Bipolar check-in #42

~Christina · Jan 19, 2020 at 10:02 PM

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Originally Posted by Moose72

Thats colder than here! Last January we had -40 windchills! School was cancelled. Its not easy to cancel schools for weather around here.

Oh hell no no no ! I’d die

Moose72 · Jan 19, 2020 at 10:45 PM

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Originally Posted by ~Christina

Oh hell no no no ! I’d die

Yeah. Cars were too cold to start. We stayed inside for days. -40 is no joke- noses and fingertips start falling off within a short amount of time.

falcon09 · Jan 19, 2020 at 11:11 PM

Just waiting around, sitting on my couch, napping, waiting for the new dose of Lithium to kick in and for me to start feeling less depressed.

My pdoc really doesn't want me on an antidepressant but I might beg for one next time I see him.

~Christina · Jan 19, 2020 at 11:24 PM

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Originally Posted by falcon09

Just waiting around, sitting on my couch, napping, waiting for the new dose of Lithium to kick in and for me to start feeling less depressed.

My pdoc really doesn't want me on an antidepressant but I might beg for one next time I see him.

What coping skills are you using ? It sucks to wait for a Med to kick in , so you have to fill that time with something .. any hobby? Cook ? Clean? Exercise ? Journaling? Maybe long walks unless your snow bound. Sometimes putting on a comedy , you might not start laughing but your subconscious will remember that the movie was funny and that can give you a little nudge.

I’m just rambling things I have done in the past some might help or be useless.

Just some thoughts

falcon09 · Jan 19, 2020 at 11:49 PM

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Originally Posted by ~Christina

What coping skills are you using ? It sucks to wait for a Med to kick in , so you have to fill that time with something .. any hobby? Cook ? Clean? Exercise ? Journaling? Maybe long walks unless your snow bound. Sometimes putting on a comedy , you might not start laughing but your subconscious will remember that the movie was funny and that can give you a little nudge.

I’m just rambling things I have done in the past some might help or be useless.

Just some thoughts

<3 thanks

I'm mostly just watching tv, and going on walks when it isn't too cold (not snowbound, thankfully.)

xRavenx · Jan 20, 2020 at 01:49 AM

I'm sort of all over the place. In order to challenge myself, I randomly re-activated my online dating profile to force myself to socialize. I met up with someone today. I thought things were going okay, but he took something I said out of context. Sometimes I'm awkward and bad at expressing myself. But come to think of it, although we were able to talk about some shared interests, there wasn't much chemistry. I admit I am not really in the right mental space to date and will probably go back into my shell after this. Dating is really not the answer to my problems right now. In fact, it will probably only give me more problems. I just didn't think any of this through.

bpcyclist · Jan 20, 2020 at 03:25 AM

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Originally Posted by falcon09

Just waiting around, sitting on my couch, napping, waiting for the new dose of Lithium to kick in and for me to start feeling less depressed.

My pdoc really doesn't want me on an antidepressant but I might beg for one next time I see him.

Speaking as a bp 1 person with a history of crushing depression and multiple S attempts, I am not a fan of the broad generalization that bp 1 patients should never be on an antidepressant because they will all instantly become manic. Again, as I have said before, I believe that a good number of US psychiatrists de-prioritize depression management in bp 1, often believing that, as long as the pt. isn't manic, everything's just great!!! Well, I think that's bullsh**. Our quality of life DOES freaking matter. Asking us to be depressed for years on end (as I was) so you can feel good about us not thinking we're Jesus is malpractice, in my optinion.

Pookyl · Jan 20, 2020 at 03:43 AM

Had multiple doc appointments/procedures today. Lots of anxiety. Managed to muddle my way through. Have to sleep with a monitor attached tonight so that’ll be interesting to see how it impacts my sleep.
Hugs to those who need them.

falcon09 · Jan 20, 2020 at 06:22 AM

Couldn't sleep. Probably because I slept for like 3-4 days off and on.

I'm in a better mood today than I have been for a few weeks. I'm not happy but I'm not super depressed. Maybe the Lithium is starting to work

Innerzone · Jan 20, 2020 at 12:20 PM

Been on a downward slide. Having a very hard time getting up in the mornings. Not that there's a choice, what with nothing or no one to fall back on. BDD's been on my case too. Ugh. I added Abilify back into the mix (that's been the go-to plan for such times for a few years now. That said, it's a self-directed move, as I am between providers.)

I dunno. It's not horrible, but it's not good either.

Many hugs for anyone who could use them.

IronButterflyWings · Jan 20, 2020 at 01:05 PM

Feeling very up and down right now. Going through medication changes... yet again. So today just trying to keep busy.

Ready for the 31st to get here, but time seems to be going so slowly. Going on vacation and my anxiety is high about it too. Hoping that my bipolar doesn't cause issues during vacation.

Amethyst_Stargazer · Jan 20, 2020 at 01:14 PM

Today I am feeling good and having a great day so far. I'm planning on cleaning my room a little bit and organizing things around.

For the past week, I was depressed and feeling very down. I'm glad I am feeling happy today for once.

Nammu · Jan 20, 2020 at 02:23 PM

Same ole same ole. Flurrys and cold. Got my clothes washed yesterday and put away today. Even made the bed. Emotions are boringly stable. Which is a good thing of course. If the roads were better I'd go buy some puzzles. I'm soo bored that puzzles and coloring books have appeal. The book I'm reading is good but it's a small paperback with tiny print and my eyes are getting blurry again. I think I got glasses 6 months ago so much too soon for this!

Got the original magnum pi on but it's a flashback episode and is dark, hard to see. Worried about my eyes. Dad went legally blind younger than me. That's terrifying.

Jan 20, 2020 at 03:06 PM

I'm doing well. I didn't get to go skiing like I said I would, but I'm going this week, nothing can stop me! Today marks 100 days out of the hospital so I'm pretty happy about that. I made chocolate chip cookies today, and they're delicious!

Warm hugs to everyone!

Moose72 · Jan 20, 2020 at 03:34 PM

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Originally Posted by Nammu

Same ole same ole. Flurrys and cold. Got my clothes washed yesterday and put away today. Even made the bed. Emotions are boringly stable. Which is a good thing of course. If the roads were better I'd go buy some puzzles. I'm soo bored that puzzles and coloring books have appeal. The book I'm reading is good but it's a small paperback with tiny print and my eyes are getting blurry again. I think I got glasses 6 months ago so much too soon for this!

Got the original magnum pi on but it's a flashback episode and is dark, hard to see. Worried about my eyes. Dad went legally blind younger than me. That's terrifying.

Maybe its just the small print doing that? I just had an exam and new glasses and still im not superwoman where my eyesight is concerned.

Moose72 · Jan 20, 2020 at 03:37 PM

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Originally Posted by spikes

I'm doing well. I didn't get to go skiing like I said I would, but I'm going this week, nothing can stop me! Today marks 100 days out of the hospital so I'm pretty happy about that. I made chocolate chip cookies today, and they're delicious!

Warm hugs to everyone!

Ooh! Are they homemade- you know with a bowl and spoon and brown sugar and vanilla etc? Place-and-bakes just aren't the same to me. My ex makes the best chocolate chip cookies. He's perfected the recipe over the years.

Congrats on 100 days! That's so great.

Moose72 · Jan 20, 2020 at 03:46 PM

Slow day here. Taking N3 to his piano lesson in an hour. He actually practiced this week! I hope it shows at his lesson. I slept in and had crazy dreams about giving birth. Peter didnt hear from me this morning- sometimes I need a break from people- and in fact I specifically need a permanant break from HIM- so he texted me was there something wrong with me- maybe something happened. I feel smothered and im getting to think that his version of our relationship is not the same as mine. In fact, I want to end it. Period. Now *I* want to make chocolate chip cookies but I have no chocolate chips and my daughter took the cooking bowls when she moved out! *sigh...*

Jan 20, 2020 at 04:08 PM

Considering that my husband joined me at the grocery store, we kept the bill comparatively low. When hubby comes, there are always many items in the cart that would not be there if I went alone. It always annoys me that he gets a separate cart from me. That 1) furthers the risk of him buying all kinds of miscellaneous stuff, 2) makes it look like we're buying for a family of six instead of two, 3) we sometimes end up with duplicate items, and 4) he's never to be found. I spend half the time trying to track him down in the store. I try to call him on my cell phone, but he never answers. I'm kind of a "Boom, boom, boom!" shopper. He's a sloooooooooow browser.

Of course he also buys items that are extremely tempting for me, that I usually never buy. He just says "Well then don't eat them!" I'm referring to a French-style yogurt in glass jars called "Oui" by Yoplait. They're just too hard to say "Non!" to. They remind us of southern Bohemian (Czech) style yogurts.

Jan 20, 2020 at 04:21 PM

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Originally Posted by Moose72

Ooh! Are they homemade- you know with a bowl and spoon and brown sugar and vanilla etc? Place-and-bakes just aren't the same to me. My ex makes the best chocolate chip cookies. He's perfected the recipe over the years.

Congrats on 100 days! That's so great.

Yes, they are home made. I agree that place-and-bakes aren't the same

Wild Coyote · Jan 20, 2020 at 05:15 PM

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Originally Posted by Nammu

Same ole same ole. Flurrys and cold. Got my clothes washed yesterday and put away today. Even made the bed. Emotions are boringly stable. Which is a good thing of course. If the roads were better I'd go buy some puzzles. I'm soo bored that puzzles and coloring books have appeal. The book I'm reading is good but it's a small paperback with tiny print and my eyes are getting blurry again. I think I got glasses 6 months ago so much too soon for this!

Got the original magnum pi on but it's a flashback episode and is dark, hard to see. Worried about my eyes. Dad went legally blind younger than me. That's terrifying.

The prospect of losing your vision must, indeed, be terrifying!

Is there any way of telling, through your current exams, if you have any symptoms he had, as in symptoms/findings more specific to the same condition he had?

I've watched a very good friend slowly lose her vision to "Wet AMD." She has always been a very active person and an avid reader. The changes have been difficult for her.

I feel it takes courage to share about our fears. I am grateful you feel you can open up here!

Let's hope you are on a different path than was your dad.

Let's hope your vision will be just fine.

(((((( Nammu ))))))

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falcon09 Grand Magnate Member Since Feb 2015 Location: United States Posts: 3,018 9 1,867 hugs given	Jan 19, 2020 at 11:11 PM #263 Just waiting around, sitting on my couch, napping, waiting for the new dose of Lithium to kick in and for me to start feeling less depressed. My pdoc really doesn't want me on an antidepressant but I might beg for one next time I see him. __________________

falcon09 Grand Magnate Member Since Feb 2015 Location: United States Posts: 3,018 9 1,867 hugs given	Jan 20, 2020 at 06:22 AM #269 Couldn't sleep. Probably because I slept for like 3-4 days off and on. I'm in a better mood today than I have been for a few weeks. I'm not happy but I'm not super depressed. Maybe the Lithium is starting to work __________________

IronButterflyWings Member Member Since Aug 2018 Location: PA Posts: 34 5 18 hugs given	Jan 20, 2020 at 01:05 PM #271 Feeling very up and down right now. Going through medication changes... yet again. So today just trying to keep busy. Ready for the 31st to get here, but time seems to be going so slowly. Going on vacation and my anxiety is high about it too. Hoping that my bipolar doesn't cause issues during vacation.

Amethyst_Stargazer Member Member Since Oct 2016 Location: Florida USA Posts: 365 7 56 hugs given	Jan 20, 2020 at 01:14 PM #272 Today I am feeling good and having a great day so far. I'm planning on cleaning my room a little bit and organizing things around. For the past week, I was depressed and feeling very down. I'm glad I am feeling happy today for once.

Anonymous43918 Guest Posts: n/a	Jan 20, 2020 at 03:06 PM #274 I'm doing well. I didn't get to go skiing like I said I would, but I'm going this week, nothing can stop me! Today marks 100 days out of the hospital so I'm pretty happy about that. I made chocolate chip cookies today, and they're delicious! Warm hugs to everyone!