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Legendary Wise Elder
Blue_Bird
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#721
Still feeling very depressed and having bad thoughts. Idk what’s wrong with me, This depressive episode is the worst I’ve had in years. I was able to get some cleaning done today so that’s good. I did get my psychiatrist appointment moved up to this Thursday because it wasn’t until March 10th and I need help sooner than that. I went to the crisis center yesterday. Basically it’s just a place at the clinic I go to where you can talk to someone if your feeling bad, and can do activities like drawing, coloring, listening to music, watching Netflix/YouTube on their big tv , have snacks and drinks like coffee tea or hot cocoa. I was honestly too anxious and tense to do any of those so I just talked to someone for a bit. It’s nice to know that’s available though it’s a great thing.
I’m missing my cats like crazy. Thank you for all your replies about them I appreciate it , sorry I haven’t been able to reply to everyone individually but I’m thankful for the support __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#722
School is closed tomorrow. Just about to take N3's gf home. We are supposed to get a lot of snow tomorrow into Thursday.
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#723
I went to the pharmacy to pick up meds today and as I approached the counter the pharmacist greeted me by name. I hesitated a brief instant then asked "How did you know it was me?" She said, "I recognised your face." I answered with, "Or was it my bald head?" She seemed to experience a mixture of shock and shame but I laughed. So I think she realised it wasn't something that bothered me.
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Location: Toronto, Canada
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#724
So my pdoc wants me to wait another 5 weeks to find out if the Remeron is working. She doesn't want to change anything until I have been on the increased dose for 8 weeks.
What a pain. __________________ * Dx: Unspecified Bipolar and Related Disorder * Rx: Latuda, Remeron, Prozac, Klonopin, Vraylar My avatar picture is a photo of the Whirlpool Galaxy I took in April 2023. I dedicated this photo to my sister who passed away in July 2016. |
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#725
Stayed up way too late watching a show yesterday, but somehow didn't feel too awful today as a result. I went to the gym after work and tried out a new class with dumbbells. It made me feel quite good and I am going to try to do it twice a week. I also might do yoga with my friend once a week if our schedules allow. I am pretty tired so will keep this update short. Sending compassion.
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#726
Still depressed and oversleeping and no energy. Only walked my dog for a few minutes today. It's not enough and i feel like a bad dogmom. Have an intense stomach ache for the second day in a row. From overeating. Have stomach aches more days than not. Have to get off Coke Zero. Studying Scrabble was interesting but playing was awful. I feel really out-of-control. I want to make healthy changes but i also want to make no effort at all.
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#728
Feeling pretty good. I’m still experiencing some mania symptoms. I have my second therapy appointment tomorrow morning. I also have to stop in and get my blood drawn for a Lithium level. You know. Typical bipolar s\*t.
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#729
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It's great that your appt. was moved up. I am sure you guys will come up with a game plan to get you headed in the right direction again soon. For the first couple of decades of my bipolar experience, I was very depression-dominant. I really, really feel for you. Just do what you can. Try not to set the bar too high right now. Be gentle with yourself. You will get through this. It is just going to take a little time. Sending you relief and peace and support and love!!!!!! __________________ When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#730
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__________________ When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#731
__________________ When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#732
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I'm sorry, I can't recall off the top of my head, have you guys made med moves lately? Sorry for asking. Hang in there. Do what you can do. Don't judge yourself. Your depression is sitting on you right now and expctations must be adjusted. Sending you support!!! __________________ When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#733
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Any chance this is connected to hormonal changes ? I might be mistaken but I think you had a few low days prior to your period in the last few months ?? I dunno just a thought Oh lord IRS audit We got audited about 5-6 years ago.. I got that letter and almost passed out I was shaking.. we called and ours just was plucked randomly out of the system. It was cleared up pretty quick I mean we are both on disability there’s no extra money anywhere. When we were working we had a local accountant do ours. Hope tomorrow is a better day for you __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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Legendary Wise Elder
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I’m so sorry your struggling I’m thinking the stress of moving even tho it’s a good thing could knock anyone sideways. Glad you have gotten an appt sooner ! That’s really awesome you have a place like that to go... Go easy on yourself __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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#735
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#736
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LOL. that’s funny ! __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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#737
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Ohhhhhhh damn 5 weeks ?? Long time, I understand that we get told that and it’s true meds take time but just hearing “5 weeks” would make me nauseous. Here’s hoping you get relief much much sooner __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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#739
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I’m sorry your feeling rough. Your Doggie will be fine. Think about times it’s pouring down rain for a few days so it’s take doggie out to potty then you both run back inside. Does your dog like to play fetch or something ? My 2 are mostly sleepy lazy critters, but here and there they will get frisky. Maybe teach yours a neat trick .. thousands of YouTube videos showing easy ways to train your pup , it would be good for you and your baby. I had a beagle stray we took in years ago, we live way outta town and unfortunately hateful people like to dump dogs , we would wind up taken a few in every year, and find them a home .. But that beagle was goofy, I made a snowball one day and he kept jumping up wanting to play thinking it was a real ball so I threw it and he ran then looked at me in total confusion woof at me and run back I’d make another over and over, I’d make one and hand it to him he would gently take it out of my hand trot a few paces away drop it lean down to I guess bite it and poof gone. He had lots of fun he barked every time he “ list “ his ball Congrats on your hug count ! Since I use Tapatalk to come on PC only option I have is a thanks lol __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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Like I said, though, I don't want to have to rebuild my history all over again. That's part of what's frustrating me. I mean, I looked around last night and finally found one possible place that accepted my insurance and didn't require seeing a therapist there, but they had pretty bad reviews. I know that a lot of people are mentally unwell when leaving reviews and thus, a lot of the reviews are crap, but these ones said that they had to report their therapists to the state!! (It was a smallish practice with like 3 therapists and 1 pdoc.) I don't know if that problem has been fixed, and I know the complaints were about therapists rather than the pdoc, but that concerns me. People also said they got erroneous charges to their insurance. (So possible insurance fraud?) I may have to expand my desired proximity, but I really don't want to have to drive 1+ hours each way just to see a pdoc. I hate driving around here as it is since people in MA are the worst drivers. And going to downtown Boston at a place like MGH is a no go because parking is expensive, limited (i.e., I may not be able to find a spot), and it can take me 2+ hours to get there because of dead stop traffic, even though it should only take 30 mins. And public transportation is just as awful. Getting on a bus or train isn't worth it. Firstly, you have to find a parking at the train/bus station. Secondly, you have to hope there is enough room on the bus/train (otherwise you're waiting an hour or more until the next one comes). Thirdly, you are stuck dealing with public transportation schedules. Like, if you have an appt that ends at 2pm and you get to the train/bus station, you may have to wait until like 3:30pm to get a train/bus, assuming others aren't waiting on line!! |
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