[bizi]

So far I got some things done today:
woke up at 10am and got dressed
went to hub city diner for lunch, had a BELT
bacon, egg, lettuce tomato sandwhich

was delicious I complimented the cook!

watered jeffs plants out side

Filled pill box for one week
went to sally's for new nail polish and A soap bottle for work
Went to a drug store looking for foaming soap,
found one at our local grocery store
Uniforms washed and put away
2nd load of laundry is drying
made copies of paper work for my new charts
dollar tree for big bottles of liquid soap and lotion
pet smart to get new kitten food
drug emporium la croix cranberry sodas
unloaded the dish water


I need to make up new charts which takes
time and is tedious

so I guess I will do the august planner since it
does not take too long to do

I talked on the phone for 45 minutes

with my sister as they were driving back

from the folks house for a visit.

They have been going monthly.
I mentioned getting mom and dad

a new dish washer, for christmas.

Theirs is horrible!
She said lets think about that.
We could give them a gift card to

lowes or best buy.
and that way they can pick it out....
honestly I don't know how expensive they are.

anyway I have been on line for too long.
But I deserved a break as I have been busy.

Wearing masks every where is hot!
time to get working on the rest of my chores.
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finished my 2nd load, socks and undies hand towels etc.
folded them and put them away.
think I will have left over veggie soup and tabouli from sandras.,
and ate turkey slices and a piece of havarti cheese.
gave some turkey to hazel and she wasn't quick enough
Harper came along and ate it.
maybe I am procrastinating doing paper work is

because I used to drink beers. Now I drink stevia colas,
cream soda root beer they are called zevia drinks.

and they are very good and satisfying!
Just got off the phone with Jeff, face time.
They have plans for the remodeling of part of the home...
putting in a new screened in porch.
removing the handicap ramp that goes into the dining room.
New roof, new air condenser out side. Our friend Dan is taking
care of the yard work that needs to be done, mulching etc.
Jeff is going to wash the north side of the house that is green.

That is a big job. they are going to paint the upstairs

white ceiling and light gray walls. That is a big job in it self.
I need to quit because I am going to have a heinikin0.0 no alcohol

and start on my paperwork that I have avoided all day.
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[bizi]

finished my 2nd load, socks and undies hand towels etc.
folded them and put them away.
think I will have left over veggie soup and tabouli from sandras.,
and ate turkey slices and a piece of havarti cheese.
gave some turkey to hazel and she wasn't quick enough
Harper came along and ate it.
maybe I am procrastinating doing paper work is

because I used to drink beers. Now I drink stevia colas,
cream soda root beer they are called zevia drinks.

and they are very good and satisfying!
Just got off the phone with Jeff, face time.
They have plans for the remodeling of part of the home...
putting in a new screened in porch.
removing the handicap ramp that goes into the dining room.
New roof, new air condenser out side. Our friend Dan is taking
care of the yard work that needs to be done, mulching etc.
Jeff is going to wash the north side of the house that is green.

That is a big job. they are going to paint the upstairs

white ceiling and light gray walls. That is a big job in it self.
I need to quit because I am going to have a heinikin0.0 no alcohol

and start on my paperwork that I have avoided all day.
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[bizi]

Am done working for tonight, cleaned the kitty litter boxes
made a deposit, talked to my sister/twin/gretchen for a while,
her girls my nieces make us proud.Our first baby in 25
years her name is emerson, she is 9 months old. and
has 6 teeth now. She got her first cold from day care at
$60 a day. Taylor is working from home 3 days a week
so has to pay for child care those 2 days a week.
If they make her come back in 5 days a week she will quit.
That is a very high price for child care. Her loved one is starting
the police academy, just got sworn into office last week.
He was a deputy sheriff in north carolina , you have to take the
police academy for each state. My other niece is
working on finishing up her schooling to be a PA,
physicians assistant, has a couple of more rotations
and she will be done graduate in 4 months.She has loved it!!!!!
My other sister has a son who is getting ready to
test for his law degree He finished and we were going
to fly out there to Rhode island. He met a gal at
law school they moved to new york to be closer
to her family. she broke up with himand he moved
back to rhode island to be with friends, they study
together for the bar exam.
anyway, made it to day 2 of Alcohol free august.
I ate way too much today.
I hope you guys don't mind the long posts.
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Proud of all 3 of them.

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Wishing you Bizi , your family and friends well. My best mugwort Hugs

[bizi]

Thank you!

Today I feel depressed.
I got up late again and called the

assisted living home

I was to see 3 people from there but usually

call first before just going there.
she said there were two new cases. So it was
not a good time to come.

Thank goodness I had a regular client to call.

So I saw 1 client today.Watered hubby's plants,
played with the cats.
The kitten was most interested in playing with the string.
Actually it is a chord with the entire silky
thread like innards pulled out and discarded.

I went to the store that I buy my heinikin 0.0

wait for it!

I thought I bought 15 cans x 2 because they were on sale.
came home and put the first case in the refrigerator and the

other in the bottom of a cupboard.

I started drinking them and they were in cans.

They tasted funny so I called jeff and asked him if the

cans could make it taste different. He said absolutely!
So I am on my 3rd beer. and finally looked at the

case and it said 3 bonus 0.0. So I have been drinking
the regular heinikin beers full of alcohol.
sigh
there goes my AF streak of 2 days. I was really ******
off the way they labeled the cases. so they were 12
reg beer and three alcohol free.
sigh
I am going to have to search the case to find the 0.0 ones.
So I have drank 3 reg beers and 3x 0.0 beers.
I just did not look hard enough at the packaging.
Tomorrow will start a new day one.

the 0.0 beer is so much better than the reg heinikin
Which gave me a head ache.
Lesson learned...read the small print!
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[~Christina]

When we had all the animals Steve would go to Florida on his own to see his boys,- 4-6 times a year. Amanda lived up here but spend summers and either winter or Spring break with her dad in Florida and of course Christmas . I spent most Xmas's alone as that is when they would both be in Florida, But I was working 12 hour shifts yet still able to get everyone fed and stalls cleaned and hay rolls moved.. Ahh the good ole days before my body said " oh you think you can do everything ? well here take FIbro and try"

Crazy how life has a habit of changing my plans.

You have been busy!!! Remember to do self care

[bizi]

I just got out of the shower which is self care thanks christina!
I hope you are having a nice day. did you take an ambien last night or no sleep?
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[~Christina]

No Ambien, Few broken hours , Blah !

Hope you have a nice night

[bizi]

I hope you have a nice night too!
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[bizi]

I don't think I want to be on remeron.
I just read up on It is known for its weight gain constipation, building up high tolerance addiction possibility. plus you need more and more to be effective.
I don't want to take it anymore.
It is a prn any way. so I will just take it out of my pill box for the rest of the week.
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I might be getting a bit hypomanic.
need to reel it in.
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[bizi]

Lost a pound this week even though

I have been eating a bit of this and that.
Had 2 wonderful and delicious meals from

sandras health food cafe..
Mousaka yesterday for lunch then the same for

dinner. It is a greek dish with egg plant potatoes

and tomatoes.
love it!!!!
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This heineken 0.0 is great and only 69 calories!

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I had blood work done last week and they
stuck me 3 times to get some blood.
At least the digging around did not hurt.
The day of beauty turned out just fair.

the 19year old just acted like she did

not want to be there.


I started picking at my thumb just

now must get the clippers to take
care of it so I don't go all the way
to chewing it off and bleeding....
sigh some body is making a bunch of
noise possibly with their new motor cycle.

great! NOT!!!

Belt was great I had 2 bloody mary's

this morning with jeff.
last night,When he came home yesterday, I

picked him up at the airport.
I missed him.
We went out to eat at a favorite
place called social. I had 3 13oz sour
beer that I like.
We split half a chicken, I like dark meat and Jeff likes white meat it was delicious. We shared sides of braised brussel sprout and their famous macaroni and cheese. an were stuffed and went to bed at midnight. I did not sleep well and ended up getting up in the middle of the night to both my requip for my restless legs and zyprexa sublingual I finally went to sleep around 3 or 4am. Got up and went right to hub city diner. for my BELT. It was very good. came home and I was so sleepy that I wanted to lay down for a nap. after a 2 hour nap a swirl of acid filled my mouth of heart burn and I swallowed it down.That got me up in a hurry. Took one of jeffs pepsid and chewed on some tums like 6 of them about 15 minutes apart. So all of that contributed to the heart burn episode.
Thank you for bearing with me while I explained.
sorry this is so long.
I need to fill up my pill box, do laundry and start

to finish my folders and some other paper work!

Falling asleep at the computer.

Those 2 bloody mary's did me in.
I have a face chat with my provider tomorrow at 8;30.
I am not sure what I am going to say to her.
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I think you should mention that you've been drinking and felt (still feel??) you might be going hypomanic. Those are important things for her to know so she can help you avoid completely going down the rabbit hole.

[bizi]

Thank you for your suggestion, I will take her lead.
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[bizi]

Jeff finally went to the urgent care for his symptoms
of cardiac and lungs....of course he did not have any signs
when he got there.
They referred him to a cardiologist and then a pulmonary md after that.
He had some crackles when breathing, air hunger
like he was not getting any oxygen. Irregular heart rate 60 to 100.
He did not sleep last night due to symptoms, poor guy I felt sorry for him.
He was there a total of 3 hours. there will be an ambulance charge and radiology charge I believe. our portion of the bill was $118 so insurance paid the majority of the bill so far. 20/80%, Total out of pocket is $10,000,we have about $3,300 left to pay before they start paying 100%.
Anyway. He will get the best care possible.

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[bizi]

Who carries a fire extinguisher in their trunk?
My dad does and used it to put out the fire in his car, totaled it.
That makes them a one car family now.
scary stuff!
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[bizi]

4 weeks IP, 5 weeks of IOP Intensive out patient, 2 months back to the grind of things. Grateful to have the work that I do have. 9 weeks with out a pay check. Fortunately for us Jeffs mom left us some money so we are not feeling it. She pasted away the beginning of March. We were able to pay off the house, and 2nd mortgage. She was such a kind woman. She used to donate to a bunch of charities, so she was constantly being hit upon for donations all of the time. She gave $5-15 dollar donations. She received all sorts of trinkets from the charities, small blankets, moccasins, dream catchers, $1 bills

flags, etc. She lived frugally but was able to stay in her home. She died too young 87.

Her death was rather sudden. She passed away from myesthinia gravice. not sure of the spelling.Terrible disease. Muscular neuro involved. Exacerbates under extreme stress. Her stomach did a 180 flip. She had to have surgery to tack it in place, this surgery triggered her symptoms she wound op on a ventilator in ICU with a heart arrhythmia.They did plasma exchange like dialysis. The second treatment got her off the ventilator but before they took it she agreed that she did not want to be put back on it again. So she became a no code. They put her on a regular floor. and the boys went home.
8pm that night her vital signs were normal, at midnight the were not. The medical staff Tried to get a hold of us and could not, even jeffs brother had his phone turned off. So she died at 1am. with just the medical staff with her. That part was sad. They said she was not in any pain nor a lone. So we are grateful for that. Jeff told her he loved her and flew home.
neither boys knew that she could have symptoms again.
She lived a good life, had cared for her husband who was 10 years bed bound. He died in his sleep. years before He had had quadrouple by pass surgery. With his dads genes jeff could have inherited the disease.
jeff has been having symptoms both cardiac and pulmonary. Hopefully will be seen soon. The urgent care sent him to the hospital last week for chest pains and heart arrhythmia's he was having air hunger when he breathed in of course none of that occurred once he arrived to the hospital.

Poor Jeff.
He still is having symptoms unfortunately.
Just thought I would share a bit of my life right now.
And we are having a pandemic!!!!!
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[bizi]

I just read that remeron is used to help stimulate appetite. I won't be taking that very often.
have a good day yall!
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[bizi]

I am making chicken cordon blue tonight,
It is a messy chicken dish.
supposed to flatten the chicken breast then layer Dijon mustard, black forest ham then baby Swiss then a layer of fresh basil. roll it up and roll it in some egg and milk then in a roll of crushed Ritz crackers.
they are huge. supposed to cook for 30 minutes at 350 degree. Am waiting to put them in the oven jeff is napping so I don't want to disturb him.
He had a shorter day because the university closes at 1 pm on fridays.

Wearing masks every day is tough.
I drank 3 sips beers that I love and switched to 0.0 heinekins that are so refreshing. maybe I can keep it at 3 beers.
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