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Default Nov 17, 2019 at 05:21 PM
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It doesn't sound stuckup at all, and I'm really sorry you had to go through that. I'm happy for you that at least the omega 3 is helping to some extent.

I don't know if you like Star Trek at all, but have you seen that Voyager episode called Riddles where Tuvok loses most of his skills and memory? The cognitive decline thing always kind of reminds me of that, and his frustration is really relatable... (Hope that wasn't too nerdy. )


Just watched the voyager episode....pretty good and emotionally accurate.

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I feel I was correctly diagnosed because it only takes one manic episode to be considered bipolar, you don’t need the depression. Plus genetically I have a lot of bipolar and sz markers, some rare. According to the pdoc it’s the meds keeping my moods in check because APs can be a mood stabilizer. They thought I might have a transient psychosis due to work place pressure originally which is why they allowed me to taper meds down to zero. I tried twice, the first time I went from ten to 7.5 to 5mg....at five mg I was just the most irritable I’ve ever been in my life...I suspect I was still manic. So we went back up to 7.5 my last working dose and stuck with it for a year. My first pdoc was all about getting me off the meds. So two years out we tried again, it took at least a year to taper for me...we were going to do it right this time. I was off meds for nine months then I started getting psychosis again. There was no indication of mania, I just started hearing knocking all the time, the occasional music or hello out of no where. So whatever it is is recurring psychosis. I went back on 7.5mg to stop it before it fully started. This is why I normally post in the psychosis forum. I feel it’s the main problem not the moods but technically I’m bipolar so occasionally I post here. I personally feel I’m long cycling. There is another guy kinda like this called Mark Vonnegut, Kurt Vonnegut’s son. He’s a doctor now but had like six month of psychosis, recovered for like twenty years without meds then relapsed....this was in two books, one was eden express. Anyway he was originally diagnosed sz then later bipolar.
Makes sense. Thanks for sharing. I am wondering if I might have a similar type of cycle. So far, I haven't had any psychosis creep back up. I stay vigilant though because I know there is no cure and relapse can come at any time.
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Makes sense. Thanks for sharing. I am wondering if I might have a similar type of cycle. So far, I haven't had any psychosis creep back up. I stay vigilant though because I know there is no cure and relapse can come at any time.


I hope you never have psychosis again. Are you off meds? If so how long? My understanding is relapse typically occurs within a year off meds if it’s going to happen at least based on psychosis research but there’s so little out there. The vigilance is the worst, in some ways I was jumping at every sound off meds...

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I hope you never have psychosis again. Are you off meds? If so how long? My understanding is relapse typically occurs within a year off meds if it’s going to happen at least based on psychosis research but there’s so little out there. The vigilance is the worst, in some ways I was jumping at every sound off meds...
Thanks! Me too. I was on the lowest dose possible of Geodon for 9 months and then I tapered off in September. So it seems it is just too soon to tell at this point. I could never tell if the meds were doing anything for me or not.

My mother had an episode similar to mine about 15 years ago. She refused her diagnosis and never took meds. She hasn't had another episode since. She was going through menopause at the time. My doctor was thinking it is possible she and I are ultra sensitive to hormonal swings. That wouldn't surprise me. All meds hit me hard and birth control made me feel like a raging B for months until I adjusted.

Yes, the vigilance can feel daunting, but I'm framing it in my mind as the service I am offering myself and my family so that we never have to experience the trauma we went through before. It feels less like work when I just view it as something proactive I'm doing to help myself catch any off behavior before it spirals out of control.
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Just watched the voyager episode....pretty good and emotionally accurate.

Yeah, I thought so too. Only, being Star Trek, everything is of course AOK in the end. Too bad real life isn't like that.


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Yes, the vigilance can feel daunting, but I'm framing it in my mind as the service I am offering myself and my family so that we never have to experience the trauma we went through before. It feels less like work when I just view it as something proactive I'm doing to help myself catch any off behavior before it spirals out of control.

I tend to find that the most motivating attitude as well. My kids are a major motivation for me to get treatment. Otherwise I'm not sure if I would have, honestly.
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My memory and thinking problems go in extended cycles. At one end, I have allot of trouble coming up with words to express my thoughts, I feel that it is a challenge to put a five letter word together. On the other end, out of nowhere, these large words can pop out of my mouth, nit realizing until then that I actually understand what they mean, One one end, simple things can confuse me, At the other end of the cycle, solutions can come to me on more complex problems. Unfortunately, my being able to utilize my innate intelligence does not last long. Did you know that I actually failed an IQ test when I was younger? LOL

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