Bipolar check-in #43

yellow_fleurs · Feb 24, 2020 at 06:32 PM

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Originally Posted by Innerzone

Mind if I just vent? I was having a perfectly good morning, then the phone rang. It was a wrong number.
"Hello?"
"This is ****".
"I don't know any ****s".
"Then maybe you ought to take better care with the numbers you dial!"

WTF??!! It's bad enough when people don't apologize for it -- but to YELL at you for THEIR mistake?! What an *******!!!!!

Gotta breathe. My heart rate's still up. What is WRONG with people?!!!!

That is IT for picking up numbers not on my (quite short) list!!!!! Grrrrr.

Other than that, fine.

That sounds frustrating! So, they thought you had called them first? I actually had a situation where I called back a number that had "called" me and the person was super confused as they hadn't really called me. It led to a rather confusing conversation of who called who. I can only assume some scam or something, and that it wasn't the real number that had called me. Maybe that is what happened here? Either way, there was no reason for them to yell at you about it.

Edit to add: I see Birddancer already mentioned this could be the reason.

yellow_fleurs · Feb 24, 2020 at 06:39 PM

Wander, I am sorry you are struggling, and glad at the moment you are okay as that sounds like a close call. Please stay safe and keep us posted.

yellow_fleurs · Feb 24, 2020 at 06:54 PM

I woke up ruminating, feeling down and anxious. A bit frustrating to just start your day off like that, however I made myself breakfast, showered and got to work and was decently productive. So, I am glad I didn't let myself spiral too far. I am going to make some shrimp fajitas tonight and a kale salad. I will try to get some decent sleep, and tomorrow I am going to try out a new class at the gym with my friend. I am trying to make sure I go a few times a week to combat the anxiety and restlessness.

~Christina · 07:22 PM

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Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs

I woke up ruminating, feeling down and anxious. A bit frustrating to just start your day off like that, however I made myself breakfast, showered and got to work and was decently productive. So, I am glad I didn't let myself spiral too far. I am going to make some shrimp fajitas tonight and a kale salad. I will try to get some decent sleep, and tomorrow I am going to try out a new class at the gym with my friend. I am trying to make sure I go a few times a week to combat the anxiety and restlessness.

Sorry your not having a great day but your seeing things you need to do that will help you feel better, great insight

~Christina · Feb 24, 2020 at 07:21 PM

Well I picked up my second bottle of Xeljanz today. Most of the nausea when taking it twice a day has faded. Thankfully, not having any side effects so I’m happy about that, hopefull it will start helping, hurry up and wait Medication.

I’ve been on Fosamax weekly for probably over a year now because my bones are being jerks. But it’s a difficult pill , must take on empty stomach with a ton of water and nothing to eat or drink besides water for an hour. So I just feel queasy and dizzy all day.

I know I have options I see my GP in April so we can discuss alternatives. It does get a bit tricky because I’m on meds for PsA. Lots of meds for an auto immune disease just don’t play well with others.

Another grey gloomy rainy day... 50-52 degrees more damp feeling than cold. Last week highs 60 and lows 20

Middle Tennessee winters are so strange.

Hugs to all ~

Moose72 · 08:19 PM

Hello all. Things are better on this front. Had a good day today n3-wise. We had dinner at Chili's and he paid. I'm feeling dozey- maybe the haldol I took or maybe its just 8:00 p.m. and I'm in bed. I spent part of the day stealing my own photos from a website online that I'd forgotten I put them. Woohoo! Makes me happy. Also saw my fwb- BIG GRIN.

ETA: I keep catastrophizing things. N3 went into the Amazon locker and something told me that he

Possible trigger:

was going to be shot

. Also seeing crashes happen out of thin air. So I'm good and bad today I guess now that I think about it. Ramped up yet horror movie hallucinations.

giddykitty · Feb 24, 2020 at 08:17 PM

Another crappy day made crappier! All that made me happy was seeing "my kitties" but even that got tainted.

I messed up dinner (again) and hubby isn't too pleased. Says he keeps telling me not to let food sit in the fridge for days and to cook it right away. Well, excuse me, but we've been away for two days and I was sick of the food the day before that (like actually feeling nauseated to think about it). ugh! i'm always messing something up and i just feel like utter **** right now!

Victoria'smom · Feb 24, 2020 at 08:23 PM

My desire to get my hair done is not going to happen. I can get it cut but not colored. DH says get it done but I can't justify the price. I need to at least cut it because I'm not taking care of it. It's to my butt. I'm cutting it to my chin I can't see spending that much on dye. We'll see. I've been so tired lately. My anxiety is high and I'm not telling anyone about the bugs. Hopefully they go away soon.

BeyondtheRainbow · Feb 24, 2020 at 08:41 PM

MM-Did you wind up taking the 4x increase in the lexapro? Could that be why you feel anxious and tired? I don't know a lot about lexapro but other SSRIs threw me for a loop and were nasty in every possible way.

Why aren't you telling your husband about the bugs?

Can you dye your hair yourself after the cut? I again know nothing about this aside from there is an aisle of dye at Walmart

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~Christina · Feb 24, 2020 at 08:44 PM

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Originally Posted by Moose72

Hello all. Things are better on this front. Had a good day today n3-wise. We had dinner at Chili's and he paid. I'm feeling dozey- maybe the haldol I took or maybe its just 8:00 p.m. and I'm in bed. I spent part of the day stealing my own photos from a website online that I'd forgotten I put them. Woohoo! Makes me happy. Also saw my fwb- BIG GRIN.

ETA: I keep catastrophizing things. N3 went into the Amazon locker and something told me that he

Possible trigger:

was going to be shot

. Also seeing crashes happen out of thin air. So I'm good and bad today I guess now that I think about it. Ramped up yet horror movie hallucinations.

I’m glad you had a good day but worried tonight’s could be a problem. Maybe the prn again tonight ?

Fantastic finding your pics

~Christina · Feb 24, 2020 at 08:49 PM

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Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

My desire to get my hair done is not going to happen. I can get it cut but not colored. DH says get it done but I can't justify the price. I need to at least cut it because I'm not taking care of it. It's to my butt. I'm cutting it to my chin I can't see spending that much on dye. We'll see. I've been so tired lately. My anxiety is high and I'm not telling anyone about the bugs. Hopefully they go away soon.

So Great Clips or Whatever chain you have down there is like 12-14 for a hair cut, Hellmart carries a hair color called Olia it’s a good quality it’s 10 or 11 a box , chin length hair 1 box is plenty.

Moose72 · Feb 24, 2020 at 08:57 PM

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Originally Posted by ~Christina

I’m glad you had a good day but worried tonight’s could be a problem. Maybe the prn again tonight ?

Fantastic finding your pics

I took 4 mg before we went to n3s piano lesson.

Victoria'smom · Feb 24, 2020 at 09:18 PM

Olia it’s a good quality it’s 10 or 11 a box , chin length hair 1 box is plenty. They have my colors! Now to convince DH to dye my hair or call my sister!

Daonnachd · Feb 24, 2020 at 09:31 PM

MM, I hope you're able to do what you want with your hair.

It's a drag to come on here just to whinge. I try not to. Lately I haven't been feeling so great, but ECT is coming up 6 March. That'll be relief.

Sunflower123 · Feb 24, 2020 at 09:48 PM

This thread moves so fast it’s hard to keep up. It’s moving faster then I can hug. So many people are struggling. I’m sending out compassion, support and hugs for all.

I’m doing well and I’m grateful for it. I’m still working on my social anxiety so I have many events lined up. Hopefully, I won’t chicken out of any of them. I’m giving it one last try.

Warm regards to all.

Wander · Feb 24, 2020 at 09:54 PM

Sorry I haven’t been responding to posts lately. I’ve been overwhelmed and having trouble concentrating. I do read, and I do care.

Saw my pdoc this morning. He believes my explosive rage on the weekend, and near attempt are PTSD related. We talked for some time. He made sure I was safe and seeing my T tomorrow. He wants me to email him if things slide even a little. I am doing well today so he is hoping I have properly calmed down now. He was incredibly supportive and understanding . He did not judge me for becoming violent against others and myself but instead made sure I was no longer close to that point. As I’ve calmed he doesn’t want to hospitalise me. I can take Seroquel prn if needed. He will be in contact with my T.

I’m happy with my pdoc. Today I feel much calmer and have more energy. With University classes beginning this afternoon I’m so thankful I feel better. I’m thinking of something I can do to thank(and apologise to) my partner. I put him through a lot and he remained supportive. Ideas welcome.

~Christina · Feb 24, 2020 at 10:36 PM

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Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

Olia it’s a good quality it’s 10 or 11 a box , chin length hair 1 box is plenty. They have my colors! Now to convince DH to dye my hair or call my sister!

Good !! A new hair style is a good pick me up

~Christina · Feb 24, 2020 at 10:39 PM

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Originally Posted by Daonnachd

MM, I hope you're able to do what you want with your hair.

It's a drag to come on here just to whinge. I try not to. Lately I haven't been feeling so great, but ECT is coming up 6 March. That'll be relief.

Your not whining. We are all here because we find comfort and support... Birds of a feather

~Christina · Feb 24, 2020 at 10:40 PM

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Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

This thread moves so fast it’s hard to keep up. It’s moving faster then I can hug. So many people are struggling. I’m sending out compassion, support and hugs for all.

I’m doing well and I’m grateful for it. I’m still working on my social anxiety so I have many events lined up. Hopefully, I won’t chicken out of any of them. I’m giving it one last try.

Warm regards to all.

I’m glad your doing well

~Christina · Feb 24, 2020 at 10:44 PM

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Originally Posted by Wander

Sorry I haven’t been responding to posts lately. I’ve been overwhelmed and having trouble concentrating. I do read, and I do care.

Saw my pdoc this morning. He believes my explosive rage on the weekend, and near attempt are PTSD related. We talked for some time. He made sure I was safe and seeing my T tomorrow. He wants me to email him if things slide even a little. I am doing well today so he is hoping I have properly calmed down now. He was incredibly supportive and understanding . He did not judge me for becoming violent against others and myself but instead made sure I was no longer close to that point. As I’ve calmed he doesn’t want to hospitalise me. I can take Seroquel prn if needed. He will be in contact with my T.

I’m happy with my pdoc. Today I feel much calmer and have more energy. With University classes beginning this afternoon I’m so thankful I feel better. I’m thinking of something I can do to thank(and apologise to) my partner. I put him through a lot and he remained supportive. Ideas welcome.

Glad your better than last night , I was worried.

I think the best gift you could have for him is you both sitting down and writing up a safety contract/crisis plan and letting him know you will honestly believe him if he feels you need help.

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yellow_fleurs Grand Poohbah Member Since Jun 2018 Location: US Posts: 1,512 5 1,265 hugs given	Feb 24, 2020 at 06:39 PM #682 Wander, I am sorry you are struggling, and glad at the moment you are okay as that sounds like a close call. Please stay safe and keep us posted.

Victoria'smom Legendary Member Since Apr 2012 Location: Earth Posts: 14,915 (SuperPoster!) 12 5,449 hugs given	Feb 24, 2020 at 09:18 PM #693 Olia it’s a good quality it’s 10 or 11 a box , chin length hair 1 box is plenty. They have my colors! Now to convince DH to dye my hair or call my sister! __________________ Dx: Me- SzA Husband- Bipolar 1 Daughter- mood disorder+ Comfortable broken and happy "So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk My blog

Daonnachd Magnate Member Since Feb 2006 Location: Napa Valley Posts: 2,116 18 3,379 hugs given	Feb 24, 2020 at 09:31 PM #694 MM, I hope you're able to do what you want with your hair. It's a drag to come on here just to whinge. I try not to. Lately I haven't been feeling so great, but ECT is coming up 6 March. That'll be relief. __________________ ><