[Victoria'smom]

Here thinking it may take less effort then continuing to breath. I'm still in bed so I'm safe. H is not answering my text. I know I'm going to cry while swallowing the proper medication but I'd rather cry in my own home then in a psych ward.

[Daonnachd]

Things are bad in my head. I wish I were dead.

[Fuzzybear]

Hoping everyone stays safe despite the bad thoughts..
Hoping they ease soon..

Hugs and respect to all

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

Here thinking it may take less effort then continuing to breath. I'm still in bed so I'm safe. H is not answering my text. I know I'm going to cry while swallowing the proper medication but I'd rather cry in my own home then in a psych ward.

Taking your meds how ever distressing it can be, but it is better than IP

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

Things are bad in my head. I wish I were dead.

Im sorry , I get that feeling sometimes, truly sucks.... Just focus on Friday and getting ECT that has always helped you. Stay safe

[childofchaos831]

We're not okay.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by childofchaos831

We're not okay.

Im sorry your struggling is there anything you can do to distract yourself, Or something soothing???

[childofchaos831]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Im sorry your struggling is there anything you can do to distract yourself, Or something soothing???

We're trying... Nothing's working.

[~Christina]

Just keep trying everything you can think of, maybe a warm shower or bath , music, a movie you enjoy. Call a warm line talk or text or a hotline if you need..

Stay safe

[ADWith]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

SUICIDE DISCUSSION THREAD

Welcome Everyone!

We'd like to introduce a (trial)Suicide Discussion Thread to address the topic of suicide, which is a significant challenge for those living with either Bipolar I or Bipolar II.

Researchers estimate that between 25% and 60% of individuals with bipolar disorder will attempt suicide at least once in their lives and between 4% and 19% will compete suicide.

Suicide attempts in bipolar I and bipolar II disorder: a review and meta-analysis of the evidence

In response to recent requests for a safe place to openly discuss suicidal thoughts/ideation/struggles, we hope to address these needs via a discussion thread here in the Bipolar Forum.

~Christina and Wild Coyote have secured PC Admin's approval to start a (trial) Suicide Discussion Thread.

Please Note the Following Guidelines:

*This thread may not be a good fit for some; yet may prove very helpful for others. Know your triggers!

*Do NOT discuss plans or intentions here.

*Neither one of us offers 1:1 support. If you are experiencing acute difficulties and are not receiving the support you need from the community, you may note this in your post; it would then be wise to seek an alternative source of support.

*Make sure you have a crisis plan in place with your provider so you know which steps to take in order to stay safe.

PLEASE REVIEW THE PC COMMUNITY GUIDELINES FOR POSTING ON THIS TOPIC:

Our Suicidal Posting Policy & Suicide Resources

There is a list of hotlines on the above thread as well.

If you have questions, please pose them in a post directly on the thread.

This is a trial Suicide DiscussionThread. If members respect guidelines, we may be able to offer long-term Suicidal Discussions and support.

THANK YOU!

Thank you for what your doing here. I believe it is consequential to know your triggers are and take part in hobbies that will help get your mind off those triggers. That's the only thing that saved me.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by ADWith

Thank you for what your doing here. I believe it is consequential to know your triggers are and take part in hobbies that will help get your mind off those triggers. That's the only thing that saved me.

Thank you Glad you are doing well

[~Christina]

I've always struggled at times with Suicidal thinking, Its just part of my particular Bipolar soup. Most days its a passing thought, Other times when I am not doing well I need to pull out my safety plan and work the steps and hurdles and reach out for help...

My T asks the same questions per the companies policy if I have wanted to go to sleep and not wake up , Have I thought of ending things and if so how ? and do I plan to carry that out..

My husband has been very sick for a month now... When I talked to my T 2 weeks ago, he asks me the questions.. Reality hit me .. I do not have the "luxury" of thinking about suicide anymore, When I would either get shoved into a situational hopeless place or my chronic pain had me once again thinking .... Why ? what is the point of getting up each day..

I cant day dream that I no longer exist, or not have chronic pain that is so bad it hurts to breath, I cant escape into that place that often honestly is comforting, knowing I can pick and choose to stay or go.. the "thinking" was a coping skill and now its been ripped away from me...

This is something I need to talk to my T about....

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I've always struggled at times with Suicidal thinking, Its just part of my particular Bipolar soup. Most days its a passing thought, Other times when I am not doing well I need to pull out my safety plan and work the steps and hurdles and reach out for help...

My T asks the same questions per the companies policy if I have wanted to go to sleep and not wake up , Have I thought of ending things and if so how ? and do I plan to carry that out..

My husband has been very sick for a month now... When I talked to my T 2 weeks ago, he asks me the questions.. Reality hit me .. I do not have the "luxury" of thinking about suicide anymore, When I would either get shoved into a situational hopeless place or my chronic pain had me once again thinking .... Why ? what is the point of getting up each day..

I cant day dream that I no longer exist, or not have chronic pain that is so bad it hurts to breath, I cant escape into that place that often honestly is comforting, knowing I can pick and choose to stay or go.. the "thinking" was a coping skill and now its been ripped away from me...

This is something I need to talk to my T about....

You have a tremendous amount of stress, pain, grief/sadness to cope with every single day. You've been doing an outstanding job. There comes a time when we all can use more support.

I fully intend to be here for you.

[~Christina]

Thank you WC

[Crook32]

I need these thoughts to stop. I feel like my brain is working against me. I need to quiet it.

Once in my life, living much more depressed than I am now, suicide was a regular consideration. Now, I am older, wiser, stronger and a better me, and even though I struggle with my life, my goals and my dreams, I now know that the sun will rise and tomorrow will be a new day. I know this seems silly but giving yourself one more day makes a world of difference. Please keep on keepin’ on and live life the way you intend to live it.

[~Christina]

Crook is your punching bag still helpful? I wish I had a trick to get rid of the thoughts but I have learned to live with it, I think it, I acknowledge it and I think of something I can do physically.. Usually for me its cleaning..

Maybe you can acknowledge it and say Ok this is how I feel right now but tomorrow its likely to change.

Do you have any plans for the weekend? Yes things are so different with Covid but having something to look forward too helps

[~Christina]

ann bog that is a wonderful way to deal with the thoughts

[Crook32]

Have taken a couple days off from the punching bag. I been having side effects from meds and haven’t felt like it.

[~Christina]

Crook ... Maybe just taking a walk could help? Change up your scenery? I know you have Kids are there any games you can play with them to get your out of your own head? I dont know where you live , but its hot as hell here in TN, If I had kids I'd likely be outside playing in the sprinklers or water hose...

Hope the Med side effects go away quickly