt for tomorrow @ 10:45am... Hopefully it goes well. Thanks to everyone for being supportive.

I'm not going to go to work meeting. I'm going to say I'm "feeling sick" and can only do a video call.

Victoria'smom · Sep 11, 2019 at 03:05 PM

Good luck tomorrow.

Moose72 · Sep 11, 2019 at 10:36 PM

Im glad you got an appointment for tomorrow! I hope your appointment goes well.

Wild Coyote · Sep 12, 2019 at 02:23 AM

I hope you have gotten some sleep. Please be careful driving this morning! i hope you will get your needs met today.
I'll be waiting to hear the good news!

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Wild Coyote Legendary Community Liaison Member Since Jun 2016 Location: USA Posts: 12,735 (SuperPoster!) 7 70.9k hugs given	Sep 11, 2019 at 01:12 AM #41 Hey Blue, It's just after 2 am. Checking in on you. I hope you are sleeping peacefully. __________________ May we each fully claim the courage to live from our hearts, to allow Love, Faith and Hope to enLighten our paths.
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Anonymous35014 Guest Posts: n/a	Sep 11, 2019 at 09:51 AM #46 Yeah, I'm fine. Just irritable as f*. And pissed that none of my treatment team seems to care about me. They probably don't give a f* and just look forward to the paycheck. They're the kind of people who would probably piss on my grave if I died.
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yellow_fleurs Grand Poohbah Member Since Jun 2018 Location: US Posts: 1,512 5 1,265 hugs given	Sep 11, 2019 at 12:18 PM #50 I'm sorry she hasn't responded. I would hope she'd call back quickly in this kind of situation. Is she usually responsive to calls? Is there anyone at a front desk you can reach to check if she's received the voicemails?
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Victoria'smom Legendary Member Since Apr 2012 Location: Earth Posts: 14,904 (SuperPoster!) 12 5,436 hugs given	Sep 11, 2019 at 03:05 PM #54 Good luck tomorrow. __________________ Dx: Me- SzA Husband- Bipolar 1 Daughter- mood disorder+ Comfortable broken and happy "So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk My blog
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Wild Coyote Legendary Community Liaison Member Since Jun 2016 Location: USA Posts: 12,735 (SuperPoster!) 7 70.9k hugs given	Sep 12, 2019 at 02:23 AM #56 I hope you have gotten some sleep. Please be careful driving this morning! i hope you will get your needs met today. I'll be waiting to hear the good news! __________________ May we each fully claim the courage to live from our hearts, to allow Love, Faith and Hope to enLighten our paths.
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