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I dunno if my mood is up or not. I think maybe. I went to bed at 9pm but kept waking up after 20-40 mins of sleeping, and when I did wake up, I'd stay up for like an hour or two. Eventually, I gave up on trying to sleep around 2:30am because I figured it was pointless to try sleeping, so who knows how much sleep I actually got.
I didn't realize how reckless I was being this morning until after the fact. I drove 95mph to work this morning at 4:30am when the speed limit here (in Massachusetts) is 55 (yeah, not even 65!!), weaving in and out of traffic. Then I went 55 mph on the local roads that were marked at 30mph. I shaved off 6 mins of my commute time of 19 mins. So basically, just over 10 mins to work.. like half the time it normally takes. lol. I'm feeling wiiiiiiired. I took a Ritalin anyway though. Not sure why because my focus is incredible and I really don't need it right now. But I think it was more out of habit than anything. (i.e., I blindly took it without thinking too much.) Now my heart is racing and I have so many thoughts in my head. Well, I had lots of thoughts last night. They were mostly things like, "hmmm, wouldn't it be cool if I could do _____? Ohhh, wait! Noooo, what about _____ instead? But I kinda wanna do _____ and _____ as well. I don't know what to do!" And I should have suspected something was off when I was looking forward to work last night. I wanted to go to bed early so that I could go into the office early and do work early in the morning. But like... since WHEN do I look forward to driving to work? I prefer working from home because I'm a lazy bum! wtf. Also, I probably should not have sped to work. I could have gotten pulled over! I was already pulled over earlier this year for going somewhere between 37 and 43mph in a 30mph zone on my way to work, soooooo... yeahhhh. I was doing 55 in a 30 this time, and I even passed a guy on a double solid line because he was driving 35 in one of the 45 mph zones and I wanted to do 60 (which I did). And no, I have no PRN. I see my pdoc on Thursday. (It just happens that I have my monthly pdoc appt on Thursday.) Sorry for rambling. lol! |
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Hi bluebicyle. It's good you're now aware of your speeding. Please make a conscious effort to not go over 5 mph beyond the speed limit on your way home. You don't want anyone hurt and I imagine a ticket would be a major bummer.
Is Ritalin a PRN medication? If so, consider putting that medication elsewhere until you REALLY need it. Take care! |
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Yeah, I am going to try not to speed. It's a bit hard to resist the temptation, though. I find it thrilling to weave in and out of traffic because it's fun and a challenge.
And no, Ritalin is not PRN. I've been taking it for quite some time now. I think maybe 2 years? I take it for ADHD because my concentration is normally really bad without it. |
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Thanks, fern.
Part of the problem is that I have so many things I want to do. I have so many things on my mind right now and I want to do them ALL, but we are limited to 24 hrs in a day and I don't want to waste precious time. Books, internet, TV, movies, texting, emails, work, buying, building, fixing... |
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Yes, stay safe, bluebicycle. I am sure you know this already! I completely agree with all the other wise and wonderful posters have already wisely and wonderfully said BETTER THAN I EVER COULD! Be careful while driving. Take WONDERFUL care of yourself. Stay safe! I am here if you need me. Feel free to PM me anytime for advice and support. I am sure plenty of others will be glad to WONDERFULLY help you! You know we're ALL your friends here! THAT'S A PROMISE! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH You, bluebicycle, Your Family, Your Friends, Your Doctors, Your Medical staff, ALL The People You Love And Care About Who ALSO Love You And Care About You As Well And ALL of Your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking!
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Am I the only one whose mind is screaming "She's manic!"??
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Another concern besides a ticket could be getting arrested. If you are speeding that much, passing on double lines, and weaving through traffic, it’s considered careless/reckless driving and a whole different category of illegal.
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Stay safe blue, it definitely sounds like you're at least hypomanic. I'm a little out of date since being IP, are you still taking the rexulti? If not are you at least willing to go back on it or something else to quell this? Can call your therapist or pdoc to come up with a game plan before something bad happens?
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HI Blue, Please be careful. You don't want the many headaches that can come along with car accidents, injuries, potential deaths, police involvment, insurance hassles, injury recovery, lawsuits, attorneys when others or their property are involved, etc. It can all go on and on for a very long time. You don't want this or anything like it.
Have you tried cruise control when driving when you feel like this? Or maybe stay home to wrk at home on days like this? Trouble is, youprobably feel like driving in more than ever when you feel like this! I like fern46's ideas about writing things down and pacing yourself while you also practice self-care. Great advice! If your pdoc appt is a few days away, be careful and if you feel like things are "weird," as you have said to me, then please call him. What does he usually order to help you? seroquel? If so, do you have any on hand? I know you hate it. I do , too. Yet, we cannot mess up our lives by ignoring these types of mood swings. Keep us posted! You know you can reach me if I can help in any way. Love Ya! Do you have food to eat at home? What will you do tonight with your extra energy? __________________ May we each fully claim the courage to live from our hearts, to allow Love, Faith and Hope to enLighten our paths. |
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Stay safe blue.
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I agree with everyone. Can’t think to add anything other than, please stay safe fir yourself and others
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Thanks for the support, everyone.
I agree that maybe I am getting manic... I left a voicemail for my pdoc around I think 4:30am this morning. Well, I left a voicemail for his useless assistant who can never get my name right. (It's not that she mispronounces it; she just calls me the completely wrong name!) I wish I could talk to HIM instead of her. She's just a pointless barrier. None of the other pdocs I've had at this office seem to have an "assistant." Anyway, we'll see what she says. I told her about the sleep, the overwhelming thoughts, restlessness, speeding, etc.. I also mentioned that I have an appt with my pdoc on Thursday @ 9:45am. So, it's not a *huge* deal if I can't get in for an appt sooner. I just have to hold out for the next 48 hrs. In fact, a couple of members on this site recommended that I work from home these next few days so I don't do anything reckless. Thus, I am working from home until I see my pdoc. I really don't wanna drive too fast again. I "toned it down" a little by driving 85 in a 55 yesterday on my way home and NO weaving... but I suppose 85 was a bit reckless... |
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I'm glad you're working from home. Hopefully pdoc can give you a prn or something until you see him.
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good judgement on your part blue.
hope you get a response from your pdoc to help with this episode. (((((HUGS))))) bizi __________________ 150mg of lamictal 2x a day haldol 5mg 2x a day 1mg of cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, 4-5 peri-colace for chronic constipation multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine at noon PRN Remeron 15mg at night, zyprexa10mg under tongue, requip2mg. |
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I left another voicemail telling this "assistant" lady to never mind. She won't call me back any time soon anyways. She is lazy and gets my name wrong all the time. And the last time she called, she was nasty to me.
I'm just going to go to the pharmacy to buy some Benadryl and melatonin. |
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I am sorry you have given up so soon. Nobody has been at the office for very long this morning. I do know it is aggravating to have the woman forget your name every time you call..
You see your pdoc tomorrow in 2 days? Thursday? If you feel any symptoms more intensely, please consider calling again. i hope you have/will check any potential interactions with diphenhydramine (Benadryl) and your other meds. Melatonin, too. It pays to be safe Have you ever told your pdoc about your experiences with his assistant?. If I was the pdoc, I'd want to know if my patients are experiencing any issues with the person(s) I have left in charge of screening for patient needs/care. I would want to know if the person(s) were over-stepping in their role and were "diagnosing" my clients status when my clients call. It is very important that clients feel they are heard and they can access their pdoc when they are in need. This is very important in establishing/continuing a healthy, therapeutic relationship between the client and the pdoc. Just a thought. How is your concentration today? Able to get some work done? I hope you will keep an eye on things and will call your pdoc again if you recognize any further upswing in sx. We are here for you!!! :hug; __________________ May we each fully claim the courage to live from our hearts, to allow Love, Faith and Hope to enLighten our paths. Last edited by Wild Coyote; Sep 10, 2019 at 12:20 PM.. |
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