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Grand Magnate
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I’m going to call my pdoc tomorrow to make sure she approves me increasing the Wellbutrin we decreased when I was manic back in Sept. I feel myself slowly slipping into a depression the last few days...I feel so incredibly down and unmotivated. And all I want to do is sleep. I literally have been sleeping half the day. We didn’t go to church yesterday only because I couldn’t get up and my church doesn’t start until 11:45. Then today, my daughter conned me into going to the grocery to get her Alfredo and I went with makeup from yesterday smeared all over under my eyes and without brushing my teeth. I didn’t even care. And I haven’t showered in what’s about to be 3 days. And yes, I know that’s disgusting. I hope I can turn this around quickly. I am going to try to get in with my therapist too. We spaced out sessions to 3 weeks because I’ve been doing so well but there’s no way I can wait until the end of January. I’m hoping she can fit me in Wed or Thurs as a matter of fact. Anyway, just needed to vent. Thanks for listening!
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I am sorry you are so depressed. I hope this turns around quickly and you get back to stable, soon! Do you have a seasonal pattern with your moods at all?
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Good for you for having the insight to appreciate this change and good on you for advocating for yourself. In my version of bp 1, my illness casn shift on a freaking dime. Overnight. Literally. None of this DSM 5 crap. That's a bunch of BS. This illness can and will do anything. So, I am really glad you are doing this. I have found Wellbutrin to be the most helpful AD I have ever used.
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You've certainly had your share of stress lately. This may be playing into your change in mood?
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Ugh. I so feel for you. I hope you are able to get an earlier appointment.
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#6
Sometimes my moods are affected seasonally but that’s not always the case. I think it might be part of the problem though and I do also have some other stressors that could be causing it. I too hope it won’t last but it seems to be getting worse instead of better.
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Grand Magnate
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#7
My therapist got me in on Thurs afternoon. My pdoc returned my call and an increase of the Wellbutrin is the first step according to her as well. She told me to call in a couple weeks to let her know if it’s working or not and if it isn’t, she will try Trintellix (sp?) which I’ve never before taken. This mood seems to be escalating quickly though. I was having sui thoughts last night and slept well past 2:00 today. My husband is off tomorrow and it’s not a day he’ll have to sleep all day either so he’ll probably wake me up much earlier or keep me up after the kids get on the bus. Then, I’ll have his company all day. Hopefully that will help some.
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