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Legendary Wise Elder
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#161
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I hope the gift your ordered is wonderful, it is tricky when ordering online. More scopes ? __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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Legendary Wise Elder
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Location: Tennessee
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#162
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Thank you so much I’ll manage this pain somehow, seems I always do. Oh my gosh !!! That’s beautiful !!! You have an amazing gift __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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Legendary Wise Elder
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#163
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It’s a great book You making well thought out decisions on how to go about life and not overwhelming yourself . Good job __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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Legendary Wise Elder
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#164
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Hope your back to good health soon! Pen pal of 16 years !! That’s so awesome __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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Legendary Wise Elder
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#165
Ahhh I pretty much posted my update on reply
Everything is basically the same. Pure suckage but I will some how manage. This is just terrible timing with yet another trip. But the day after I got home from our trip in August is when this whole mess started .. so thinking of it going for freaking mooonths just makes it worse. I’ll eventually catch a break. Thank all of you for the wonderful support , it truly does mean a lot __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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#166
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Do not fear. I will be talking all about it once it is done. I’m super curious about it too. __________________ Bipolar 1 with psychotic features PTSD "Phew! For a minute there I lost myself." 'Karma Police' by Radiohead |
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Wild Coyote, ~Christina
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#168
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You are in an acute flare, which is a completely different story. I am dealing with baseline pain right now, which is excruciating; however, the whole degree with which you are currently dealing is even more overwhelming and my heart goes out tou you. You've been asked by a few friends here about pain meds. I am furious you are not allowed stronger, more appropriate meds for pain. It's inhumane. As you know, I strongly advocate for the appropriate use of pain meds. I have openly shared my stance, as well as my need for pain medication. I have been very clear about the dire need for pain meds for severe, life-altering chronic (non-stop) pain. Unfortunately, I have been viciously attacked here for having been open about my stance and for my own need for pain meds. It's exactly that type of attitude that denies you, Christina, the pain medication you so desperately need.. Is there anything I can do to help you more? May you feel surrounded by Lots of Love! __________________ May we each fully claim the courage to live from our hearts, to allow Love, Faith and Hope to enLighten our paths. |
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#169
I feel weird today. Slept 4 hours last night, woke up wide awake, cleaned and paced around listening to music for 3 hours straight early in the morning. Felt good most of the day but then I started seeing shadows and worrying about my meds poisoning me, and something burrowing through my brain. I'm forcing myself to lay down right now, I don't want it escalating.
__________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#170
Out of nowhere, I had a real burst of anxiety. Sometimes it is related to my physical health, usually relating to my heart (probably just heartburn and indigestion). Anyway, it still causes me anxiety, on occasion. I took an Ativan. It's very likely that that will do the trick. I just need to wait about 30 minutes.
I made celeriac and celery soup. I guess I still have to make a main course for dinner. Sometimes I just wish I could have a break, especially on days when I've been doing other big projects. Last edited by Anonymous46341; Dec 15, 2019 at 05:18 PM.. |
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#171
I'm bound and determined to get through this d*@& day feeling alright. I deserve that at least. I will eat something good , listen to some music, maybe read -- watch a little TV and let my problems melt away. I need to sleep early. Tomorrow I start being evaluated at my job to see if I will keep it or not. I'm really stressed about it and while I've had plenty of training I don't feel that prepared. It really couldn't get over quick enough. I just need tomorrow to come and go. But as for today -- I'm not letting tomorrow screw up today. I just won't.
I don't feel great, but I'm trying. I'm at least trying. |
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#172
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It's so wise of you to take measures in hopes of things not getting any worse. I hope things do settle down for you. Either way, we are here for you! __________________ May we each fully claim the courage to live from our hearts, to allow Love, Faith and Hope to enLighten our paths. |
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#173
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All we can do is to do the best we can do and it sounds like you are doing it! I hope you have a much better day than anticipated! __________________ May we each fully claim the courage to live from our hearts, to allow Love, Faith and Hope to enLighten our paths. |
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#174
__________________ When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#175
Well, I don't know what is wrong with me. Woke up again today absolutely furious about absolutely nothing. Enraged. No issues. Got out on the bike anyway and managed to ride for 90 minutes--furious the entire time. About nothing. Weird. Finally did some breathing and calmed myself down and doing pretty well now. Not sure what's wrong with me. Took maybe 6 hours to get back to some kind of normal baseline. Mixed state coming on? Could definitely be. I am just almost never angry. I dunno.
Took a pretty significant spill on the bike yesterday right in the center of town. A very sweet woman saw the whole thing and stopped to help me. Very kind of her. Really touched me. Didn't hit my head, fortunately, but fairly banged up otherwise. It was wet and slick and I just went down on a tight corner. One of those things that happens from time to time this time of year. Still, I felt like an idiot. I am heartbroken for those who are suffering from physical pain that is not being adequately treated. As a former prescriber, it makes me angry. I may have been a bit too generous with the narcs when I was in practice, but I chose early on in my career to basically always believe the patient when she/he told me they were hurting. I would not change a thing about all that. Sending those suffering strength and compassion. I am so sorry. I wish I still had a license--I'd be more than happy to take care of the problem... __________________ When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#176
Really down today with lots of SI despite my efforts to outmaneuver it. That’s really too bad. I was hoping to give my NP a good report tomorrow. Maybe I need a med adjustment. Darn.
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#177
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sending some good thoughts your way for a better evening. ((((((((HUGS))))))))) bizi __________________ 150mg of lamictal 2x a day haldol 5mg 2x a day 1mg of cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, 4-5 peri-colace for chronic constipation multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine at noon PRN Remeron 15mg at night, zyprexa10mg under tongue, requip2mg. |
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#178
Big hugs to those who want/need one.
In 24 hours I am having the injection in my neck. I’m getting excited as I have hope this injection will shut down my PTSD hyper-vigilance thus calm me down. Then I will remain IP for observation. If all goes as planned I will be discharged this week. Yey! This morning my parents took me to the beach. An early morning swim in the ocean is the best way to start the day. It was a brief swim as my hip is still healing. So refreshing and revitalising. Last night my mood dropped but not too badly. I think it was grief from seeing my parents all day (long story related to childhood trauma). It is getting easier to around them which is great because my Mum is my best friend. It hurts to have the horrors of my past affect my relationship with my Mum. My T is helping me sort through this so the strength of my relationship with my Mum and Dad can be restored. C’mon brain. It’s time to leave the past behind and focus forwards while living in the present moment. I am safe and in control of my life now. __________________ Bipolar 1 with psychotic features PTSD "Phew! For a minute there I lost myself." 'Karma Police' by Radiohead |
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Wild Coyote, ~Christina
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#179
Thank you WC After I laid down for awhile I baked some cookies and then read my book. I'm feeling more relaxed now
__________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#180
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I am sorry, I have forgotten, do you usually get depressed in the winter? I am feeling a bit wonky today, too. Thinking of you! __________________ May we each fully claim the courage to live from our hearts, to allow Love, Faith and Hope to enLighten our paths. |
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