Bipolar check-in #42

Feeling crappy today. Not mood wise, just coming down with a cold. I’m drinking a ton of emergen-c though. I hope I’ll feel better tomorrow. I had to take off on Monday bc my son was sick (hence why I’m sick now) so I can’t take any more time off for awhile. This was supposed to be no call out January! Damn illness.

My student’s last day is tomorrow. He is being dropped from our school because of his behavior. I will be starting with one of the other students in the class on Friday. I’m a little sad because despite everything, I do like my student. But he needs a more structured environment. He is actually going to the first school I used to teach at, which is interesting. I told him it’s a good place. I hated it but I hated it more for the coworkers and less for the students.

I have a secret. I have not taken haldol in about three weeks. I first stopped because I kept forgetting to get it from the trunk of my car. But I noticed I felt no ill effects from stopping it so I haven’t taken it. The jaw twitches are gone and I have had no paranoia. So I’m going to stay off of it. It’s there if I need it. I haven’t told RS though. I need to. I always want to be completely honest with him.

It makes me want to stop all of my meds and see if I really need them anymore. But I don’t want to fall into that trap. I’m sure the reason I’ve been stable for so long is because I’m on the right medication. I just wish I didn’t have to take pills. Now I’m down to only two medications. So that’s not that bad.

Busy day cleaning... I see my rheumatologist tomorrow, finally.

I hope we decide on the next medication to try. I am also hoping he will do some injections into my finger joints, it’s like a toothache.

Hugs to all ~

Hey, all. I hope you're doing well.
I met with my T today. It was the first time since before Christmas. She told me that my experience Friday of waking up unable to breathe, talk, or move was not actually the first time that had happened to me. She could recall another treatment wherein I described such a situation.

Hi Daonnachd. Have you spoken with the anesthesiologist about these and received an indication if they will make adjustments? I think I remember you writing that the doctor noticed this issue last time. When it happened to me, the anesthesiologist ensured me it wouldn't happen again. It didn't.

I still feel very sick, physically. Hubby thinks it may be from food poisoning. Luckily, I have nothing on my calendar until next week.

My house is a mess, but neither hubby nor I feel well enough to do anything about it.

Skiing and partying this weekend! Hell yeah! So excited! I've been dying to go skiing for the past month but I was looking for cheap tickets and tomorrow night $20 instead of like $80

Saw my pdoc today too, we're dropping the antidepressant with permission to go back on it if I get depressed. She also approved of me taking Ativan PRN instead of scheduled. It was a good appointment.

I still feel very sick, physically. Hubby thinks it may be from food poisoning. Luckily, I have nothing on my calendar until next week.

My house is a mess, but neither hubby nor I feel well enough to do anything about it.

You'll never believe what happened last night.

I can't.

The eye issue came back(!!!!!) You can't imagine how fervently I had hoped I'd never have to deal with it again EVER. But here it is. Fortunately, I had some of the drops that ended up working on it last time, so I put some in as soon as it hit (it gains speed incredibly fast). It seems to have slowed the quick progression having been able to get on it so early.

This morning, I looked at the box and it had a refill on it! YEA! So I can just go over and get some more and bypass the doc visit. Not like I'm not well-familiar with this crap.

Wish me luck. I need this **** GONE! (FOR GOOD!)


Sending hugs and compassion. Sorry not to respond more individually. Having a hard time keeping up.

Edited to add -- yesterday was also my first PT appt for my spine/shoulder/arm/hand issue. It has been a major problem. I am a VERY motivated patient.

I still feel very sick, physically. Hubby thinks it may be from food poisoning. Luckily, I have nothing on my calendar until next week.


My house is a mess, but neither hubby nor I feel well enough to do anything about it.

You'll never believe what happened last night.


I can't.


The eye issue came back(!!!!!) You can't imagine how fervently I had hoped I'd never have to deal with it again EVER. But here it is. Fortunately, I had some of the drops that ended up working on it last time, so I put some in as soon as it hit (it gains speed incredibly fast). It seems to have slowed the quick progression having been able to get on it so early.


This morning, I looked at the box and it had a refill on it! YEA! So I can just go over and get some more and bypass the doc visit. Not like I'm not well-familiar with this crap.


Wish me luck. I need this **** GONE! (FOR GOOD!)





Sending hugs and compassion. Sorry not to respond more individually. Having a hard time keeping up.


Edited to add -- yesterday was also my first PT appt for my spine/shoulder/arm/hand issue. It has been a major problem. I am a VERY motivated patient.

I'm a car owner again. All signed and covered. I bought the insurance last night and went to the library to print it. Boy the printing process their has gotten complicated. All in the name of security! Then today went for a longer test drive and figured out the buttons. Signed over half my savings and got the keys. Been running around ever since getting last minute stuff before the storm hits. 5-8 inches of snow with ice will hit us tomorrow. Had to get cheese! If I've got cheese I can survive a shut in.