Just Made Brownies--I Feel Better!

Was feeling a bit down and a bit psychotic. Grey and yukko here today. Inside, like everyone. Got off my butt and made some quickie brownies, just from a mix, not scratch (BirdDancer would be ashamed). But I do have to say, this Ghiradelli double chocolate mix is not half bad for a mix. Should have made my own, but am almost out of cocoa.

Anyway, it is amazing how, for me, just getting up and taking action--any action--improves things for me. Just doing something rather than nothing is often a right step for getting me out of my head.


Plus, now I have yummy brownies!!

Congrats on making brownies.

What do you mean by "a bit psychotic"?

Awesome! Baking always makes me feel better, and brownies are the best!

Yum! We made the Ghiardelli triple fudge brownies this week and they were awesome. I've never seen a pan of brownies go so fast No shame.

Oh no! I have been craving brownies for days now and have, thus far, not made any!
I do agree these are fantastic: " the Ghiardelli triple fudge brownies"

Are they kosher? I'm coming over!

Well, specifically and since you asked, I continue to firmly believe that my next-door neighbor has an infrared camera that he is using to spy on me through a contract with some faceless government entity I cannot identify. Also believe that my across-the-hall neighbor is definitely gathering intelligence on me. Believe both my phone and computer and router have been hacked. Believe that a government agency is messing with my email, including specifically, contacting people who have been very supportive of me in the past and telling them lies in order to cause those supportive people to no longer support me, thus isolating me, thus, in their hopes, further destabilizing me.


You get the idea. Sorry. Bit that's the way t is right now...

Thank you for asking.

Ha!! I will have to check on that!

No, no, I am not ashamed of you! Ghirardelli is yummy!

It's 2:50 am and I am awake and was craving blueberry waffles for breakfast wishing they could be made much easier than they can. Perhaps even miraculously appear. Then you post about those yummy Ghirardelli brownies and I think "Mmm, they sound yummy for breakfast, too!"

Can you transport a couple brownies to me via Star Trek transporter?

Update: The idea of your brownies tempted me so much that I had to go downstairs and defrost a small chocolate chocolate chip zucchini muffin from my freezer. Not quite a fudge brownie, but at least now I might get back to sleep.

I'm glad to hear you're feeling a bit better, bpcyclist. I often bake, too, when depressed. Bread, usually. I find it just enough of a challenge to keep me coming back, but not so much that it will just frustrate me when I can't concentrate.

I bet they taste good.

so glad you feel better!

You don't have to answer this, but I'm curious as to what thoughts you use to challenge these assertions. I can think of several strategically sound points that might lead you to other conclusions.

Also, is it possible these repeated experiences are symbolic in nature?

Hey -- everyone likes baking so much i must do some! Now that i'm not dieting i am free to indulge. I've made zucchini bread before. A favorite. Homemade food tastes fantastic! I tend to eat a lot of frozen stuff. Not a good time for shopping for baking things tho. Will save this idea for when the virus passes.

I love to smell bread baking. It lifts my mood, at least for awhile.

Mmmm, brownies! Glad you're feeling a bit better, I hope that psychosis stuff goes away for you, I know you've been struggling for quite a while now

Chocolate for breakfast is always a solid plan!!

Preparing the transponder now...

I have only made bread a couple of times, but it was super fun. Thanks for the support, fluffy.

I have to agree that taking action helps...we’ve been clapping for people on the front lines every night at eight in the window...I’m not sure anyone will ever know but it’s doing something....

Mmm. Well, for one, as far as I am aware, there is nothing about me that could possibly be of the slightest interest to any large organization. I have no important information. I do not break the law. I was never in intelligence. Not in the middle of a divorce or business breakup. So, on it's face, it makes no sense whatsoever. I am just not a very interesting person.

Second, there is a ton of security in this building. Everything is recorded--every single entry and exit. Everything is on video. There is no way some kind of big operation like this could happen without property owner support and they would never do that without multiple warrants/court orders/etc. And there is zero basis for any legit judge.court to approve such orders, as I abide by all laws.

Third, I have both bipolar 1 with a lot of psychotic features, esp. lately, and PTSD. I was, in fact, horrifically mistreated by law enforcement long ago. That did actually occur. I have some of it on tape at my attorney's office, just so you know. But there is no question that those years badly damaged my brain. My threat assessment system is completely broken.No question about this.

So, I know all these things. And they are somewhat helpful to be aware of. But I am still struggling despite that insight.

Not sure about that symbolism piece. I am operating at a more literal, concrete, fear-based point of mind in all this.