[BeyondtheRainbow]

Is the vistaril helping? I hope that you have taken the zyprexa and are sound asleep.

[bizi]

I am a late night woman.
will try to get to bed earlier than normal.
the visteril has helped so that is good.
I am yawning so that is good too.
thank you so much for your support.
I appreciate you.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi
tomorrow, I meet with therapist at 2pm

and have to work on wednesday.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Hopefully by Wednesday you'll be feeling better. I only took zyprexa for about 5 days because it was useless for me. It didn't even knock me out or make me hungry. It was just nothing. But I think part of why we tried it when we did was that it is fast-acting. My memory could be wrong but I think my pdoc would have tried it longer if it weren't fast acting. Just one day at a time for right now. I know that's hard. I'm having a hard time with that myself right now.

[bizi]

got to bed at midnight,
Did not sleep well because of the zyprexa and restless legs from it.I know that I did eventually get some sleep just don't know how much.
I got out of bed this morning at 10:30am
Got ready and we went to lunch at this place we like called dwights.
I got pork steak and dirty rive and potato salad was good took some home because I was full.
Hubby is having health issues for the past 2 weeks.
He got a crown a while ago and it has been painful ever since. also keeping his mouth wide open for 2 hours effected his TMJ.
Hoping he goes to see the dentist...some sort of condition, he has been massaging the jaw so it is some better so that is good.
He wasn't going to eat at lunch but forced him self to eat.

Said he feels better.
He does not have a fever so that is good.
Said he was going to lie down.

I leave to see Robin(my therapist) in Half an hour.
When we went to our friends for dinner last night, it was very good!
fish and chicken with a hot chilipepper sauce,

I am really going to cut back my drinking tomorrow, mardi gras. and abstain alcohol for lent. I reported the restless legs to the nurse at dr. orazio my pdoc...due to the zyprexa. She called dr. riggs and gave him an update.
he had said to decrease it to 1/2 pill. I said perhaps just take the 5mg in the morning then 5 mg at night....she called back to say that I could do that.
I was going to take some seroquel that I have on hand and told her that she said don't do that.

Jeff has no influence on me(he was to be my brains as robin put it). I drank a lot yesterday and was on the computer a lot yesterday.
Will try to reel it in.
bizi

[bizi]

got to bed at midnight,
Did not sleep well because of the zyprexa and restless legs from it.I know that I did eventually get some sleep just don't know how much.
I got out of bed this morning at 10:30am
Got ready and we went to lunch at this place we like called dwights.
I got pork steak and dirty rive and potato salad was good took some home because I was full.
Hubby is having health issues for the past 2 weeks.
He got a crown a while ago and it has been painful ever since. also keeping his mouth wide open for 2 hours effected his TMJ.
Hoping he goes to see the dentist...some sort of condition, he has been massaging the jaw so it is some better so that is good.
He wasn't going to eat at lunch but forced him self to eat.

Said he feels better.
He does not have a fever so that is good.
Said he was going to lie down.

I leave to see Robin(my therapist) in Half an hour.
When we went to our friends for dinner last night, it was very good!
fish and chicken with a hot chilipepper sauce,

I am really going to cut back my drinking tomorrow, mardi gras. and abstain alcohol for lent. I reported the restless legs to the nurse at dr. orazio my pdoc...due to the zyprexa. She called dr. riggs and gave him an update.
he had said to decrease it to 1/2 pill. I said perhaps just take the 5mg in the morning then 5 mg at night....she called back to say that I could do that.
I was going to take some seroquel that I have on hand and told her that she said don't do that.

Jeff has no influence on me(he was to be my brains as robin put it). I drank a lot yesterday and was on the computer a lot yesterday.
Will try to reel it in.
bizi

[bizi]

I am to limit my computer usage.....
until I can get back to sanity.
bizi

[bizi]

Happy Mardi Gras!

I am on the fence as to whether to go or not.
I don't think I need to exposing myself to all of that.
It would be the last hurrah before lent tomorrow.
I had One dog fish head 90 minute IPA to drink

which is like 2 beers and that was all.

I met with Robin yesterday.....
She said I do not present manic. But after talking to me,
yes she believed that I was manic.
So I guess I just have to wait for the meds to work.
I got very little accomplished yesterday.

One load of laundry.
I posted on the forums different ones that I was not posting anymore,
Trying to regain sanity.
Robin asked me what I was going to do.
I said go to the planet fitness and walk on the treadmill.
So that is what I did.
It had been 245 days since I was there 8 months!
I walked for half an hour, 1.25 miles...that was all that I could do.

I took 5mg of zyprexa with lunch yesterday and 10 mg of it at bedtime.
Not because I meant to take 10mg I forgot that I was supposed to take only 5mg.
I am going to look up manic dosing.
This is not a good time to be manic with marysue probably needing surgery.
Jeff said he would call brian, his brother and see how she is doing. I told him he needed to call the nurse.
everything is shut down here because of Mardi gras, and it is just regular work day every where else.
We don't have any food in the house except for some ham and cheese to make a sandwich.
I need to take a shower.

[bizi]

Unfortunately, I am manic and Jeff doesn't think so.
I was able to take a shower, get dressed,do face and hair, I look presentable.
10;30-I took an extra 5mg zyprexa this morning, along with 50mg of visteral.
I threw in the bath rug in the washer, because it had so much hair spray it was sticking to my shoes and almost tripped. It is out of the dryer now. Fresh and fluffy now to clean the rest of the hair spray off the floor.
12;30-
I ate a wonderful ham and cheese sandwich on daves killer bread. It was tasty.
took my noon meds. including 80mg of geodon and 400mg of tegretol. and supplements.
I have texted Robin my therapist today she is very supportive.

Jeffs mom is having surgery tomorrow so he is flying to INDY leaving in the morning.
We are going to board the cat because I can't do dressing changes by my self.
I called Carol My old AA sponsor. We have become friends since I am not doing AA.
And spoke with her, she is willing to be a support person for me. She said that she would come over for dinner at 5pm every night. I am so glad that she is willing to do this for me. She said that I would have that to focus on during the day since I won't be working.
I am in the middle of canceling 13 clients appointments , have to call and reschedule them
and will be off work for the next 7 days. until I see my psychiatrist on next tuesday at 10;20am..March 3rd.
I have billing to do, charting and filing to do. I think I will change my out going message
on my voice mail saying that I will be out of the office until March 4th.
That gives me a week to stabilize.
So, Jeff will be gone from wednesday to sunday. Hattie the Cat with dressing changes is going to vets tonight at 6pm. He just left to meet a friend to go do"Mardi Gras"parades and such.
He put UBER back on his phone, probably because I may not be able to drive him to the airport in the morning. we will see how I am.
I threw away the last 2 truly beers in the fridge and
I will start my abstaining from alcohol today.
This past week I was only drinking 3 beers a night last night I had 1 strong beer.
I was told to limit my computer usage but have not been able to do so.
thank you for reading.
bizi

[~Christina]

Bizi you have so much going on. I’m glad Carol will see you daily, that’s a great support.

Hopefully your meds will soon start to level you back out.

Maybe set a timer for 30 mins and do some charting and billing? Give you something to focus on.

I’m cheering you on

[bizi]

Thank you @~Christine

I hope you are doing ok?
bizi
((((HUGS))))

[giddykitty]

Hey Bizi! Sorry you're going through all this right now. Hope things calm down soon.

[bizi]

I am going to bed sooner tonight. jeff will be gone when I get up.
I am having a hard time typing.
thank goodness for spell check.
jeff leaves at 7;45am, his good friend paul is taking him to the air port for a 9:30 am flight.
tomorrow:
I have to pick up paper work, orders for tegretol level. and have blood work drawn tomorrow.
And come up with dinner for Carol, my friend from AA
who is coming at 5;30pm.
Her idea, She suggested it. I have all day to come up with dinner.

She is very wise. I think that her son has bipolar also.
So she has experience with it.
I did some filing and made phone calls canceled appointments for tomorrow at least and will make more tomorrow.

It is 9:40 and I am hungry!
Am signing off.
bizi

[giddykitty]

glad you have someone to visit with you while he's away. hopefully you'll find something good to eat tonight! yeah it is getting late, i'll bet you're hungry!
Take care and best wishes!

[bizi]

thanks giddy for posting.
I have to go pick up my lab draw order from my psych doctor orazio office tomorrow.
Have lunch at sandras the figure out dinner for Carol?????
I have to call and cancel the rest of my appointments for the week,
have a good evening.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by bizi

I am going to bed sooner tonight. jeff will be gone when I get up.
I am having a hard time typing.
thank goodness for spell check.
jeff leaves at 7;45am, his good friend paul is taking him to the air port for a 9:30 am flight.
tomorrow:
I have to pick up paper work, orders for tegretol level. and have blood work drawn tomorrow.
And come up with dinner for Carol, my friend from AA
who is coming at 5;30pm.
Her idea, She suggested it. I have all day to come up with dinner.

She is very wise. I think that her son has bipolar also.
So she has experience with it.
I did some filing and made phone calls canceled appointments for tomorrow at least and will make more tomorrow.

It is 9:40 and I am hungry!
Am signing off.
bizi

Thanks Bizi I’m doing okay !

I’m glad you have Carol and things to keep you busy

[bizi]

Talked with hubby tonight. He got in ok to INDY.
Will go see his mom in the hospital....she did well after surgery.
It took 2 people to stand her up so that is not good.
She will have to go to a rehab place once discharged, she will not like that at all.
I have been giving up alcohol for lent for some time now. Same this year.

See how it goes 42 days...think it will be harder this time because I am manic....
This has been a long day. I keep having to remind myself it is wednesday.

I have labs drawn tomorrow morning,
Best buy to take back the phone charger doesn't work.
lunch at sandras, maybe mousaka?
A/C menards come between 2:30 and 4pm for winter inspection.
There is an AA meditation meeting at 5:30
Not sure if I want to go to that. I invited carol over for a ham dinner.
that would be at 6;45.
It is now 9;45pm and I should think about going to bed soon.
Thanks for putting up with my ramblings.....



met a woman there and gave her my number, her name is Nicole.

She is a nurse and was 18 months sober and decided to inject

benadryl and got a blood clot in her arm with damage to the surrounding tissue,
she may lose 3 finger tips. That was 7 weeks ago.
bizi

[~Christina]

Glad Jeff made it, sorry his mom will need rehab but it’s really helpful in gaining strength overall !

You have so many things going on , which is probably good going from one task to the next.

Good luck on no alcohol for lent

Yikes, losing fingers

Life is so hard at times. Many hugs

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Sometimes people make really big gains fast. Maybe she'll only need rehab a short time or even she'll start walking again in the hospital. Rehab sounds like it might be appropriate just having someone checking on her; she sounds really fragile right now. Another option to consider is home health rehab. That's nice because you get therapists and nursing in the home and the rehab can be more specifically tailored to the patient. (Can you tell I preferred home health by a thousand times after working most of my career in nursing homes? .

I hope that going AF goes well for you and I'm glad you have Carol keeping you from being alone.

Are you getting sleep now? Do you feel less manic?

[Fuzzybear]

Hope you get some sleep

[bizi]

It is down in the 30's tonight cold for us

in cajun country, lafayette, louisiana.
I am getting to bed soon, need to take my meds and go to sleep.
I had already talked to jeff this evening and forgot....
sigh
not good.
bizi
still manic.....