Bipolar check-in #43

Hi! I'm very sorry you are having s rough time.. you do cross my mind and I sometimes I say a prayer. Have been concerned, as we just never know what's up!. It's great to have you around. Just so sorry.

I hope there are other docs to see if needed.
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I am here. I had a six hour workday today. I just barely got through with it. Tomorrow is eight hours. I do nit know how I am going to do it. At least I have an hour lunch break. Every two hours, I have a 15 minute break, except for lunch. I am really tired right now. I am going to go to bed early.

Hi all. I’m feeling pretty good again today. I’m a bit irritable but I’m not sure if it’s a side effect from the risperdal or just my wonderful personality

HI to all, and hugs to those who need one. This week I have almost finished all my organising/errands that I wanted to get done before university begins in 10 days. The only things left are potting some plants and cleaning my flat. I have to go slow to avoid making the Fibromyalgia worse. Thankfully, this week it has slowly improved. I have been going for gentle swims in the ocean regularly. I do crash a little after, but my recovery time is improving. My hip injury from a year ago is still giving me grief. Just when I think it's over something triggers it and it flares up again. These physical limitations frustrate me endlessly, and sometimes lead me into despair.

Today I am feeling good mentally. The anxiety that was plaguing me has finally eased so I can now begin tapering down my clonazepam dose. The weather has been hot this week so my tiny little flat without air-conditioning is beginning to warm up. Even the nights are hot so I can't even open the windows then to cool the place down. At least I have fans to keep me cool enough. On Wednesday I saw my T and we had a great chat. The session went 20 minutes over. I hadn't realised the time and my T seemed to be enjoying the discussion. We were talking about my diagnosis, my physical illnesses, and how I think I will go adding 20 hours a week of study to my load. He initially thought I was getting hypomanic as I was talking faster, and changing topics, but I explained I was just happy to be feeling a little better and saw no other symptoms (outside some insomnia) that would indicate hypomania. My mind is running at a normal pace. I think the previous month I have been so fatigued I spoke slowly, and sparingly with my T so now I feel a bit better I am back to normal speech patterns. He ended up agreeing that I am still stable.

Due to being so exhausted this last month(Fibromyalgia) I have not been out much, or caught up with people. I am getting lonely so I have tried to set up catch up with a few people but they say they want to then don't get back to me. Life gets in the way I guess. This weekend I am going to finally catch up with my partner who I haven't seen in 10 days due to him and I being unwell. Fibromyalgia steals so much from me. This massive flare-up seemed to be caused by the severe PTSD I had last year. All that adrenaline and stress finally made me physically ill again. Now I have little stress in my life, eat well, meditate, and do other things to keep me calm and get me strong, I have hope that my body will recover. At least to a degree where I can look for casual work and do well in my studies. The mental fight against despair is constant but I refuse to give in. It has been a long battle to get stable mentally. I am tired from it, but I WON! Now I just need the physical to follow suit and I will be the happiest I have ever been while stable.

I saw my therapist yesterday and she helped me a lot with tips, techniques and perspective on things currently going on. I’m feeling great and very zen which is right where I want to be.

Warm regards to all and hugs to those that are struggling.

Wander- your post reminded me about my physical chronic illness. (I don't mention it because it's rare and I don't want to make a red flag in case anyone I know ever comes to read this, but I have to take aspirin for it). Anyway, I had been doing pretty well with it for a long time (what, like a year or so?) but I'm starting to break out into blisters again on my fingers. :/ I'm sure this new habit of hair twirling and fingernail/cuticle rubbing and picking isn't helping either. Plus, it's that time of the month and my inflammation always increases then too. Maybe it will die down by next week, but it's winter and usually that's when this flares up most (blisters in winter and redness/burning in hot weather). Sigh!

Yay ! That’s a nice surprise

Oh damn

Wow you are just getting hit from all sides ! I hope the cold clears quickly and you can get the dental over with.

That’s so sweet of him just take your time arraigning them, enjoy the beauty

I’m so sorry I use to get them a lot.. they just stopped after my hysterectomy.. they are horrible to suffer with.

Hope you get good sleep

I can’t remember ?! but did you go to ssa to let them know you have taken a part time job?

Glad your feeling good.

Hehe yeah ! You do have a wonderful personality

Wonderful

I had a good day, did lots of good work on Scrabble. I had an upsetting trip to the mall but that just made me appreciate my quiet private home all the more. My dog is spooked because of loud bangs in the building as the materials expand and contract due to the extreme cold. She clings to me. It's going to be one of those nights!

Well it’s been in the mid 60’s and raining for week and a half at least then last night wicked storms blew through. There was another tornado in town there was one last week !! No deaths thank god ! A dairy farm was totally destroyed and many homes, cars and of course trees down.. I think the power has been mostly restored.

Once again my husband and I got lucky

So mid 60’s, will be 20 and feels like of 10 by morning .. so Ouch my body isn’t happy.

Tomorrow my Husband gets his MRI’s and angiogram.. this is very stressful.

Hug friends

Sorry you are being piled on with all this stuff at once, Blue_Bird. I hope you get some rest tonight.

Thanks for always being so supportive. I'm just waiting to see what's going to have with my mouth. I'm strongly considering getting back into therapy. I haven't done it in about 7 or 8 years. I think at this point I'm frustrated enough that it may be beneficial to me. I kind of feel like I'm going to explode from bottling everything up from living with bipolar for 20 years and mostly keeping my experiences and emotions to myself. If that makes sense. But the people in my life probably wouldn't get it, nor want to hear about it. So I'm thinking it'd be a good outlet for me. Of course I know I can always vent here. I know at lot of you here would totally get a lot of it!

Thinking of you and hoping all goes well for your husband today.

Sorry to hear about the storms. Tornadoes are always so frightening. I know we never get any beyond an EF3 up here, though, so we definitely don't get it as bad as you do.

I have an online friend who lives in TN and was telling me about how radars and radios work for this stuff. (Or how there are radar dead zones.) Her house almost got hit because she lives in a dead zone and a tornado cropped up between scans as well.

Continue to stay safe

Thanks for the interpretation info, fern. That was very helpful.