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I hope things ease up soon. Your being proactive that’s half the battle I’m saving to buy that movie , that was the first movie( original) I took my daughter to , she had just turned 3 and she stood the whole time and just vibrated she was so excited... wow that’s a great memory.. thanks for mentioning that movie __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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#22
Christina- Maybe you and she could see the new Lion King when you are in Florida. A new happy memory. I really want to see the new one but missed it when it was in my town. If it ever showed here. Rural hit and miss theater than looks like it has closed now .
__________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1700 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 1.5 mg clonazepam., 50 mg Seroquel |
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#23
Well I have been awake pretty much a solid 3 days.. I’ve been super busy cooking and cleaning and driving around while it was snowing it’s so magical..
I’m probably a bit Hypo...I’m not really worried that it will flip..This is just lack of sleep running on adrenaline. I do think I’ll get at least a few hours tonight that should be very helpful.. My Husband finished dinner and we started a movie and Boom he’s snoring. He’s truly an alien, how can anyone go to sleep in a minute or 2?? Boggles my non stop racing mind LOL __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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Omg I didn’t even think of that !! That would be amazing !! Thank you Thank you Thank you __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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I just texted her and it on our to do list, she’s super excited too Thanks again __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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#26
I'm glad you have something different to look forward to. I know the trip is hard on you even without the increased PsA symptoms. The movie is supposed to be very good based on my niece reviewers.
__________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1700 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 1.5 mg clonazepam., 50 mg Seroquel |
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Yesterday the anxiety and terror eased off. I am assuming that is the Haloperidol, and Lorazepam. I still feel very anxious and agitated but not at the dangerous levels. To get exercise I have been pacing the corridors as I can barely read due to poor concentration. Bad news is my eyes are starting to go fuzzy so I am going to have to stop Haldol today or tomorrow. I worried nothing else will work as well leaving me options.
See my T today. it's been three weeks sine I last saw him as I wasn't allows out of hospital, and he isn't allowed in as he is not linked to this hospital. We will have soooo much to cover I am trying to work out where to begin. I guess I will come in with a list of options and see which one he sees as most helpful for today. I made a hair appointment for a anti-frizz treatment. It is expensive but considering all the products I use now to try to calm my frizzy hair it may actually not be that expensive overall to have the treatment as the products I have been using are costly also. . It should last two months. My frizzy 'cat lady hairstyle is crushing my self esteem. I am sure it is a side effect of either Lamictal, or Lithium, I am no longer on Lamictal and the new growth is a lot straighter. I am also on Lithium which can do it too. Just when you hot that perfect combo stuff like this happens and you have to choose sanity over vanity. I miss my beloved ocean. We are in the middle of a long heatwave(not that I can tell being cooped up in hospital. Temperures are getting up to 40'C (around 110'f I think). Perfect beach weather for early morning and sunset swims. I am trying to convince my parents to take me to the beach tomorrow. They have a busy day. I have one friend who offered to go out with me but my pdoc only trusts my parents to keep me safe. This is odd as they are my main trigger.They are also having to take me to see my T as my pdoc doesn't trust me going alone or with someone Somehow I WILL find a way to go for a swim soon. It is the best therapy for me. I just re-read my post and saw all the errors. Pease let me know if I didn't make sense in parts. More importantly My Mum told me yesterday afternoon that my Dad is seriously depressed. His decline into depression began when I got ill again about 2 months ago. My um looks a mess too. I feel so guilty . The nurses have been reassuring me that its not my fault. Still, it feels that way. __________________ Bipolar 1 with psychotic features PTSD "Phew! For a minute there I lost myself." 'Karma Police' by Radiohead |
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I hope you get to go swimming soon, Wander.
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Your welcome and thanks for the good wishes for my possible sleep __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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#31
Wander, thank you for posting....I was worried about you.
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It sounds lik,e you are trying hard to get ahead of this, which is great! I truly admire the time/energy input We are here for you! __________________ May we each fully claim the courage to live from our hearts, to allow Love, Faith and Hope to enLighten our paths. |
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@bpcyclist: I look forward to reading your book!
@MarcusAurelius: Glad your tacos turned out and sorry you had to hear such a stupid comment. Nice to hear from you tho! I'm doing okay. Getting out to the mall to people-watch and spending long Winter evenings with my dog watching TV. I've started a new book by my favorite author and it's achingly beautiful. Having trouble showering again but i bought a nice purple Winter hat so there's that. Figure i'll try to go to Scrabble regularly and study and play online as doing something i'm good at will boost my confidence. Tried a Master Class in creative writing with Joyce Carol Oates and my work read like the fillers in Reader's Digest! Oh well. Some shame stings, berating myself for outrageous things i said or did while hypo-manic which is not great but it's tolerable. Have abandoned Overeaters Anonymous (OA) because it was just making me feel bad about myself and i already have enough of that. Winter is here. |
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Wander, I think frizzy hair could be a result of Lithium or Lamictal. I noticed differences in my hair then.
I do sometimes still have frizzy hair, but that is because my hair is naturally curly. I think after what you've been through, you more than deserve a nice day at the hair salon. |
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I got a surprising email from my pdoc.
She said that since there zopiclone didn't do anything, she consulted with her colleagues (she works in a hospital), and decided to stop both the Wellbutrin and Mirapex. She says that they're not helping my depression much and are instead causing side effects, so she wants to stop them. Instead she wants to start me on Remeron. I'm worried about the side effects of increase in appetite and drowsiness. She says it's up to me to decide. I have asked her to see if there's something else she can prescribe. __________________ * Dx: Unspecified Bipolar and Related Disorder * Rx: Remeron, Prozac, Klonopin, Vraylar My avatar picture is a photo of the Whirlpool Galaxy I took in April 2023. I dedicated this photo to my sister who passed away in July 2016. |
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Something really got me crying for a while this morning. I won't go into what it was, but it's clear how sensitive I still am after too many weeks of stress. I really wish it would ease already. The coming holidays aren't that appreciated, either. To date, I have only purchased one (yes, only one) Christmas gift. Luckily, I don't exchange with many people, but I should still have more than one by now. Later today I'll do some online shopping.
I love my state, but it can be so hectic here sometimes. Obviously, we all want our roads and bridges to be fixed, but they seem to plan the repairs in such a way that it creates utter traffic chaos. And people in my state can be pretty aggressive and easily angered. Me included! Yesterday I was trying to cross a highway to continue on a road. While my light was still red, I knew cars had already unnecessarily created a gridlock/jam. Then my light turned green and the jam was still there. I had just had enough, and put my hand on the horn so it continuously was blowing. Of course some woman gave me the finger, but I just kept blowing the horn. Then on the way back (same intersection), people try to aggressively butt in. I was not going to have that happen. I had arrived at the intersection with some woman in a rather odd spot. Since she was there before me, I was planning to let her go before me, but I was also preventing this smart aleck from squeezing passed us to butt in. So the light turns green, and the woman I was letting go didn't go, even though I had opened my car window and motioned that she should. People would all look at her as being a fool, in the end , and doing everyone more harm than good. I'm glad at least that I don't drive at night. My poor husband does. People drive on back roads as if they are highways. At night, many people also put on their high beams and just leave them on, no matter what. Then if it is raining, you have the glare. Also, my state has a dense population of white-tailed deer. You have to worry about them, too. Almost every night on my husband's way home, there is someone in the ditch with the cops there. People just don't get it! Also, many people think turn signals are optional. They also think they can go straight from a right or left turn lane. Of course many are looking at their stupid smart phones, while driving. I hate driving anywhere, anymore. Even driving to the grocery store can be a nightmare! Even in parking lots it can be nightmare! It's amazing how many people don't know how to back their cars out of a regular parking spot! Also (usually out of staters) people don't know how to parallel park. Or they don't know how to drive in a traffic circle (aka rotary). Some people also have some weird notion that people turning left have right away before those turning right (that is unless there is a left turn signal). Or, they drive such huge ships that they can't see. Thank you for letting me vent! Last edited by Anonymous46341; Dec 11, 2019 at 10:23 AM.. |
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I haven't slept. I got up and had a baked potato with light sour cream. I'm doing weight watchers and I'm hungry. I really hope I can stick to this plan. It seems doable.
Since coming off lorazepam my sleep is all messed up. I'm sleeping about 3-6 hours a night. Im going to talk to this new pdoc about it when I see him Friday. My son is being very ocd. He's constantly washing his hands and having the tv on certain channels. He's also asking me basic questions. Like, should I go to bed etc. He's delusional on and off. We're a mess, lol. I have so much Christmas shopping to do. It's hard when you're broke. I do what I can and my family is gracious about it. It snowed last night, ugh. I hate winter. Summer is the season I love. Im hoping we don't get a lot of snow this winter. I'm counting down the days til it ends, lol. Oh well, I'll survive. I'm gonna try and sleep again. I hope everyone has a good day! Big hugs to those having a hard time. |
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#38
Last night I read far too late/ early. I think it was 3am when I shut my light off. Still couldn't sleep. Had to give up at 9:30 as my nephew is coming. Mum is all anxious to see him. Hasn't seen him for over a year. He works as a federal prison gaurd at a security hospital. Hard to believe but he's aging out. There's mandatory retirement at 55. Hard to believe my nephews are that old but they both have grand kids! My oldest sister is much older than me.
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#39
I have slept only 3.5 hours last night. My dog climbed into bed with me and proceeded to try to push me off of it. This is a large dog. LOL My pdoc thinks I may have ADD. Personally, I think my symptoms just are a consequence of my BP, not ADD. Otherwise, apart from my miserable financial status, I am doing OK.
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I haven't been here in ages. It's comforting to see familiar 'names' again. (is that a new hair color/look ~Christina? I love it, it rocks!)
Yup Birddancer, driving and drivers suck. Hugs to all that are struggling and continue to fight this battle, I hope we all find restful sleep as much as we can. I'm ok. Wouldn't know where to start at this point. Same ol same ol, the good the bad and the ugly. Posted some "poems" ( I use that term very loosely) in Creative. I guess its a way of helping to get some of the blah out of me. Fa la la la la la la la la HUGS |
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