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Old 01-13-2020, 09:08 PM   #81
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Finally fell asleep about 4 AM and slept until about 10, which is great, for me. Not psychotic or manic this morning, also great. Grateful for all that. Just basically holding on until my next pdoc visit in a day or two. We will try to get a game plan for everything--sleep, mania, pschosis, suicidality. No idea what he is going to want to do. Am also now having this bizarre, quite spooky neuro SE to my Abilifry, where my arms start shaking like crazy up and down when I am riding the bike. Cannot ride like that. Can't find any other reports of this anywhere. It is not TD and not a tremor. Just weird. I am so weird. Plus, I have Periodic Limb Movement Disorder now, so balancing all these neuro issues with effective treatment will be tricky. But Dr. C can do it. He's a genius.

Anyhoo, just holding on. I can make it. I've made it this far.

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Will you be seeing your doctor soon? The neuro sx sound serious and quite frightening. There are so very many types of movement disorders; I tend to think some of these meds can trigger more than the few we tend to see/experience most often.

I am concerned, too, because I've gotten the impression that riding your bike has been quite helpful to you?

I know there used to be times when my bike kept me sane/balanced.
You put in some tough days! What keeps you going?

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Old 01-13-2020, 09:09 PM   #82
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Been up and down.....

My boyfriend's mom sent me a write-up of my boyfriend's history in the system, of his hospitalizations, rehab, everything, so when we move in together and get married if anything happens I can give this to his doctors, (I am planning on taking us far away).

This rattled me A LOT. Can I really take all this on? I mean my past is just as horrible as his, so I have no right to judge him at all, but I can't stop thinking about it.

What if I am making a huge mistake? I love him so much, but what if we destroy each other?
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Been up and down.....

My boyfriend's mom sent me a write-up of my boyfriend's history in the system, of his hospitalizations, rehab, everything, so when we move in together and get married if anything happens I can give this to his doctors, (I am planning on taking us far away).

This rattled me A LOT. Can I really take all this on? I mean my past is just as horrible as his, so I have no right to judge him at all, but I can't stop thinking about it.

What if I am making a huge mistake? I love him so much, but what if we destroy each other?
Hey there, sweetie!

I think it's good that you are giving all of this careful consideration. I know you love him and love is a very important component of a viable relationship, of course. What little I know of you, you have lots of love to give, too!

We often hear, "Love is all that matters," and the context within which that is said varies; however, sometimes love just isn't enough to do well, to stay as healthy as possible, when/if someone we love is having an incredibly hard time, too.

My H, my soon-to-be ex, has a dx of BPII. Me, too. Our flavors of BP are a bit different from one another. I have gone through some very long, very difficult times with him when he is "out there" and is refusing to see his pdoc, etc. There have been times when this has drained the life out of every ounce of my being and, in turn, I was not as well as I could have been. Of course, we loved one another, very much so. Yet, in wanting to be together, we were also hurting one another without having any desire/intentions of doing so. It is tough to keep things balanced, even when couples are not dealing with the many and the varied challenges of BP.

That said, it's not impossible to live together and to thrive!

I know my H and I would have done much better, would have been much better for one another if we had involved a good observer/negotiator, something like a couples counselor. An impartial 3rd party can be very helpful in assisting couples to manage major challenges/stressors like, but not limited to, ongoing MI/BP/stressors.

Whatever you decide, my friend, I wish you nothing but happiness!

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I'm obsessed over this dog we can't afford. I have a wonderful, loving, dog. (I'm not neglecting her) she lays on me, we play, she's always by my side so I feel like I'm betraying her. Still feel like I'm going to get arrested but am hiding it well. Co-op went well today I'm not teaching this semester but I'm planing on writing and gathering stuff up to help other home school parents. I may take a drawing class but it's a bit expensive for me it's $6.25 an hour class but you have to pay for all the classes upfront. H says to do it but IDK. I use to draw for hours and get lost in drawing. I haven't drawn in over 10 years. I want to take the drawing class because I know I'll get discouraged starting out on my own. I know I'll need hobbies soon but I can't justify the cost. I'd rather get the dog (adoption fee is about the same) but I know we can't afford more than one at a time.
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I woke up in a mild funk again. I don't know what to do today. I don't want to do anything, but don't want to do nothing, either. I should look at a French learning textbook. I'll push myself.

Tomorrow is another dreaded trip to Philly for my husband's eyes. The worst part is that his appointment is in the mid morning, instead of the usual 1 pm"ish". During commuter time. They were pressuring him to take an 8:30 am, but we said "No!" because we'd have to get up extremely early. I wish poor hubby's eye would finally recover well enough that these trips were just twice per year! We were there just four weeks ago. We've been making them for what seems like years. At least there is no snow in the forecast.

I see my therapist today. I don't feel like talking to her. I don't dislike her, but...I don't know. I am in a state of mind where I don't like anything. I'm even sick of myself right now. I'm irritable.

Does anyone here remember the children's book about "Pierre who doesn't care"? You know, how Pierre would keep responding "I don't care!" That stupid thing is going through my head. If I recall correctly, in the end Pierre said "I don't care" even when faced with the danger of being eaten by a lion. Am I right? Can someone remind me if the lion ended up eating him? Or did he suddenly care when faced with that imminent danger? It's been over 40 years since I read/heard that story.
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I googled that story, doesn't say how but it does say the Pierre learns to care.
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I googled that story, doesn't say how but it does say the Pierre learns to care.

Thank you, Nammu!

I think I was in 1st, 2nd, or 3rd grade when I first encountered that story. That was in the 1970s.
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I woke up in a mild funk again. I don't know what to do today. I don't want to do anything, but don't want to do nothing, either. I should look at a French learning textbook. I'll push myself.


Tomorrow is another dreaded trip to Philly for my husband's eyes. The worst part is that his appointment is in the mid morning, instead of the usual 1 pm"ish". During commuter time. They were pressuring him to take an 8:30 am, but we said "No!" because we'd have to get up extremely early. I wish poor hubby's eye would finally recover well enough that these trips were just twice per year! We were there just four weeks ago. We've been making them for what seems like years. At least there is no snow in the forecast.


I see my therapist today. I don't feel like talking to her. I don't dislike her, but...I don't know. I am in a state of mind where I don't like anything. I'm even sick of myself right now. I'm irritable.


Does anyone here remember the children's book about "Pierre who doesn't care"? You know, how Pierre would keep responding "I don't care!" That stupid thing is going through my head. If I recall correctly, in the end Pierre said "I don't care" even when faced with the danger of being eaten by a lion. Am I right? Can someone remind me if the lion ended up eating him? Or did he suddenly care when faced with that imminent danger? It's been over 40 years since I read/heard that story.
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I'm feeling withdrawn, depressed, and everything hurts. The depression is back.

I'm waiting for Remeron to kick in. I hope it does soon but I only went on the full dose 5 days ago, so it might be a while.

A positive is that my website is getting lots of traffic from search, which is great for a couple of reasons. 1. I'm writing about stuff that people are looking for and 2. I'm high enough in there search result for people to click through to my site.

While I was having sleep problems I used the time to learn and write so I posted a bunch of articles and it's nice to see people reading them.
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Scooter9, thanks so much for the link to the video! I watched/listened to it and hadn't quite remembered the ending. I liked the ending very much! I hope your depression eases soon. I've been dealing with some, too, but am not yet to the point of a medication adjustment. I hope it doesn't come to that.

I have a blog that I used to be very active in posting on. However, this past year (or even almost two years) I've posted only occasionally. Before slowing down, I reached about 1,200 followers, but if I don't post, most don't visit often. Like you, Scooter, most of my traffic is from various search engines when I don't post often. I find it quite curious which of my posts seem to get the most views from such visitors. I do know a teeny bit about SEO (but not expert) so realize that the titles and key words in my posts make a big difference. Also, for some posts I try to expedite getting Google's attention by submitting the post's URL to Google Index. I think that is helpful for me. Perhaps your website makes my blog look pretty piddly, though. I'm just a novice blogger.
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