i have now "fatted-out" of leaving my home and can't keep to a schedule

i find when i go out i am soooooooo exhausted when i come home i can barely attend to my dog. i went out to an art studio yesterday. there was more walking than i expected. i can't walk very far. i'm in such pain a few hours after i walk! i'm 227 pounds at my last weigh in, 5'3" and 53, in peri-menopause. my muscles feel wasted. i haven't been eating much protein. i had a protein shake today, 25g of protein and will try and have another. maybe the lack of protein has me feeling so weak.

i feel old and weak and vulnerable and helpless.

it seems all i can do is attend to my physical health. eat right (which i'm not doing very good at except for rediscovering my love for Granny Smith apples) and exercise (which i am not doing anything at except for the harmful walking).

i think i'll have to suspend my life until i get some physical strength back. i must get in our pool. walking is too painful.

i also can't keep to a schedule which i know would be so helpful and make me feel so much healthier and vanquish the terrible feelings of chaos and being out-of-control. surprisingly i have made some progress here with getting up at 8:00am for a while now. this is definitely an improvement. i just joined the cell phone generation and use the bedtime function to wake me up with a gentle "droplets" tune. it's so charming. jarring traditional alarm clocks blow.

just need some support, some kind words of encouragement.

I support you in this journey. I know it is hard to imagine doing more when your body is screaming at you to stop.

I think the pool is a wonderful idea! I did a lot of running through the water this summer and it was a great workout.

I made a post a while back in the physical check in thread of some low impact workouts people can do while sitting. Yes!!! Couch workouts Several people here are having trouble with their ankles and knees and I wanted to offer some options for movement that hopefully wouldn't be as painful. Let me know of you're interested and I'll dig it up for you.

You may have to struggle through a bit of pain for a while at the beginning of any sort of exercise plan. I know I experienced this over the summer when I began circuit training. It took a while for my body to get used to it, but it was a good kind of hurt if that makes any sense whatsoever.

If you're up to using your phone more the MyFitnessPal app is great. You can type in pretty much any food and it gives you the nutritional info. It also helps you to set nutritional goals and track your food and exercise as you go. I was doing great with it a while back and then I dropped off for a while. I've gained s few lbs back, so if you want to try it we can do it together. I find it helpful to have a buddy along for the journey.

I'm glad you joined us in the physical check in thread. Happy to have you along for the ride

I think Fern ( as always ) brings up some very important ideas to bring exercise into our lives while we deal with pain.

Just go day by day and yes if you have access to pool that is the best exercise possible.

I think the pool is a great idea. Pain is so discouraging. I think you are right to focus on setting up a routine/schedule and getting more protein.

You're not fat. I refuse to believe that. You are very close to my height and weight. I don't know what your level of activity has been, but my guess is that your suffering is being caused by past inactivity, not your weight. I know weight is a factor but it is possible to be extremely active at this weight. Feeling fat does not mean you ARE fat.

Hoping you find the encouragement you are looking for, and that you find your way forward in your life.

@unicornlady: Thanks so much! Yes, the physical frailty is probably due in part to being depressed and inert for the first eight months of this year. Glad to hear you are finding it possible to be active at this height + weight. Maybe i just need to work on my fitness???

We have a lovely gym and i must get down there this very evening to try something out. There's a good performance bike that might be an option. It'll take the pressure off my delicate feet and lower legs but will give me a sore ***! But it'll be a nice change of scenery from my apartment and be an activity i can do without leaving the property.

Here's to fat and fit!

I did the elliptical! First time i have tried it! It is FUN! I did one lap. It's really good for the quads! My legs feel all rubbery! Here's to health at every size!

Way to go! I love the elliptical. I wish I still had access to one. Enjoy

You can stay in the shallow end and just hold the side and kick your legs.

Elliptical will always be my favorite, less joint stress .. good for you going

Hey @whatever2013 are you unhappy with your weight? Do you feel like your goal is weight loss, pain management or overall quality of life improvement?

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Originally Posted by whatever2013 i find when i go out i am soooooooo exhausted when i come home i can barely attend to my dog. i went out to an art studio yesterday. there was more walking than i expected. i can't walk very far. i'm in such pain a few hours after i walk! i'm 227 pounds at my last weigh in, 5'3" and 53, in peri-menopause. my muscles feel wasted. i haven't been eating much protein. i had a protein shake today, 25g of protein and will try and have another. maybe the lack of protein has me feeling so weak. i feel old and weak and vulnerable and helpless. it seems all i can do is attend to my physical health. eat right (which i'm not doing very good at except for rediscovering my love for Granny Smith apples) and exercise (which i am not doing anything at except for the harmful walking). i think i'll have to suspend my life until i get some physical strength back. i must get in our pool. walking is too painful. i also can't keep to a schedule which i know would be so helpful and make me feel so much healthier and vanquish the terrible feelings of chaos and being out-of-control. surprisingly i have made some progress here with getting up at 8:00am for a while now. this is definitely an improvement. i just joined the cell phone generation and use the bedtime function to wake me up with a gentle "droplets" tune. it's so charming. jarring traditional alarm clocks blow. just need some support, some kind words of encouragement.