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Hi Christina. Three years to go from pixie cut to the length in your avatar photo seems quick, in my book. My hair takes forever to grow, except for my bangs, for some reason. The shortest hair that looks OK on me is a short bob. I have had shorter as a teen and couldn't pull it off. My hair is a bob now, but growing. It gets really big with my curls. Your suggestion about pulling it back wet is one I'll try. It does straighten a bit when I pull it back, but hubby says I look like a child, when I do. Not long ago, I went to my psychiatrist's office with it pulled back and he stared at me with an incredibly perplexed look, as if he didn't know me (I've known him for 14 years), and commented about it. I guess my curly hair is something people associate with me. When my hubby got home I mentioned this story. That's when he said the thing about me looking like a child with it back. He said it looks better down.
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I took the Latuda at night. My mood has been fine since stopping it. If there is withdrawal, it's only affecting me physically. I am vulnerable to indigestion/heartburn. Ever since my teen years. Maybe it is anxiety-related. Ativan helps, but I deliberately didn't take Ativan (a prn) last night. It usually starts around 5 pm, before hubby gets home. It has affected my desire to cook. Last night I ordered delivery. The night before just microwaved leftovers, that were a quick meal the day before that. I should prep dinner in the early afternoon, when I feel OK. Hugs |
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bpcyclist, sorry you couldn't sleep last night, but hopefully fern is right that it was just a fluke. I am jealous that you are making some great progress on your book. Since mentioning my book progress I have had total writer's block. Have you already had your bike ride? Me? I'm still lazy in bed, and I am on the opposite coast from you, I think. Hubby and I do plan to walk along the canal after the post office. Coincidentally, he is mailing out a copy of a book he recently finished working on. His has nothing to do with mental illness.
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I think, I THINK I am starting to feel better. The pink eye is gone after just two days of drops. My throat is no longer sore. I’m still having intense sinus pain in the middle of the night after the Sudafed has worn off but I’m hoping that will die down as I continue the antibiotics. I’m still completely exhausted too but I know it can take time to build up your energy after being sick for so long. I’m going to rest today and tomorrow and then hopefully by Monday I’ll be able to go to work and not want to die lol.
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All I know is that it's a damn shame when doctors can't show basic respect or at least attempt to understand someone's situation when that person reaches out for help. But I guess... they're not the ones with the problem, right? It's not them who has to deal with it, so what do they care? I have a love-hate relationship with my therapist, but she will at least return phone calls herself and offer "crisis" appointments at the end of her workday if needed. (So basically, she will offer to stay longer than normal in order to help a client in need.) My pdoc won't do that. But then again, what do you expect from a guy who won't even return phone calls himself |
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Yes, I left for my ride at about 6 AM my time. I could only stay out for about 90 minutes because it is absolutely freezing cold here this morning. There was ice on the mutli-use path I ride, which was interesting and not especially safe. I did not know there were canals in your state, but then, I am only really familiar with Bergen County. I had a good friend wh lived in Ridgewood and I spent a good deal of time there. I hope you feel better this afternoon!!! __________________ When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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He ended up walking home from her place last night in the dark. I don't think that's safe. See THIS is when he'll declare that he's an adult- when he does stupid shyt. __________________ Wellbutrin XL 300 mg Loxapine 50mg Ingrezza 80 mg Ativan .5 mg 2x/day Propranolol 20 mg 2x/day Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) Mania (April/May 2019) |
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All this talk about writing books! I only have my blog and that's surely not a book. Its very choppy, but it gets my thoughts down at the time and that's all I really want it for. Still, I'd like to write a book. I've read so many bipolar memoirs lately though - they all start out with a big bang of a bad episode. My pdoc keeps me so medicated to the gills that I have never HAD a "big exciting" episode. Yeah, last May I had a manic episode, and I did write in my blog at the time, but she squashed it with a mountain of Seroquel. I know- I'm not saying I WANT my episodes to be bad, I'm just saying that I'm usually good about catching the episodes myself. Last May, not so much. __________________ Wellbutrin XL 300 mg Loxapine 50mg Ingrezza 80 mg Ativan .5 mg 2x/day Propranolol 20 mg 2x/day Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) Mania (April/May 2019) |
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I just find myself reflecting on things. Since I've been stuck in this depressive episode for a long time now, it seems almost like it defines me, if that makes any sense. Also, lately I feel as if I need to be alone again. I wasn't isolating, but things weren't going well. Now, I feel the need to go back into my shell.
I re-start therapy next week with my last therapist, who I only had 2 sessions with and am not 100% comfortable with. I hope she meets me where I am at, because last time it felt like she was pushing me too far too soon. Certain things made me feel invalidated. I guess I need to be more vocal. I'm nervous about therapy, but it is better than the alternative (IOP, drastic med changes when I'm not ready to do so). Hopefully this will all pay off. __________________ Bipolar 1 Disorder, Unspecified Anxiety Disorder |
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My intended "memoir" of course includes stories about my bipolar episodes, but I am reluctant to call it a "bipolar memoir". I look at it as something more than that. Mine will include a collection of stories that I hope will seem like a journey. Hopefully an interesting one. |
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The memoirs I've read usually start out with a bang of an intense episode and then start with the author's childhood re: bipolar. Some are just a time line of each episode and/or hospitalization (like "Madness"by Marya Hornbacher) and some tie in other parts of their lives along with the bipolar aspect (like "Gorilla and the Bird"). Actually, Terri Cheney, author of "Manic", wrote a whole book about her childhood being bipolar called "The Dark Side of Innocence". So whatever your book turns out to be, I think I'd see it as a bipolar memoir- with an added bonus! (Like "Gorilla and the Bird"). __________________ Wellbutrin XL 300 mg Loxapine 50mg Ingrezza 80 mg Ativan .5 mg 2x/day Propranolol 20 mg 2x/day Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) Mania (April/May 2019) |
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I’ve been pretty well the past couple of days. A little irritability and anger, but I’ve been able to hold it off. This is something that I’ve had trouble with.
I am experiencing a side effect from one of my meds. I’m going to wait a week more and see if it gets up. I mean it lets up. __________________ Dust in the breeze it always comes Blocking out the Sun Up from the Ashes a Phoenix flies https://psychcentralforums.com/creat...er-s-rags.html https://psychcentralforums.com/creat...innocence.html |
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Today the weather continued to improve and so did i. I got in a shower right off and got out to enjoy the sunshine. Two more nice days on the way! Scrabble started out well with some good studying and an advanced play, EULOGIAE, quite unusual for me to make such a clever play. So i was pleased with that. Then i got two stinker games and decided i hated Scrabble. It can be terrific but then again it can be pretty darn awful. But then i watched some animated fractal videos and felt better. I like "Morphy's World" by Authur Sammet the best. It's really science-fiction-y.
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