[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Just got the phone call from the clinic, no infection, no cancer, just and ulcer and some spots of concern. I have to follow up with my dr and probably on on a proton pump pill. So whew.

That's great! I'm sure you're relieved!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Just got the phone call from the clinic, no infection, no cancer, just and ulcer and some spots of concern. I have to follow up with my dr and probably on on a proton pump pill. So whew.

Wow! Great news!
I am so happy for you!

I order a lot of gifts online. I had accumulated a number of unopened boxes and decided to open and wrap them this morning. It was the third one I opened. Inside was a cookbook of a fairly well-known cooking site/publisher. I hadn't ordered a cookbook! I started reading the accompanying cover letter to discover that a recipe I submitted was included. I submit a lot of recipes for contests and online publication. Which one did they publish? It wasn't written on the cover letter, so I started to leaf through. Of all the recipes, it was my husband's rhubarb strudel recipe. He bakes only that and an Easter bread. Otherwise, I'm the sole baker/cook of the house, and they publish HIS recipe! Good grief!

I'm happy for hubby, but yea, a little jealous. At least I can say that my accompanying story likely helped "sell" it.

Hubby is home today through the Christmas holiday. I decorated our front door and dining room wreaths. I may add fresh flowers to the one in the dining room. They still need to go up.

Originally Posted by Nammu

Just got the phone call from the clinic, no infection, no cancer, just and ulcer and some spots of concern. I have to follow up with my dr and probably on on a proton pump pill. So whew.

What a relief! I'm happy that you will have far less to worry about during the holidays.

[Sunflower123]

Feeling much better since they doubled my Vraylar. It helped that I had a great session with my T yesterday.

Getting everything ready for M to come home Saturday. It’s a good thing as I haven’t gotten but one gift for Christmas (I despise any kind of shopping but online). We’ll go out together Saturday and it will be fun and tolerable.

Recovering nicely from my fall. It’s just a big, bruised goose egg now.

I’ve worn my hair really long for years and I decided to get a short bob today. It feels incredible having that weight gone and weird at the same time. Overall, I’m pleased.

Warm wishes to all for a good night’s rest and a peaceful day tomorrow.

[Moose72]

Got the tree decorated finally!

[yellow_fleurs]

My pdoc's office called back and I am scheduled for the end of January. I asked if I needed to do any new patient paperwork and they said not to worry about it. They know me pretty well at this point, so I think they didn't see the point in making me do all that. I mean I was seeing this pdoc weekly for awhile. I am feeling good about this, and I'll have some time to write up what I want to discuss when I visit. It helps that I have more insight into the OCD now and am not completely lost as to what's going on in my brain, so I'll be able to explain all of that.

Feeling a little irritable today, I think too much caffeine plus sugar. However, I have started to eat full breakfasts that include protein and I do think that's helping with my anxiety and focus throughout the day.

Due to the OCD and all the other issues, I have not been as active in my community and what is going on around the world as I normally would be because the news would trigger me into a really bad place and then I would be incapacitated. At that point I felt I was unable to keep up with basic tasks and be a good family member, friend, worker, etc. So I had to kind of focus on that first. I am hoping I am at a point where I can become more aware and involved, and pay attention to what's going on more (it'll be a form of exposure therapy in a way) and still remain functioning mentally. So, that is a plan of mine.

[Victoria'smom]

I need to write to T from now on. Whether she reads it or not is besides the point. Today I didn't say anything important. I'm getting frustrating myself.

Today was a little better (I used some of the tricks my therapist and @whatever2013 mentioned). I had some very overwhelming moments and really wish I could call in tomorrow. At least I will have Saturday off. I don't know how to handle this job. I feel like I'm drowning with every call I get. I gotta get a hold of myself, I'm losing it. I'm doing alright other than that. I just hope to end the year on a good note, not excess worry and stress.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Wander

I’ve fallen of a cliff emotionally. My mood has tanked and SI flood me. The needle worked but for some reason (probably psychological stress) I’m drowning. I can’t stop crying. Christmas is always a bad time for me. Bad memories. I broke down talking to the registrar and he has put me on close observations ( I’m IP right now). I’m in a very dangerous head space. I don’t know exactly why now as I felt great after the injection. I did have a couple of very triggering conversations yesterday. Now I’m in trouble. I’m going to stress my family out by being sick for Christmas. But the other option is far worse. I’m feeling too much, too deeply. I can’t cope. I’m overwhelmed. I don’t even think the hospital and staff can stop this rapid decline. Thankfully I’m too exhausted to run away, but I want to. I’m trapped. Words fail. It’s bad, really bad.

I’m sorry Are you feeling any better yet?

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Just got the phone call from the clinic, no infection, no cancer, just and ulcer and some spots of concern. I have to follow up with my dr and probably on on a proton pump pill. So whew.

Good news !!!! Yep another pill ... but a much needed one

[fern46]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Feeling much better since they doubled my Vraylar. It helped that I had a great session with my T yesterday.

Getting everything ready for M to come home Saturday. It’s a good thing as I haven’t gotten but one gift for Christmas (I despise any kind of shopping but online). We’ll go out together Saturday and it will be fun and tolerable.

Recovering nicely from my fall. It’s just a big, bruised goose egg now.

I’ve worn my hair really long for years and I decided to get a short bob today. It feels incredible having that weight gone and weird at the same time. Overall, I’m pleased.

Warm wishes to all for a good night’s rest and a peaceful day tomorrow.

It is always a strange feeling when you wash it for the first time. Your hands run down to wash the rest and then you realize it's gone.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

I order a lot of gifts online. I had accumulated a number of unopened boxes and decided to open and wrap them this morning. It was the third one I opened. Inside was a cookbook of a fairly well-known cooking site/publisher. I hadn't ordered a cookbook! I started reading the accompanying cover letter to discover that a recipe I submitted was included. I submit a lot of recipes for contests and online publication. Which one did they publish? It wasn't written on the cover letter, so I started to leaf through. Of all the recipes, it was my husband's rhubarb strudel recipe. He bakes only that and an Easter bread. Otherwise, I'm the sole baker/cook of the house, and they publish HIS recipe! Good grief!


I'm happy for hubby, but yea, a little jealous. At least I can say that my accompanying story likely helped "sell" it.


Hubby is home today through the Christmas holiday. I decorated our front door and dining room wreaths. I may add fresh flowers to the one in the dining room. They still need to go up.

Very cool about the book ! But o think your cookies would have been better !!!

Enjoy having more time with your husband, it’s nice he has time off.

[yellow_fleurs]

Wander I am sorry, I hope you're feeling better.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Feeling much better since they doubled my Vraylar. It helped that I had a great session with my T yesterday.


Getting everything ready for M to come home Saturday. It’s a good thing as I haven’t gotten but one gift for Christmas (I despise any kind of shopping but online). We’ll go out together Saturday and it will be fun and tolerable.


Recovering nicely from my fall. It’s just a big, bruised goose egg now.


I’ve worn my hair really long for years and I decided to get a short bob today. It feels incredible having that weight gone and weird at the same time. Overall, I’m pleased.


Warm wishes to all for a good night’s rest and a peaceful day tomorrow.

Glad your feeling better and have many things planned out

New hair styles can always give us a boost.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Got the tree decorated finally!

I bet it’s beautiful !

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs

My pdoc's office called back and I am scheduled for the end of January. I asked if I needed to do any new patient paperwork and they said not to worry about it. They know me pretty well at this point, so I think they didn't see the point in making me do all that. I mean I was seeing this pdoc weekly for awhile. I am feeling good about this, and I'll have some time to write up what I want to discuss when I visit. It helps that I have more insight into the OCD now and am not completely lost as to what's going on in my brain, so I'll be able to explain all of that.


Feeling a little irritable today, I think too much caffeine plus sugar. However, I have started to eat full breakfasts that include protein and I do think that's helping with my anxiety and focus throughout the day.


Due to the OCD and all the other issues, I have not been as active in my community and what is going on around the world as I normally would be because the news would trigger me into a really bad place and then I would be incapacitated. At that point I felt I was unable to keep up with basic tasks and be a good family member, friend, worker, etc. So I had to kind of focus on that first. I am hoping I am at a point where I can become more aware and involved, and pay attention to what's going on more (it'll be a form of exposure therapy in a way) and still remain functioning mentally. So, that is a plan of mine.

So glad you have an appt set up , one less thing to worry about !

You have good insight and can make good choices to get back on track

[Nammu]

My oldest sister came over today. I made my shrimp pasta lunch and she did dishes. She ended up deep cleaning the sink. I've never seen it so white! She's a little Dynamo once she gets going on cleaning she can't stop. Was nice to have her over tho.

[~Christina]

Busy day .. had to go get the mail stopped. Then on to Hellmart to get tires rotated and balanced. Well I couldn’t find the original receipts of buying the tires, we always buy the lifetime rotate, balance ... guy was looking it up and wasn’t finding it .... I think I might have flirted a bit ?! Anyway I didn’t have to pay 48.00 so it’s all goooooood LOL

Picked up my meds and grabbed some snacks for the drive and just threw wings in my Airfryer

I might over serve myself some Xanax tonight , I really need at least 6 hours I’d prefer 12 but I’ll take any I can get.

My pain is terrible today. I insisted my husband stay home and work on his back it’s been out since Saturday !! He’s in awful pain. If it doesn’t work it’s self out, I’ll have to load and unload everything and all the driving. Sigh

Anyone else have a Airfryer and love it ?!!

[yellow_fleurs]

Christina, glad you didn't have to pay for the tire rotation! I hope you get some rest tonight. I am really sorry you are having terrible pain. I wish there was more we could do to help. I am sending lots of compassion.