Bipolar check in #45

Man, Jennifer, that is just hideous. I am so sorry. You might want to start looking at generators now, esp. if you would buy locally. They have a way of selling out fast after these types of events.

Sending you prayers and support!!!!!! Hang in there!!

I had an awful headache last night that was making me nauseous. I luckily had Aleve on me (that coincidentally expires in April 2020, so I was very lucky with that!). I fell asleep at 7:30pm and woke up at 4am.

I am feeling pretty good, although somewhat nauseous because I did not take my meds last night. I felt nauseous after taking the aleve, so I decided not to push it and make myself throw up from putting too many meds in my stomach. I wish I didn't have to skip my meds though... but like, I nearly puked when I took the aleve. Ughhh... not fun!

Well, I have a pdoc appt tomorrow, so we'll see how that goes. Should be my last one with him once I call the front desk to remind them that I want to switch pdocs. I need to ask how long the wait is though...

Then Friday I will tell my therapist about my evil first therapist who needs to be reported. Hmmm... should make for an... errr.... interesting convo... lol.

It is 34 degrees and SNOWING here! And we get more of the same on Friday! I can't express how much "UGH!" I'm feeling right now!

Send some my way please?

Tired but wired

At least you don't have to go anywhere(?)

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Mr. Robot

Makes me sick to the heart, Oh I feel so tired. And the way the rain comes down hard, that's how I feel inside.

--The Cure

I'm doing alright. I have an appointment with my psychiatrist tomorrow over the phone. Gonna see about changing one of my meds. Other than that not much going on. My sister is ordering me one of those handmade cloth masks since our governor just signed an executive order stating everyone must wear one when out grocery shopping, at the pharmacy, etc.

I had to make pharmacy runs today. My sleep med is only 30 days at a time, what a pain. I stopped by Culver's I'm really Leary about ordering food but I really wanted their chicken tenders. Everyone who works there is wearing cloth masks and gloves, and the place has always been friendly and clean so I felt comfortable ordering there. Was a nice change.

I did. I had to get N3 from work.

I just did 20 push ups and 50 crunches.

My case manager finally called back. Just wanted to make sure that I'm staying safe and to say that my med review with pdoc will be over the phone.

I am glad to read you are doing alright!

Our governor signed an order 2 weeks ago. Many people are not listening. The state government is now saying we are reaching our apex. I don't believe it. I hope I am wrong. New York's Governor, President Cuomo, just ordered masks on today.

I am glad your sister is helpful. My sister is, too.
Be well!

Sorry to hear you have to go every 30 days to the pharmacy, but the rest of your post sounds really great, Nammu.

I've heard/read lots of news stories that talk about how the risk of catching COVID-19 from food is very low, so you're probably fine to order again in the future. For example, Can you catch COVID-19 from food? | Live Science

Thanks WC
Yup, I live in New York , it’s weird that it took this long for our governor sign something to require them, many other states did it weeks ago

I hope you’re doing well and stay safe

I was talking with my T about suffering a drought of creativity. When I got off the phone with her I had received a Facebook communication from an author I enjoy. On his fan page I had asked a question about a town name which is so small on his map that it's illegible. He answered with the name and admitted he didn't like the name anymore. I shared a brief narrative framework for a history explaining a name change. He liked it and answered with, "Well played, sir, well played." I feel so buoyant. This is definitely the high point of my day.

Very cool, thanks for sharing this!

Congrats! That's awesome.

For a few days now I have been unable to fall asleep until somewhere between 1-2am. It is very frustrating. I am very anxious, which causes racing thoughts, specifically obsessing over my relationship with my late husband. Trying to figure out if it could have been considered abusive or not. It certainly wasn’t what I would consider “traditionally” abusive, in that he didn’t hit me or try to control me (too much). But theres a lot that did happen that I normalized at the time and now that I’m with RS, in a respectful and open/honest relationship, I think perhaps it wasn’t normal. There is a particular serious incident that I think could now be framed as an actual assault, but again, I don’t know if I’m just making a big deal out of nothing. It’s nothing I can discuss here as it would be too triggering for others.

Anyway last night I was so frustrated that after I took 100mg of trazodone and .5mg Of klonopin and was STILL AWAKE at 12:30am, that I took another 100mg Of trazodone and another 1mg of klonopin. Mistake. I passed out almost immediately, which is what I wanted, but I slept until 11am and only got up for an hour before falling back asleep until 4pm. Very, very groggy. Obviously I need to tinker with my drug intake and scale it back a bit. Or at least not take sedating meds in the middle of the night.

The estimated power restoration is Tuesday, April 21st. Very demoralizing especially with what’s already going on. I want a generator. There were three votes and I lost. I guess we’ll be roughing it for the next week.

My mental health is holding but it’s wobbly right now.

Warm regards to all.

Very cool! I'm so glad that happened!

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Well, in news from my room (haha), the unemployment person called and we got everything sorted. Yea! Other than that, just doing little stuff, keeping occupied. I should get out for a little walk. Haven't been outside at all today.

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Mr. Robot

Makes me sick to the heart, Oh I feel so tired. And the way the rain comes down hard, that's how I feel inside.

--The Cure