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#681
Whatever, I admire you for the effort you're putting into the OA group. I have toyed with the idea of starting a bipolar support group at the college here (My son attends as a sophomore and my wife works in the alumni dept.) but I'm afraid of committing to it. It probably wouldn't get approved anyhow since I am neither student nor staff.
Anyhow, I was just dropping by to report that I'm leaving for ECT fairly early tomorrow morning so may not have time to greet the day here. Not knowing how I'll feel after I get back from the procedure, I should wish you all a good weekend now. __________________ >< |
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#682
I am still feeling depressed, but a bit better. I had therapy yesterday followed by a walk in the park with a friend then Thai food. I got a tofu red curry. Yum!
Therapy went well. I have been struggling lately and my therapist told me I have fused with my obsessive thoughts and need to seperate myself again. This is true I think. When it gets bad I just believe them instead of just worrying they might be true. She said I am basically traumatizing myself with the doubt. While I wouldn't say I totally agree it's that bad it definitely is messing with my head a lot. She also said I need to start ERP therapy for OCD so hopefully I can improve with that. I see a lot of people here are struggling so I am sending extra compassion to everyone! |
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Spent the day quietly hoping to get some major housework done but only was able to do a little due to exhaustion. I guess i have to rest and get my mojo back before i can get anything major done. I ate better today as i got up at 6:30am but went back to bed til 8:00am -- just rested, didn't sleep but it still did me good as i got up and was able to eat a large serving of mango and some dry multi-grain Cheerios. Have been having epic trouble eating breakfast recently, even getting the dry heaves from water. Guess i just can't eat at 6:00am but at 8:00am it's possible, even enjoyable!
Was a bit worried to read about WildFlowerChild25's diabetes symptoms -- worried for her, of course, but also for myself, as i have also been having those same symptoms. I had a blood test done last week but not sure if my doctor tested my sugars. Will look into it. Have been drinking liter after liter of water. It's embarrassing how much. Late into my Overeaters Anonymous around 11:00am when i'm able to drink for the first time that day, once the nausea has passed and i get thirsty, i have been belting it back like i'm dying of dehydration! Before i discovered the nice glass carafe in the kitchen there with the nifty mugs and started using them for water i was drinking out of this old Gatorade bottle and it made such a tremendous racket in the quiet room (crackle-crackle-crackle went the plastic as i squeezed it) with some poor woman pouring her soul out and i felt like a horse's ***!!! Hugs to all the anxious girls on Earth!!! |
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#684
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You have been on my mind today. Wanted to get a PM to you this morning. I did not recall anything I'd shared until you'd written this. I went back and looked. I have some moments that are worse than others. Things have fluctuated throughout the day. After having written a couple of short posts again now, I am rapidly getting very weary. Until I can get to you personally, Please know you and yours are in my thoughts and my prayers. __________________ May we each fully claim the courage to live from our hearts, to allow Love, Faith and Hope to enLighten our paths. |
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#685
Checking in. I’ve been MIA for a few days because I was trying to get things ready for my daughter’s visit. I made significant progress in that pesky den and should have it completely cleared within a week. Yay!
My lifecoach agreed to stay off Facebook for awhile and recommended that I take a number of selfies and pics with my daughter and have one framed for her apartment and one for my home so that’s what we’re doing tomorrow. We’ve been running around today having a blast enjoying fall activities and flavors: fresh apple cider, pumpkin spice doughnuts and lattes, decorating pumpkins, baking pumpkin seeds. It’s been a radically good day as I’ve listed in my mood log. Warm wishes to all and hugs to those that are struggling. |
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Those activities sound super fun! I bought some apple cider and did some autumn cooking. The last time I carved a pumpkin, the poor pumpkin dude/gal really needed a makeover. I've been just arranging the gourds, instead. My husband doesn't like seeds, for some reason. I do. But he sure loves nuts ! |
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#687
I'm exhausted. Was gone from 11to 7 for wedding dress shopping. There was hundreds of dresses! My daughter pick a very lovely one, one that hanging on the hanger I didn't care for but when she put it on, wow. Mostly I was sitting but nevertheless the back was hurting so bad. I worry about getting though the wedding itself.. That and the expense.
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#688
Met with my old therapist and that went well. I talked a lot and caught her up, it had been 6 months that I had seen her before. I see her again in 2 weeks. I am struggling with chewing on my cuticles and injuring myself. my right thumb is awful....I chewed the sh!!!t out of it yesterday. and it hurts so bad when I use fingernail polish remover for my job..ouch!
I have been drinking too much and gaining weight. not good. I have an addictive personality. Alcohol, food, internet, picking all OCD type behaviors. sigh bizi __________________ 150mg of lamictal 2x a day haldol 5mg 2x a day 1mg of cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, 4-5 peri-colace for chronic constipation multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine at noon PRN Remeron 15mg at night, zyprexa10mg under tongue, requip2mg. |
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#689
I'm feeling a bit better since I spoke to my Sister, Psychiatrist, Peer Worker and Counsellor. I'm seeing my counsellor next week and my peer worker in a few weeks. Still waiting on my meds the NHS isn't very quick. Been 3 days still no meds how am I meant to get better if I don't have the meds huh.
I still don't want to be here and I'm still wanting to write letters to everyone but I know it's not the answer |
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#690
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Glad you're doing well __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#691
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I hope your back feels better soon. Are you guys planning a large wedding or something? |
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I'm also glad you're able to recognize that writing letters is not the answer. It takes a lot of strength to admit that. I hope you're able to get the meds ASAP. Does it normally take this long to get meds in the U.K.? I'm in the U.S., so I don't know. |
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#693
I worked for 11.5 hours yesterday due to someone else's bad planning
__________________ * Dx: Unspecified Bipolar and Related Disorder * Rx: Remeron, Prozac, Klonopin, Vraylar My avatar picture is a photo of the Whirlpool Galaxy I took in April 2023. I dedicated this photo to my sister who passed away in July 2016. |
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bizi, I am glad you are back to seeing your therapist. It seems like more support would be really helpful for you. Remind me, do you go to AA? I know it's not for everyone, but it can help.
I have very minor compulsive and addictive behaviors. They used to be worse, but eased (but not disappeared). You are not alone in having more than one habit, like you described. Coincidentally, my brother-in-law has always chewed his cuticles. His fingers look terrible! I grind and clench my teeth, which has been problematic. Both my brother-in-law and I abused alcohol. My eating also increases with stress. Isn't hard to not do something? |
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#695
Not large no, but it's getting more elaborate by the day. She has only one bridesmaid but there were 6 of us with her yesterday. Me, mother of the bride, mother of the groom, bridesmaid, cousin and justice of the peace, two friends. It was a proper Say yes to the dress.the attendant we had couldn't have been nicer. Yes, she has good taste, very elegant. Not like her hippie mom at all.
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#696
Have plans to have dinner and see a movie with a friend tonight. Kind of nervous because it's been forever since I've hung out with anyone but it should be nice. I managed to get some pretty good sleep despite all the panic attacks I had yesterday. I spent a couple hours just listening to music and it was very helpful. I have really good quality headphones and enjoy using them (beyerdynamic). Drawing has been helping with my anxiety as well. And of course reading too.
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#697
my shower today caused me no end of backpain.
also today my internet went down, and that messed up my alexa (why can't alexa just connect herself?. she's meant to be so clever and stuff) irritated me too because I had to deal with my emails offline, and delay sending of them. stomach is feeling better today which is good (I hate when it hurts), and I guess my mood's okay, fibro pain is really bad though |
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#699
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I am sorry you are experiencing difficulty obtaining meds. Why do you have to wait until Monday? Is there any chance you can call the nurse andor the doctor and tell them you need meds sooner I am sorry, I may have missed some of your ongoing story. I hope you can access meds asap. Please exhaust any avenue in getting the meds as soon as possble. We are here for you, Miss Laura. __________________ May we each fully claim the courage to live from our hearts, to allow Love, Faith and Hope to enLighten our paths. |
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